still sad. whatever.

back. abstained 2 days before using the computer this time.
still feeling crappy and whatsnot.
ahh whatever.

i guess it's a good thing.
as it drags on.
realizes there isn't as much to do on the internet after all.
slowly breaking off my addiction.
hope this one works for good.

tomorrow's the first publications meeting.
after like since promos.
hope we can get some serious work done.
cause there are quite a few stuff to complete.

ok next.
been finishing off novels like crazy.
just lay on bed and read and read.
finished off burnout by rod duncan last night.

a dark book.
a very dark book.
from the beginning to end.
it just robs you all hope and happiness.

even the good guys are bad guys.
everyone's a bad guy.
and even the 'happy ending' has everyone dying.
just made me feel worse then ever after finishing the book at 2am.

been practicing guitar too.
looking for some songs to play though.
song list running out of options.
i think i'm a poser.
ahh whatever.

thanks for the well-wishes.
shall reply.
guan hua, junfeng, haonam>> sorry. not been feeling myself lately.
daryl>> thanks for the tag. =)
madelyn>> yea, but don't tv nowadays also. sad.
jenna>>cause can't think of alot of people who blog what. and you also emo lorhs. hah.
Hani>> moon's lonely. =( no one up here.

ok request out.
might.
MIGHT.
want to look for study buddy.
during the holidays.
since some people.
doesn't want to reply my sms.
people all hates me.
blehh.

next thing.
was browsing stomp.
found this interesting.

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40 facts about guys

--Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are *******s. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
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dunno why.
but it's true!
hahh.
esp this one
"Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot."

i really never bothered to go and realize, but now that i think about it.
it's quite true.like really true.
like the further-est we'll go is pretty.
never beautiful.
ahh wells.
who'll ever understand.

guess that's all.
interested in making my own blogskin.
might wanna try soon.
see how.
still under computer rehab though.
and i'm still suffering from the rehab.
sucks.

seeya.