still sad. whatever.

back. abstained 2 days before using the computer this time.
still feeling crappy and whatsnot.
ahh whatever.

i guess it's a good thing.
as it drags on.
realizes there isn't as much to do on the internet after all.
slowly breaking off my addiction.
hope this one works for good.

tomorrow's the first publications meeting.
after like since promos.
hope we can get some serious work done.
cause there are quite a few stuff to complete.

ok next.
been finishing off novels like crazy.
just lay on bed and read and read.
finished off burnout by rod duncan last night.

a dark book.
a very dark book.
from the beginning to end.
it just robs you all hope and happiness.

even the good guys are bad guys.
everyone's a bad guy.
and even the 'happy ending' has everyone dying.
just made me feel worse then ever after finishing the book at 2am.

been practicing guitar too.
looking for some songs to play though.
song list running out of options.
i think i'm a poser.
ahh whatever.

thanks for the well-wishes.
shall reply.
guan hua, junfeng, haonam>> sorry. not been feeling myself lately.
daryl>> thanks for the tag. =)
madelyn>> yea, but don't tv nowadays also. sad.
jenna>>cause can't think of alot of people who blog what. and you also emo lorhs. hah.
Hani>> moon's lonely. =( no one up here.

ok request out.
might.
MIGHT.
want to look for study buddy.
during the holidays.
since some people.
doesn't want to reply my sms.
people all hates me.
blehh.

next thing.
was browsing stomp.
found this interesting.

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40 facts about guys

--Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are *******s. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
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dunno why.
but it's true!
hahh.
esp this one
"Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot."

i really never bothered to go and realize, but now that i think about it.
it's quite true.like really true.
like the further-est we'll go is pretty.
never beautiful.
ahh wells.
who'll ever understand.

guess that's all.
interested in making my own blogskin.
might wanna try soon.
see how.
still under computer rehab though.
and i'm still suffering from the rehab.
sucks.

seeya.

bah. whatever.

still feeling sad.
still at home.

trying to abstain from the computer.
but guess it's not working.

or i won't be online, would I.
anyways, managed a day offline.

not too bad for an addict.
for a start at least.

ok anyway, decided to do daryl's tag quiz
since i've been tagged.

and.
thought it might be interesting.

here goes.


The rules and Regulations:

* Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.
* People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
* At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names
* No tag back

I'll be fair too. will replace/ change anything that anyone besides me already know.

here goes:

1) I hardly take initiative. some might kinda know already. but i'm talking in specifics to girls. I know. it's stupid. but i don't ask them out, don't call them, don't confess, kind of like my own personal moral law. even if i do, like start chatting with them on msn or start sms-ing them. will always feel really really bad afterwards, as though i'm bothering them and always feel as though they want me to stop talking to them, like i'm some sort of despo parasite. blehh. don't feel this way about guys though. weird.

2) this brings me to my next point. I'm paranoid. very. don't know why. born like that perhaps. in reference to my first point, i'll feel especially bad if they don't like reply or something. don't know why either. like start getting all paranoid and think that i'm bothering them and i'm hated and nobody likes me just because someone doesn't reply my sms within 5 minutes. super stupid. but i can't help it. think it's like a big cause of my depression blehh.

3)I will only do my homework depending on the environment. Like if it's noisy and horrible and not conducive, i'll never get into the mood for homework no matter what. for some weird reason. will just stare around and stare at my homework and not get a thing in.

4)I have personal limit of 2 novels to read always. no more, no less. borrow 2 from the library, finish, return and borrow another 2.don't know why 2, but just 2.think it's kinda weird also.

5)favorite numbers are all even numbers. cause i think they round off nicely. like pair up perfectly, no more no less. it's suppose to mean some trait that i have, but i just cannot figure it out now. and no mood also.

6)Favorite season of all time: Christmas. don't think i told anyone before. haha. my perfect day: go out on Christmas morning with friends, play till night, reach home. coke by my side, go online, and msn and talk. then sleep like an innocent baby. too bad it never gets achieved. ah wells.

7)I have mood swings based on mood. ok this is stupid, but yea. like there's no way i can be too happy or too sad. because up to a certain point, my mood will swing wildly in the other direction.like if i'm too happy, then suddenly i'll just stone and feel sad. total letdown in any party.

8)Will always check out channel newsasia first when i turn on the tv. even if there is something nice on channel 5, will switch to channel newsasia, then go back to channel 5. for cable will be nickelodeon. most interesting channel, followed by disney channel, cartoon network, mtv, then history channel.

9)I was almost on tv. for ying huo chong de meng on channel 8. cause a producer came to my mum's and asked her to ask us(my brother and me) whether we wanna be calefares. i think a hundred plus bucks a day. too bad i was too busy gaming to say no. still regretting it to this day.

10)Always feel the need to talk to a girl. don't know why also! i think this is the one that's damn cranky, damn irritating and only developed in me this year. and i totally hate this. i don't know why. but it's making me all sad. and i'm like angry at myself for having this irritating trait. and i don't know why also, since i'm suppose to have like phobia of girls last year. and then coupled onto point 1 and 2, it's basically the reason why i'm always so sad.like want to talk to someone, but don't want to take the initiative. then if i do, will start getting paranoid. arghh.

People i wanna tag:
1)Cheryl Chen
2) Sin Li
3)Alice
4) Joan
5)Madelyn
6)Hani
7)Jenna wong
8)Justin Tan
9)Tommy
10)Guan Hua

that's all. think i revealed too much. but who cares. since no one does. and my wireless just broke down again. just great.bye.