And all that counts, is here and now

so. weekend.


next week is going to be busy.
shifting offices,
but I'm looking forward to it.


A new place.


still lonely,
but I guess I'm getting used to it.
day by day.


my imagination runs too wild.

but at least it keeps me sane.


from the real world,
at least.

That's it.

I've had enough.


I may have nothing left,
but when you dug away
the smiles, the laughs.
I asked you not to do it,
not to go on.

 you did.


well, congrats.
all of you went far enough.


hit the core.


white.
hot.
anger.


and it's about to go off.

And you feel like falling down

Need to get my story straight.

Life's still in a huge mess,
but at least I'm patching it up.
untangling the ropes and wires,
knot by knot.


Being feeling really sleepy lately, though.
and burdened.
Feels as though I have got the whole world's
problems.
waiting for me to solve.


although, it's just mine.


mostly, anyway.


do people still care?


I guess not.


But it's ok.
I'll wait.

Because someday,
she'll come.
the one who cares.  

And when she does,
I'll be here.

all ready.  

And come on, come into my life

I am back.

There are tons of issues to settle,
tons of work to do,
and tons of people I have to face.
and at least want to.

myself being the hardest of all.

but I'll do it.


I have no idea where to start,
how to start, or where I am going at all.


But I know it has got to end with me.
It's not gonna be easy,
but it has to be done.


I'm thinking of starting an achievement book.
you know,
maybe it'll help.


or maybe I need to start talking again.


should I?