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I hate my family.

this is probably my 100th time saying this.
But this time, it's not my parents.
It's my father's son.
he's computer-addicted.
he's crazy.
he has no god-damn sense of respect.

After losing miserably in Audition, he started scolding my mom and me while we were eating. he started shouting things like, "I want duck noodle for dinner! where's my duck noodle!" I mean, you are not a rich kid. We're in financial problem now and here you are talking like that.

I told him to eat what he see, and he asked me shut up.
I'm sick of him
Stupid stuck-up bitch.

Then, as i crammed into our bedroom-cum-studying-cum-ironing-cum everything room
(Well, there was no other place), to study, he came in and threw all my stuff on the floor.

I asked him why, and he said that was his territory.
He was just trying to be stuck-up.
I mean, he doesn't even study!

I got angry and started to shout at him.
He screamed at me to shut-up again.
I'm sick of him.
He just uses the phone everyday to talk to his sickening girlfriend.
and our phone bills is going up cause of him.
When my mum or me askes him to put down the phone,
he just shouts at us to shut-up.
Bitch.

Later, my mum came in and helped to pack up so we would stop quarrelling.
I asked her why can't we use the rented room.
I need my god-damn studying place and place to put my things.
I mean look at my room.

Half of my room is taken up by my mom's facial business.
the other half has to cram me and my father's son's clothes.
and my books, our bunker beds.
there's not even a space to walk.

My mum told me she needed the money.again.
I mean everywhere it's money,money and money.
She recently borrowed 600 bucks frm my bank account
I just found out our family owes heaps of money to my uncle
My dad's HSBC bank account just got closed down due to insufficient funds.
Then he comes back all moody, and it starts all over again.
Hospital bills pour in like water.
He starts cancelling insurance.

I'm so fed-up about money.
After My O-level, I'm gonna take my damn cert and find a job.
My dad keeps saying if i can study, he'll pay for me to study.
but by the looks of it, they won't be able to even pay my JC fees.

I guess i'm just one of those unlucky kid that has to work early.
Perhaps 10 years, or 20 years down the road, when you all become big business-men.
and when you all meet me once again, I'll be working at a nearby hawker-centre trying to support my family.

Aprils' Fool!

April Fool!
gah. I tink i just offended another person today. gah. there are times when i hate myself. especially my show-off side. Why can't I be more humble, why isn't anyone selling me humble pies for me to eat? gah. But maybe it's not me, so ya.

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May Fool!
By: Yeo WenBin

It's here, here,
here again.

Time to joke,
time to scheme.

Devious plans start appearing,
Evil people start planning.

Pouring water into pails,
Putting insects into mails.

To fool, to joke, to succeed.
was all in people's mind indeed.

Finally it is here.

"Joe, your pants have a big hole!"
"Jane, there's no school tomorrow!"

People start laughing,
while the rest start crying.

Now I wonder,
why did my friend insist it's called May's Fool.
When it's on April the first?

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something's wrong with me, i keep having these literacy inspirations
and these poems sucks.

anyway, I'm bored, sian, and wondering whether we're suppose to hand up DWIT tomorrow.