Of Fallen Hopes and Broken Dreams

I
don't
even
know
what
to
say
anymore.
maybe...
PLEASE.
HIRE.
ME.

Give all my secrets away

Yes!
ok here is blogskin No.2
finished it within a day!
personal record! heh.

Making a blogskin
sure takes my mind off things.

Like worrying about jobs.
and exercise.
and irritating issues such as the above.

and there is this..sense of accomplishment.
which
is
awesomeee.
HAHAHAA.

ok guess that is all for today. Tired out.
Gonna post this up on blogskins.com for anyone who wants it
ciao!

As we wait out this winter storm

What does it mean to be me?
Who created me?
Or a more appropriate question is.
What created me?
How do I exist?
Why am I feeling sad?

All questions no doubt.
unanswered ones.
For life is all but naught,
in the sunny winter night.

Must be the Money

'sup.

Nothing much to blog about today.
Been living the usual.
Rotting at home.
Going out.

No job.
No job.
No job.

sigh.

Looks like the fortune-teller WAS right.
i'm amazed. hahaa.
at least that means I'm going to get..awesome results.
and ...girls? HAHAHAA.
sorry I still think that is really funny. haha.

ok. so.. hmmm..
Main priority now is to get a job.
then probably start picking up another musical instrument.
Probably keyboard.
Let's hope I can finish them before I head on down to hell island

Yeap.
Nothing much to report
from this sad, lonely life.
Did I mention I'll probably have to spend Christmas alone?
yea.
sad,lonely life.

Make em laugh, make em laugh

CCA gathering today at shaun's place! =D
Went there abit late.
Played Halo with jordan!

hmmmm.
had awesome food!

and drinks.
woah. drinks.
Gin, Whiskey, Vodka
Orange Juice, Coke, Ginger Ale.
just name it man.

I learnt a few lessons today:
Never let a girl mix around your drinks 'just for fun'
Mixing all the alcohol together is NOT a good idea
and
I seem to do better at games when intoxicated. heh.

Boozed out.
Probably need sleep at this moment.
But I'm just going to stone out here a while more.

Cheers Shaun!
thanks! =DD

From the world of the lost

So... I am back!

hmmm. Where to start.
Day 1-Saturday:
Went out at 7pm after a whole day of moping about.
Reached the coach at 8.
Slept.
Kept waking up along the way for passports and whatsnot.

Day2-Sunday
It was a 10 to 12 hours ride.
But finally reached.
My mum was freaking out
cause she thought that we missed our stop.
and knowing the coach...
stop are probably hundreds of km apart from each other.
anyway!
we didn't.
so there.

Reached at about..7am?
met relatives went their place.
waited an hour.

I brought 4 library books along,
intending to do abit of reading up there.
I mean...
it's an idyllic small town.
so... there isn't much to do.
besides...read?

So I was carrying along my book the whole trip.
and I realized, after 10 years of not visiting,
carrying around a book with the title
'The Serial Killers' Club' isn't exactly...
welcoming. HAHAHAHA.

Mum went food-berserk at the market.
we shared 3 bowls of noodles:
Hokkein mee, Kway teow, and..i can't remember what's the last one.
anyway.
yeap!

at night, went to this weekly pasar malam.
it's like... this really huge night market.
probably 10 times our pasar malam size thingy.

Wanted to buy clothes.
but their clothes ain't too cheap.
at about..RM50 a piece.

Their LAN gaming was...crazy cheap though.
3 hours for RM3

Went home after that.
Read book. Finished the first book!
Slept.

Day 3- Monday
Can't...really...remember.
OH WAIT.
yes I do!
Went to the dentist.
Cause apparently it's really cheap there.
And I can escape the dentist back here.
muahahaha.

Apparently, the reason why it's so cheap?
The dentist doesn't use anesthesia.
I found that out.
the hard way.
the REALLY hard way.

I was tearing there.
and kept spitting mouthfuls of blood
after blood.
after he was done.
HAHAHAHAA.
but at least it's over! wheeee.

Day 4- Tuesday
Went shopping!
Played arcade!
yada yada!

ohoh and my mum and I were browsing the alcohol section.
And a bottle of like... alcohol is only RM4.
i'm not kidding!
that is like... S$1.66?!
and singapore sells one for easily 7 to 8 bucks.
what a rip-off.
I knew the government taxed alcohol.
but THIS much?!
kind of insane.

and I was walking when I saw this shelve full of booze.
from ABC Beer to Tiger Beer.
And above the shelve was a large sign
saying
'Tidak Halal'
I have no idea what Tidak means.
But Halal?!
I thought muslims who go Halal can't alcohol?!
and i didn't know there was such thing as Halal-alcohol.
HAHAHAHA.

Went home..
Drank that bottle.
my mum took a bit.

Day 5-Wednesday
Stomachache.
Pain.
(the alcohol)
(owch)
bad alcohol.

Went fortune-telling.
Apparently the temple...
woman is supposed to be very good at fortune-telling
or whatsnot.
She was using those standard poker card decks and stuff.

So my mum made me go first because she wanted to ask about my A's results.
(wow.)
It was really quite hilarious.
I was trying not to laugh.
Because the atmosphere was so...serious
and there were like..relatives there.
who were all like..really serious.

ok so this is how it went.
my mum wanted to ask about results.
So the fortune-teller asked me to take some cards..yada yada

So she read the cards and said
*his results.. will be very good*
*There's an Ace of hearts here... that's number 1*
*will be able to go any university he likes*
so my mum was happy.
I was like.. yay!
then before my mum could continue asking about my results.
the fortune-teller continued
'Do you have any girls falling in love with you?'
I was like.... bwuh!? HAHAHAHA.
so I was like... er.... no?
She was like..
'If you do in the near future, you will be very confused'
'But remember that studies always come first'
then i was like...er...ok?
then my mum cut in cause she wanted to ask about army.
so the fortune-teller was looking at her and like
'Yea... his army life will be 2 compulsory years(Like... ya? no choice)'
'Will be over very soon, no disasters, will be able to rise in ranks.. yada yada'
then before my mum could ask again
she look at me and told me
'When you go to university, there will be alot of girls.'
she kept emphasizing alot.
I was on the verge of laughing already
cause my mum didn't care about the girls part.
but the fortune-teller kept telling me about girls.
as though giving me some..insight into my future.
girls?
hmmmm.
anyway! after some more of the same interjecting
and I was trying not to laugh.
She said I may not be able to find a good job this holiday
because I got low employ-ability this period.
yeapp.
Oh. And she told me not to take any medicine/doctor course in uni
she recommended being...a lawyer?
even though I told her I was considering corporate.
She said if I was a lawyer,
It will be very yi lu shun feng. thingy.
She said I will be the very quiet type.
(I'm guessing the type who do law contracts instead of court defending)

Then she continued telling me about how there will really be alot of girls in university.
HAHAHAHAHAA.
so I'm guessing my court in uni will be... populated by girls?
LOL.

and then she said
my friends are all good people.
Don't have to worry about them.
hmmm.
then my mum was so pek chek.LOL
my mum was like.. er...ok already bah. my turn!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAAA.
anyway! she said I will be able to get into any uni I choose
because of my good results.
denoted by the Ace I chose twice in a row.
(yea. Even I was surprised. two Aces in a row. Damn that's good)

Then took the coach.
Came home.
Slept.
Woke up.
Here!

Gonne send in my resume today I guess.
Time to look hard for a job.
With my low employ-ability and all.

seeya!

Riding off to Nowhere

-I guess she's an Xbox-
nahhh probably not nowhere.

Will be away to Penang from this Saturday to...
probably next Wednesday,
or maybe Tuesday,
or maybe Thursday.
Depends, I guess.

Yes. Today is this Saturday.
This Saturday as in today.
I will be leaving at...7 plus?
Coach leaves at 8 plus.

Been a long time since i went back.
Like.... 10 years?
maybe?
around there.

And I think I'mma gonna do a little shopping
while I'm there.

Got myself 4 books from the library yesterday.
So..Probably will get to catch up on some reading.
Maybe I'll even get to do some writing.
That means I'll be offline for these few days.
Unless I'm REALLY bored and there's a LAN shop there.
then... it's a different case.
and since my phone is Wi-Fi capable.
I guess any spot that has Wi-Fi access would mean I can go online too.
but i don't think that is going to be very likely though.
hmmmm.


Would also be a good break from staring at the computer
like..everyday also.

Planning to blast off my resumes after I return from the trip.
Yeap. Gonna start work soon.

Life during the holidays
always seem so much better,
if you have money
I'm talking about TONS of money.
heh.

I need to buy myself a MP4/iPod/whatever plays music.
before NS.

What else...what else....
Hmmm nothing much I guess.

-I'm more an Atari-

Poison makes everyone feel better

-I’m coming home-
The months of anti-depression are catching up to me.

Hell.
Company is seriously addictive.
Im just alone for just 2 days.
and im reduced to this.

emo rock songs
bad mood
vodka.

Im this close to writing stories.

Did I mention that Q raspberry tastes like poison?
ok actually it tastes like cough medicine.
but with the vodka,
it tastes like pink poison.
or blood red poison.

Like something used to kill vampires or something.

I hope it is.
poison, that is.

Then perhaps it can get me out of this world
and into the world beyond.

ahh god dammit.
spilled some onto my shirt.
now it is blossoming
into blood stains.

wounds to kill me.
death by loss of blood.
thats good...right?

Wow.
Looks like this no-job vacation
is turning out to be worse than I thought.
much worse.

I seriously need to get something.
and without my mum nagging at me about which one is worth it and which ones are not.

No comedies can ever compare to a tragedy.
and for what it’s worth:
it’s a tragedy.

-I’m coming home-

Here's a postcard and my heart

-Wish you were here-


Went to watch the next three days with wee seng and clinton.
not too bad a movie.

imagine season1 of prisonbreak condensed into a 2 plus hours movie
and there you have it.
the next three days.

Boredom: An occurrence when one is not distracted enough to realize that they have no aim in life

Everyone is out playing
except me.
except me.

-Wish you well

Wish You Were Here

-I wish you-

I always have this depressive streak at night.
no idea why.

I guess... that means I have to sleep early.
which is a good thing....right?
right?

Been doing reading.
going out.
mahjong.

I keep having this feeling that I am lagging behind.
on exercise.
on career.
on dental, even.
need time to do all of em.

no motivation yet, though.
I will just have to see how it goes down.

yeappp.
did I mention company is addictive?
If you dont have it,
sooner or later you will learn to make do.
and live without it.

the moment you do,
you just keep gotta having more.
and more.
and more.
it
just
doesnt
stop.



-You were here-

Those are all very beautiful words but actions speak louder

-you only call me after you had a few-

Went to MIND cafe to play today!
was aweeesomeee.
heh.
Dezhan was crazy about the this board game about trains.
(lol)
AHAHHAAA.
it is cheap too!

like... 6 dollars for 4 hours?
that amounts up to 1.50 an hour?
and it includes free flow drinks!
awesomeeee.

I am tired now.
hmmmm.

mahjong tomorrow.
lacking one person though.

lets just see how it goes. =)
-you only wanna hang out after youve had a few-

the End of Love

-why do you have to be so damn clever-

I packed up my room today.
all the files
all the guide books
the pens
the pencils the staplers
everything.

gone.
the papers.
gone.

and you too.
gone.

felt liberating...
am I suppose?

to feel?

hmmm.
why is it so difficult.
to be so damn clever.
dammit.


-didnt even say goodbye-

this is my 667th post. lead me out of evil.

-Theres so much time-
today was fun!
la-di-da

went esthers place!
dammit i still cant use the semi-colon thingy.
and the apostrophe button.
keyboard spoil.

boooooo.
only to take it easy tomorrow. hmmmm
gonna relax now bye!
-To figure out the rest of my life-

The day is finally over.

-and everybody knows-
heyya!
ok so this blog is going to be active again.

I know..after so long. LOL
hmmm.

ok so some things to share.
I clicked my hotmail.
and there appeared this message!

The following is an e-mail from the past, composed on September 02, 2010, and sent into the future (now the present) through FutureMe.org.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

'sup. This is past me. Life's starting to get really creepy and scary. How does it feel to have everything past and over your shoulder.
Must be great, eh?

Hope you have lotsa' fun.
Remember:
Get a job, learn new things, and train.

Gotta go Complex Numbers test tomorrow.

Have a good life!

=======================================================================================

yes. HAHAHA.
there is this service called FutureMe
where you type in a message you want sent to your email in the future.
and the email does it for you.

so I did type the message(it is not spam) HAHAA.
and... i feel awesome compared to my past in... september.
HEH.
go try it!
www.futureme.org

what else...
oh yes.
ITS OVER!
HAHAHHAHAHAA.

k going out tomorrow.
bye!

-last time better than the next time-

Going out to all survivors.

This is..bzzt...yeo wenbin. I am in...bzzt.. ang mo kio.. bzzt... ave.3.
I am alive.
I am not dead.
bzzt...if there is any..bzzt..survivors out there..bzzt...
I will be in...bzzt...grey...bzzt..building..bzzt..yio chu kang.. bzzt...
when sun...bzzt.. is..bzzt..highest...

This..bzzt..going...bzzt.. out...bzzt all survivors...
any survivors...bzzt...please..bzzt..reply...

bzzt...

-End of Transmission-

Slice like a ninja ; cut like a razorblade

Studying in progress


(It feels like hell)
(but whoever said hell cant be fun?)

It's your birthday birthday

And Life as he knew it would change, the moment he reached 21. The Association would pick him up. He would never know what was coming, his powers, it was all locked in. They had to get to him before it all came out. They have to control his initial burst, and then train him.

Heyya!
ok I'll just skip to the best part, presents! =D
from fang yu yeongjing amanda ann judi esther (did I miss anyone out?)

dumb-bells! HAHAA. vinyl! wooo!
HAHAHA. Now I can train at home! no more school gym! =D
it's mahjong, it's rubik's, it's.. a magic cube!
courtesy of dezhan and hari, it features mahjong, rubiks and hours of fun!=D
and last but not least!
bread from mdm loh! =D thanks! =D

thanks to everyone who celebrated and/or wished my happy birthday!
really appreciated it! =D

and they train fervently, the students of the Association, knowing that one day, all, including him, would have to face the fearful, the dreaded Corporation. It was just a matter of time, and even that wasn't on their side. They trained.

Can't do anything right

Strangers, waiting, up and down the boulevard
I have nothing much to say today.

My mind is this... flurry of words.
not exactly words, but more of... thoughts.
one, to the other, to the other and to the other.

Being busy certainly keeps you from thinking morbid thoughts.
Kudos to whatever compre paper I did that mentioned this.
Lucy Kellaway.. was it? ah wells. can't remember.

But Believe.
that's the only way to live,
is it not?

It's going to get worse,
It always does.
But whoever said you can't enjoy it?

Just one more time

Get up and dance

The waves crashed against the rocks.

so. I'm here.
The start of another lap.
One more milestone down.
I really hope this one will turn out alright though.

I'm putting in everything.
everything.
This has to turn out how it has to.
There can be no other way.

On the brighter side,
life's challenges can really get fun.
It's when one learns that challenges
are just like.. enemies in a game,
that one is able to have fun.

Sure playing Mario, or Maplestory or Space Invaders
is bound to be easy without any enemies.
But... where's the FUN in that?

And so, life has its own challenges.
And of course,
the harder the enemy.
the better.

the better I say.
For they always give better spoils of war.
better score,better items.

So, let them come.
I'm prepared.

Let them come.

And the wind gushed up the shore.

Hell of a concept

have a 4 day break kind of suck.

It's too long to just kick back and relax,
yet it's too short for me to like...
take up a long-term distraction
like a job or go overseas.

And I'm totally out of inspiration nowadays.
Which accounts for this short post.

It's the stress man.

Rising Dawn

The sunlight streamed across the dark barren landscape like a warm blanket. The trees, or whatever was left of them, lit up and almost seemed to lean in towards the creeping sunlight.
It was here again.

After 200 years, the planet of Chonk was having their summer. It wasn't a freak occurrence, even though scientists all over the universe haven't been able to come to an appropriate theory yet, well, not a scientific one anyway.

The villagers of Malpo were looking on in the awe of the sun's powers. It had been so long, so cold. They knew it was only through the power of Numb, their God of Ice, were this possible. The Icy world of Hell has retreated and made way for the weakling BBQ, a lousy minor supernatural servant who controlled the fire.

And a meteorite came and destroyed the village and everything in its path.

The End.

Learn a Lesson: It's not Me

WOHOOOOO.
NO MORE PRELIMS.
PLAY PLAYPLAYPLAY.
I NEED THIS.
LALALALA.

NO I HAVE NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT TODAY.
OK.
BYE.

lockdown, run.

had a weird dream.
awesome to say the least.

something to do with the SWAT team chasing me
and me and my accomplice(no idea who)

had stolen a fire engine.
And I was driving it.
even though I had no idea how.

So I just swerving around and stuff.
and I had this scooter with me.

and after we got the SWAT off our tails.
We got out and rested.

Then talked about how much we have now and tried to settle some crime stuff.
then we heard SWAT coming again.

then i picked up the scooter and ran.
And he went to the fire engine to get out.

I ran to this seminar exhibition hall thing.
Tried to blend in with the visitors.
Looked at the poster on the wall of the exhibition
and it read
"Distribution and Mean. How to find them and solve 'em"
and there was this picture of a normal distribution curve.

Then someone was whispering excitedly about cops coming.
So i tried to get me into the seminar
But was blocked by the bodyguard.

So I ran back and tried to slide down the stairs.
Just as the SWAT came up.
and I woke up.

darn it!

And I don't ever wanna hear you say

This is.
crazy.

Yea. My mind's all scrambled
boggled
and yet..
so composed.

(composed?)

so calm

(yea right.)

and everything in its rightful place.

(except your mind.)

The mind is stronger than the body.
Don't forget your objective.
Your targets.
most importantly.

your victims.

never forget your victims.

I don't wanna make you cry

So.
Life.
upside.
up.
down.
here.
there.
everyway.
everywhere.

(Do you die?)

sky. clouds. sun.

(where do you go?)

here. there. everywhere.

(where did you go?)

up.down.

(Do you live?)

sideways.
no.
left.right.

(Die?)

there's this feeling.

(Do you die?)

growing

(Do you?)

up.
out.

(I don't think you die.)

No. don't think.
think.

(You can't die.)

Up. Out.

(Not until you lived.)

Out. up.

(who's to say?)

who's to say.

I want it all

This. That. and That.
Everything.
gimmegimmegimme! =D

I think I'm slowly becoming crazy.
I don't know.

I'm doing alot of things I normally wouldn't do.
Does that count as going crazy?

yada yada.

I'm taking alot more breaks than I'm supposed to.
But I guess all's for the best.

As long as the work gets done...right?

I'm tired.
But the stakes just went up.
And I'm going all in.

You may have a good hand,
But my hand IS the winning hand.
Just you wait and see.

21st century breakdown

What does this look like? Yea. this.

so yeap.
A word about my experience at Cafe Cartel.
Went there to eat like.. yesterday?
Had the 'lunch special'
came with lots of complementary stuff.
no, not complimentary, COMPLEMENTARY.
cause their main course was so deceivingly.... not.
that they had to bribe consumers with airy sponge cake and free bread to make up for it.
Ok.
So i ordered a 'Breaded Fish Fillet With Lemon and Mash Potatoes and Daily Veggies"
This is what I got:

Yea I was on my way to finish it.
But the point is. this was my MAIN course.
see those fish fingers up there?
There were 5 of 'em.
that's the fish fillet.

and the daily veggies were COLD.
STONE COLD.
it was just pure cold corns.

I was unwilling to be outdone by wordplay.
So I went to check up the word 'fillet'
this is what it said:

a boneless cut or slice of meat or fish, esp. the beef tenderloin.

Ok fine. a what?
cut or slice.
outdone by words.
Probably the worst 'lunch offer' ever.

ok next.

I'm now so bored during lessons
and after-lesson plans in library.
I've decided to use dezhan's huge
i mean HUGGEGEEE
amounts of stationary
to build a castle!

It's called 'Dezhan's Castle'
You can even see the 'flag' right on top =D

This is proof of how many pens Dezhan actually HAS.
But I guess it is kind of good.
I mean, you can never have too many pens, can you?
Especially with all the writings and stuff.

From another angle.
Yea. It's all balanced up. COOL RIGHT.

and this is how I spent my afternoon studying for complex numbers.

'out.

And we'll be, going through the motions

Today is just...
not a very productive day, is it?

If this is life after A levels,
then help me.
oh help me.

I need some excitement,
some discipline,
some hard work,
some laziness
some luck.
and some luck.

Sweet beginnings do arise

Bring me up.
Smash me down.

Give me rest.
Show me peace.

Let the world decide.
the wars.
the killings.

Peace.

You and Me

Now that is what I call
an effective way to bring across a point.

HAHAHA.
I have little mood to blog nowadays.

Probably due to all the hustle and bustle of daily events
hogging up my time.

Life just ain't that simple anymore,ya know?

I.
don't even know what to say now.

AWD.

These 3 letters just came to my mind all of a sudden.
No idea why. ah well.s

Sit up, stand up, scream and shout

I'm crazy.

Yea. probably.

De-stressing is now a vital part of our lives.
Because blowout is coming up the horizon.

And there's this innate need to last out as long as possible.
Possibly after A-levels.
before all hell breaks loose.

KIA.

Soo yeap.
I'm here.
going to have a nice good long night of rest.
=)

and a big thanks to dezhan and gang!
they heard I wanted a harmonica
and they got me one today! HAHAHA.
I'm so happy now! lalala.
(even though I have absolutely no idea how to play it.)
HAHAHHAA.

oh and I heard how loud a vuvuzela can really go.
It's.crazy.
yea but I'm going crazy too.
So...

kookoo!

Anyway you choose it come on

So yeap.

Just came back.
Went to have dinner with family.

So.freaking.tired.
and I didn't even get to study much today.
tomorrow, tomorrow.
It's always tomorrow.

At least I know tomorrow will be a more...
relaxed school day.

and no timed prac!
thank you.
thank you.

Ever had the feeling,
everyone knows something
that you don't?

Yea I know,
me too.


me too.

Faith is guilty!

Tonight.
is.
a.
very.
dark.night.

And I just ate.
But my stomach feels weird.
Like a semi-state between hungry, and not so.

YOG was... sigh.
Ok i expected it to be...more magnificent.

I mean the Olympic flame had protesters trying to disrupt the flame
all along the way, igniting world-wide controversy.
And...what do we have?
A Primary school kid who ran 15km.
like.. ok......
I bet the people in... Mozambique run like 20 everyday.
or something.

While I was eating dinner and watching,
hearing the commentator go on about hope,
and world peace and whatsnot.
I switched to CNA.
This is in order what i saw:

"New Landslides in China-- Killed hundreds"
"Wall street down in 4 quarters consecutively"
you get the idea.

Oh wells.
Let's hope the athletes from China don't have relatives in that landslide.

Bring up Fate for questioning

'sup.

My NDU was...sigh.
I didn't even give a definite answer during the interview.
So my fate is still....totally in the hands of them now.

I'm just going to take whatever comes.
Since it comes and it goes,
and this is not going to have a long-term effect on me.
Or at least no negative ones I can think of right now.
Unless I die or lose a limb or two,
but i hope not. bleh.

Resting tonight.
Or should i say, resting for like.. one hour.
then i'm off to bed.
for two more timed pracs tmr.
and this week is suppose to be..
my more slack week.

Life.is.
not exactly in the best of terms with me right now.

Who knows?
Maybe it really IS for some greater good in the future.
who knows?

Just take what comes,
one step at a time,
and you'll see the big picture,
soon enough.

soon enough.

In the Deep Dark Blue of Confusion

I.Am.Utterly. sigh.

Tomorrow.
is the NDU vocational assessment.
It's from 7.30am till 5.45pm.
talk about the horrible length of the thing?

and it's not as though I studied alot today.
Means all my tests can..prepare to fail already. LOL.

AND I'm still undecided.
I mean, I don't really mind.
But my parents are against it.
But the risk is also there...
sigh.

why can't SAF just force us to do it.
then at least we don't have to worry about whether we want it or not.

Today is not a good day.
It was full of sinful pleasure.
Not good.
I'm going to academic hell.
sigh.

The dark sky smiles

Unproductive.
unproductive.
unproductive.

Playing is like...drugs
Work is like... staying off it

At first staying off drugs is impossible,
so many people don't even bother.

Then some realize that in order for them to succeed,
they have to rehabilitate off drugs.
So some try their best to do it.
of course most people don't succeed.

In fact most people who try to go cold turkey,
often revert back after a few weeks,
deeper than ever in the drug-induced illusion.

Some, a rare few, succeed.
They took control of their lives.
They stopped the drug
that spreads throughout their body.

They see what is important,
and they don't do it.
So they get out of the drug-hallucinated life,
and they do what they know will make them happy.

So most of them go out,
and they study.
they are miserable, but they keep telling themselves,
"It's going to be worth it."
and they just do it.
It kills them inside.

Then they go on to their working life,
the world of office politics,
and they work harder than ever,
the long hours pains them,
but they just want that promotion,
so they tell themselves,
"it's going to be worth it."

And then,
old and rich.
They sit back, no family, no wife.
They look at their massive wealth,
with no one to share it with.

They are too old to drink,
too old to go out and play,
too old to laugh and joke with friends.

"Is it worth it?"

Is it better to stay in the play-induced hallucination where you will be happy,
then to face the real world and search for that true happiness that will never
come?

Just something that crossed my mind.

A girl like you could be lonely

I just.
want.
to
say.
hello.
bye.
no time to talk.
no time for anything.
bye.
maybe...

Set up the blue sky;here comes the black.

My life is a huge bunch of an entangled twine.
That didn't even made any sense.

There are a million things running around my mind.
But most of them revolve around,
"It's been a long time since I listened to 'Love-Drunk'"
and "Geog!" "Econs!" "Popular!"
and alot more other randomly unconnected topics,
thus making a million things.

It's not...stress.
It's more of...
dang, I think it's stress.

I need a time-out.
But it just feels so tiring and guilt-heavy everytime I watch tv.
yet so rewarding and liberating everytime I open up a textbook.
I think I need help.

I should probably be getting back to my geography.
or economics.

or maybe i just need some sleep.

Title has been Killed In Action

I.need.a.break.badly.

There are some times when I really need a break,
yet I don't seem to have any time to receive them.

There are work to be done,
yet nothing seem to go in.

I really think I can learn
alot more if there weren't examinations.

The stress seem to drive students to,
in a rush to learn what they have to,
forget the details, the important lessons.

I mean,
is education all about
what's in the syllabus,
and what's not?

But I guess
I'm just overwhelmed.
And after tomorrow's geog test
(which I'm going to flunk, so badly.)
I guess it'll be a relief,
to get the load off my back.

Title requires immediate attention

These little..
escapes from my schedule.
Seem to give me a very nice form of respite.
from the horrors of everyday life.

But it's all ending soon,
I promise. It's all ending soon.

I got a further reporting order.
to go sembawang naval base.
Shaun told me it's for Naval Diving Unit.
I... hope. not
but i did a google
and everything points to the possibility of that.

My mum was quite adamant about this vocation.
But i was thinking.. sure it's going to be hell.
But free diving lesson(esp with the crazy expensive lessons outside)
and I'm going to come out of it with pretty good pay and physical size.
heh. doesn't sound that bad after all.

I mean if I can suffer hell under NS as NDU,
maybe it'll give me a renewed outlook on life.
or maybe I'll really die.
HAHAHHAA.

we'll see.
Don't think i'll get chosen anyway.
cause they have
this little
thing
called
physical
assessment
and
i
can't
do
alot
of
pull-ups
remember?
HAHAHAHHA.

Title suffering from post-traumatic stress

hello. I am stressed.
ok not really.
actually.
i'm not sure.

yea i'm definitely stressed.

bye.

Title still in construction

I'm
really
really
busy
nowadays.
more than I thought I would be.

It's... strangely fun.
I must be going crazy.
But hey, crazy's fun too.

Updating may be slower.
Sorry!

Title requires further attention

I
am
quite
confused
now.
over
the
heap
of
extra
homework
that
has
come
my
way.
so
probably
nothing
much
today
sorry!

Title has been chosen for nomination

hello!
i'm here just to say

ok i submitted a story for a competition on Olympic values and racial harmony
and it came in second! wheee!
so i'm going to collect my prize the week after next. mua.ha.ha.

anything else?
not really I guess.
seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeboooooooya!

Title requires therapy for shock

Sorry
not being blogging lately.

being really really busy.
and all.
and i can't believe that
the school

don't even want to
give us a break.
like still have school,
but maybe a one week no homework break?
or maybe less?

I mean, I for one have been studying my butt off during june.
and i'm really tired out from everything.
I really need that break.
and here i am
bombarded with geog homework that
goes about 2 essay answers every lesson
in which we have. daily.
and 8 maths questions before friday
that has to be answered.

please let me have my break.
i really want to start work again next week.
and i can't do that with everyone
busting down my throat.

i'm stressed.
and after the mid-years.
oh what an irony.

Title undergoing technical problems

Just waiting so long
Unlock the pain

hmmm.
watched 'Letters to Juliet'
today.
it was a..nice show.
liked this little quote from the move:
"Love has no expiration date"
I guess that does apply to true love.
Which doesn't really exist anymore.
for those who HAVE watched the movie,
the moral of the movie simply is
"DON'T bring your wife along on your business trips"
HAHAHAHHA.

anyway yea.
fun fun fun.
how fun.
bye!

Don't you touch the water
don't you dare to breathe

Testing of #Title completed

ok.
but.
i'm tired.
another time, perhaps.

Subject #Title undergoing intensive testing

Yes undergoing intensive testing.
so.
will be back
on friday.
or maybe saturday.
depends mepends.
bye!

Subject #Title fit for experimentation

Well it was some kind of house by some kind of road
With some kind of peculiar dress code

HORRORS.
UTTER HORRORS.
HORRORS OF ALL HORRORS.

I'M IN...
PES A
PES.FREAKING.A.
SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

ok ah wells.
and apparentally for the weird vocational test
i finished like.. half an hour before everyone else.
including kia yong.
LOL
my answers must either be totally wrong.
or i'm way smarter than i give myself credit for.
i think.. it's the latter
HAHAHAHHAHAA.

i'm sorry
HAHAHA.
i'm just really happy right now.
and i have no idea why.

it might be the "That thing you do" movie i just watched.
you know you know?
that song they play every year at orientation?
yea there's a story behind it.

They suffered kind of the same fate as Beatles.
which was...kind of sad.
ah wells.

which is kind of ironic.
since i'm happy,
after a sad movie.
or is that paradoxical?

I think it's just the music I'm listening to.
OR it may be the fact that i'm taking a full-day break.
(again, i know, i know)
but it feels so good.
like.. out of this world.
especially since 'this world'
has nothing but

demand
supply
earthquakes
cyclones
migration
wide sargasso sea
Proof
elliptical curves
differentiation

Bleh.
ok... now for... notion for the day!

I believe that "written examinations should not be the bulk of an examined test on one's knowledge"

in fact, it should be the minority.
think about it.
We have three types of learners.
And most people would fall in either one of them
either visual learner
audio learner
or Kinesthetic learner.

Now, just as how everyone learns and picks up information different,
students would also have different methods of displaying these information.

Some would be excellent in writing them down,
as it provides them a concrete show of facts.
Some would prefer to do it verbally,
for the flow of points enables them to easily link facts.
And some others would prefer to show these facts,
to proof that they are real.

Now written examination only helps in one section of students.
and far from being 'satisfying the majority' it is in fact 'killing the majority'
why do i say that?
in a Singapore studying environment,
one's information is gotten through notes, lectures.
Written, and verbal.
Having written examination would FORCE students to study through notes.
as it is the method they can easily associate to repeat these facts in written examinations.

This would in fact cause them to 'turn-off' when there are audio information(lectures)
And we start blaming them for not listening in class.

Then there's the mundanitiy of notes.
What do the notes do?
They feed you.

Information Point A
Sub-Point A.
Example.
Information Point B
(related picture taken off Google)
Sub-Point B
Example
and so on.

There are rarely any hands-on.
and if there are,
instead of encouraging a student to discover for himself/herself,
the fast pace of today's Singapore syllabus
forces educators to feed them what they are suppose to do.
An example:

Study Point--To show a student that matters expand when in contact with heat.

Instead of going: "Alright, just take whatever and try it out. The first person to find out an accurate experimentation method in proving/disproving this wins a prize."

We manufacture thousands and thousands of similar, no make that IDENTICAL worksheets telling students. "First you take a ball, then you take a ring, and then you...."

Now, how does that help a student learn that in ANY way?

So, back to written examination, this forces students , over time, to learn that creativity comes at no prize, especially when all they do is get force-fed information and be told it's true. For example, we all learn about inselbergs, we learn about..caves, we learn about English literature, we learn about historical artifacts.Yet, how many of us have actually SEEN this thing with our own eyes?

For all we know it may just be hogwash.
Take Pluto.
Notice the reaction?
The shock?
Just google.
"reactions to pluto not being in solar system"
see how many people were shocked.
There were even students ASKING the scientists to 'put pluto back'
It just goes to show how our rigid education system
have bred students to believe whatever the syllabus has told them.

Thus. Written examination sucks.
[I know, I'm just lazy to write anymore]
[how ironic. I'm writing this instead of studying.]
[for what? a WRITTEN EXAMINATION. oh the irony.]

bye.

Lost them everywhere that she goes now
Lost them everywhere that she goes now

Title under attack!

Everybody knows you're the one to call
When the girls get ugly round the back of the wall

I'm here!
Today.
was.
ahhha.
ok don't talk about my day alrdy.
it's boring.

NS check-up on wednesday!
eek!
Needles, Nakedness and NS
the 3 N words that kind of...suck.
HAHAHAHA.

ok anyway!
remember how i always try to have a segment
it was .. quote of the day
then it became colour of the day
and then song lyrics of the day
then inspiration of the day
and now it's title of the day.
noww..i'm going to embark on a new one!
*drumrolls*
it's called... notions of the day!

It's when
I'll come up with a statement
that I personally belief in.
and then I'll come up with a paragraph why.
anyone who wants to argue
is free to leave a tag.
or link to your own blog/facebook note
if you're inspired to start your own
arguments.
HAHA.

so! for today!
the statement is:
"I believe that marriage in Singapore is a legal trap for men"

First, some background information from The Law Society Of Singapore
http://www.lawsociety.org.sg/public/you_and_the_law/divorce.aspx

So in a marriage, all is well if the husband and wife is happy.
however, as we know, it is not true for most marriages,
especially in Singapore.

And in a divorce case, the judge would deal in matters
such as
maintenance;
other ancillary matters (for example the division of matrimonial assets, including the matrimonial home).

Now, it is no surprise that most of the time,
it is the WIFE who demands maintenance.
This is no stereotype.
you know and i know it's true.
Division of matrimonial assets.
in which the wife would want either half of the house
or the whole thing.

NOW.
One is allowed to purchase a HDB flat
only when they get married.
so it HAS to be a matrimonial asset.
Even though most of the time,
it would be the husband paying for it.
Or if the women is working,
the husband may end up paying a bulk of it.
(This is HDB we're talking about, not private housing;
so the couple has to be relatively not rich)

And now, in a case of the divorce,
the house would have to be split into half?!
or at least a little would have to be given to the wife.
this.is.utterly.absurd!

yeap.
this is the end. ahha.
bye!

They don't come much more slick than you
I'd drive your car if you asked me to

Title not available for comment

[div="confidence booster"]We all know who's the best.
hell yea.[/confidence booster]

muahaha.
i'm tired.
like mentally tired.
but it doesn't take alot
to recharge this pumping brain.
just a day of rest or two.
and i'm back at the game like you've never seen it before.
nahh you probably have
but still!

had an awesome gathering.
pizza.
booze.
and sweeney todd.
the trip home was scary though.
cause the show ended like 1 plus am.
and i had to walk home.
ALONE.
which
was
creepy.

and on my way home.
i kept hearing this horn
like going
once.
stop.
once.
stop.
DAMN NNN CREEPY.
AND
there's this water that
KEPT DRIPPING ON MY HANDS AND LEGS.
i'm not talking about a moment thing
it's like.. ALL THE WAY HOME?!
and i kept looking back.
ok at least there were vehicles around i guess. ahha.

I have a very interesting thing to share.
but... tonight's not the night.
another night, perhaps.
perhaps.

Season: Summer