Last Chance

You ain't nothing to me if you got nothing to say
I don't know what you got that I can use anyway

andd here i am.

Disclaimer: woozy moozy today.
had abit too much
blur.
short post.

so today. watched '5o first dates' really sweet movie.
and really funny too. =)

then went out with shaun and gang.

then just came back.
still woozy moozy.

bye.

Season: Autumn

Rollover DJ

Hey, who cares what you play
Say whatever you say, cause I don't mind

watched "firewall", "hairspray" and "cloverfield" today.
movie after movie. wow.

I thought hairspray was nice.
Firewall was abit stupid.
Cloverfield was damn exciting, but the ending just plain... sucked.
it didn't even have a proper ending for christ's sake.

and tomorrow's outing is cancelled.
FREAKING CANCELLED =(
NOW I HAVE NO PLANS. HOW CAN THIS BE. NOOOOOOO.
sigh.

it's 11.23 now.
I feel.. weird.
and i did something wrong today again.
Well.. i guess that's what life is about, ain't it.
Knowing what you did wrong at the end of the day,
and knowing not to do it again.

It sure is... weird.
Cloverfield just promised me a night of awake-ness. LOL.
and the stupid camcorder effect is making me dizzy.

been having alot of chocolate lately.
and no exercise.
I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT EXERCISING.
EVEN THOUGH I PROMISED MYSELF TO DO SO LIKE... TODAY.
DAMMIT.

sigh.

ok dunno what else to do.
or say.

guess that's all... folks.


and the stars glimmered.
coming out from the black velvet sky
and streaking across the horizon.
and the moon smiled.
and the world stopped.
right at that very moment.

Season: Winter

Look What You've Done

Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Alright.
I'm feeling very... tired.
like the weight on my shoulder is finally gone.
But I've made...
the wrong choice.

Watched "the imaginarium of doctor parnassus"
It was quite boring at the beginning.
and the whole movie was just... random.
didn't get it.
my brother stopped at like the beginning
but i watched it all the way.
and i'm starting to appreciate what the movie's saying.
Transporting people to a world.
For them to make a choice:

To die, and live again.
Or to live, and then die.
Whole concept of sin vs purity.

and it applies to me.
in a way.
i think.

I made the wrong choice.
that's for sure.

damn it.

ok enough about the bad stuff.
my brother's staying overnight at a friend's house.
and my parents' are out of the house.
i HATE being alone.

i need something to cheer me up.
I need company.

sigh.

today's not exactly a very good day... is it.

on the other hand.
nothing's permanent.
and there's time to undo what mistake I've made.
no more.
it's time to make the right choice.
and turn it all around.

"Nothing is permanent, not even death." -the imaginarium of doctor parnassus

Anyway, I've decided upon a new course in.... life.
I'm Aromantic.
Aromantic: lack of romantic attraction towards anyone of either sex.
yes it's a sub-group under asexual.
So that makes me asexual too.
And unlike the other choices and regrets I may have.
I know this is going to be, in the words of Doctor Parnassus, "the best mistake I ever made"

And that's for telling the truth.
let the consequences come.

today probably isn't going to be such a good day.
But who says I can't make it a good night?

The moon shone on the earth
as the wind blew across the strewn ruins.
Fell in one day.
the smoke still visible.
like a fog.
the moon sighed.

Season: Winter

Roll Over Beethoven

My hearts beatin' rhythm
and my soul keeps singing the blues

alrighttttttttttttttttttttt! =DD

lalala.
Nice to have your weekend planned out nicely.
And I even managed to fit in some break time for myself.
Something I thought wouldn't have been possible.

I'm extremely extremely extremely pleased with what I've been doing for this holiday.
This must be my most productive holiday ever.
muahaha.

and friday's movie marathon.
Borrowed like 4 movies.
HAHA.
"Firewall", "50 first dates", "Cloverfield" and "Hairspray"
sadly. it's a solo movie marathon =(
like i'm going to watch it myself.
even my brother doesn't want to join me. LOL.
he rather study. booo.
never mind.
shall go over to NTUC.

popcorn+ coke +chips +coke = get very fat.
HAHAHAA.
I'm going to exercise ok!
soon. soooon. HAHAA.
darn. I'm getting fat.
I DON'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE THE BOY IN UP.
NO. I DON'T WANT.
EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE.

what else.
hmmmm.
geog tomorrow.
what else else.
nothing i guess.
and... Happy St. Patrick's Day!
may the leprechaun not visit you!
and we couldn't enjoy the awesome offers at all the irish pubs.
cause they were all full by the time we reached there.=(

okk. yeap.
shall end off with a quote:
"Of all the hardships a person had to face, none was more punishing than the simple act of waiting." -A Thousand Splendid Suns
indeed.
indeed.

Show me what you've got.
Come on, come one.
Feint Left,
Shoot Right.
I'm here.
In front of you.
What are you gonna do about that!
The prize is in your hand.
And you know I'm gonna take it.
So what are you gonna do about it.
Feint Right,
Shoot Left?
We know everyone's watching.
But you ain't got a chance.
C'mon,
it's your move.
Shoot.
Feint.
Now!

21 Guns

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

Study.
study.
study.

strangely.
I feel happy when i study.
I don't feel stressed.
It might be cause studying gives me something to escape to.
The world of binomial distribution and international trade lets me forget the pain of the real world.
kind of ironic in a sense.
ok never mind. HAHA.
or maybe cause I feel a sense of accomplishment when I do homework. ahha.

got movies to watch!
"50 first dates" and "firewall"
don't think I'll have time to watch though. soooo. ahha.
Shall see how.

What else...
ohoh! plan to finish up all holiday homework by tomorrow.
shall see whether it's possible =)
then I have the rest of the holidays to revise.

what else?
hmmmm.
ohoh!
had dinner at Olio Cafe today.
it's a place at marina square.
They had surprisingly good food and service.
Like we ordered baked rice.
then later they would come and "What would you like for your free flow of drinks"?
Then we were like.. "there is free flow of drinks?" HAHAHA.
then a minute later
"here's some bread"
HAHA. so cool!

and clinton called!
apparently NS is super slack ok.
I want to go already. HAHA.

ok i shall end this off with a life lesson that everyone can learn from:
Girls suck.(It's true.)
HAHAHA.

And the gracious leaves swayed in the night breeze,
as the gateway stood still, silent, strong against the night.
As though resisting all evils that may come and attempt to enter,
It shows no fear.
no mercy.
as a piece of stone fell from the crack.
no fear.
no mercy.
she knew.
she felt.
and walked through.

Season: Spring

Rocket

Sleeping late on
Warm afternoon
Waking up to
Bright silver moon

Hmmm yeap! back!

Today's was productive. =)
did part a of my econs essay(which included me reading all the econs notes)
and then studied half of normal distribution =D

and then met shaun and elson later on.
Went off to the irish pub. (again. LOL.)
tried mango daiquiri.
apparently it's made of rum rather than tequila.
and thus the alcohol taste is way stronger.
HAHA.

hmmm what else.
schhool tomorrow.
not sure where. LOL.
ok i'm going to try asking around.
hopefully I can get some answers.

the rain dripped on the chimney.
and it flowed down.
down the pipes.
and it washed the spider down.
the spider of his memory.
the spider of his fear.
and the rain washed it all out.
down.
and out.

Season: Spring

This Too Shall Pass

You know you can't keep lettin' it get you down
And you can't keep draggin' that dead weight around.

So. back today.
What did I do.

woke up.
tried to do maths. failed.
ok i'm not going to repeat because it's going to be like yesterday. HAHA.
except i didn't read geog today.
planning to do one econs essay outline later though. Hmmmm.

Anyway! quiz time today! since my blog has not seen a quiz in a while.

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
I think so, yes.

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to?
hmmm. inspriational lyrics. ok not exactly inspirational. but uplifting. haha.

What color are your eyes?
black. and white.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Sofa.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Less than 3

What would your name be without the first three letters?
(nothing) -.-

Last thing you touched not computer-related?
Econs notes. until I gave up. Going to attempt it again later. HAHA.

What colors are you wearing right now?
Baby blue and white.

You currently in a fight with someone?
nah. not really. no.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
Yes. it's called yahoo! answers.

Do you have an older brother?
I AM the the older brother.

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried
yeap! can't remember what it was about though.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
Yes. i'm not that good at typing. not yet. haha.

What are you listening to right now?
ABBA. =D

Do you laugh a lot?
Yes. HAHAHA.

Are you ticklish?
ehh. not very sure.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Care and concern.

Have you ever been on a boat?
Yeap!

Last person you gave a hug to?
my bolster CALLED bolster. (since it has a name it's technically a 'person')

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you’re wearing?
hmm baby blue, white, with umbrellas and teddy bears and ice-cream! HAHAHA.

When you are home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
yes. yes i do.

Do you have plans for today?
Sleeping later I guess? HAHA.

When is the last time you took a nap?
can't remember...

What was on your mind most today?
What is the relation between conditional probability and Poisson distribution.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
talk about them to close friends.

What instant messaging service do you use?
Messenger Live. (I know it sucks.)

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
Around 5 to 10 when I'm tired.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
yes. sometimes. haha.

What are you drinking?>
air.

Honestly, if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you?
I think I will. Yes i think so.

Do you know what you’re wearing tomorrow?
my clothes?

Do you know anyone who smokes weed?
ermm. don't think so.

In elementary school, were you bullied, or the bully?
bullied =(

Would you rather have the glass half full, or half empty?
I would take the glass and fill it to the brim.

Ever broken a body part?
HAHA nope! luckily.

Ever gone to the office because of something bad you did?
yes. can't remember what though. hmmm.

Are you a social butterfly or a wallflower?
half-half? but I guess I'm a wallflower now.

Are you a secret keeper or a blabbermouth?
Secret keeper

What was your last dream?
running away from something. again.

Which is worse; doctor or dentist?
Dentist.

Have you ever been to the emergancy room?
No, luckily.

Do you worry alot or hardly ever worry?
Extreme Paranoia. =(

Would you rather bike around Europ or go on an African Safari?
Bike around Europe!

What’s your favourite food court place?
coffeshop behind my place.

Do you like ice cubes or crushed ice?
Ice cubes.Crushed Ice melt way too fast.

Do you know sign language?
Yea. It's called "You face can detected a new device: Fist" HAHAHA.

Favourite store(s) to shop at?
no. not really.

What would you love to try?
Taking on cultural personalities of different eras.

Bikini or board shorts?
Board Shorts.

What’s your favourite kind of cookie?
Heavily melted chocolate with macademia nuts and chewy base.

HAHA. ok finished the quiz. it sure was a long one. HAHA.

The ambulance blared.
Red.
White.
Red.
White.
"Get out of the way people!"
Emergency! emergency!
Give him some space!
A raindrop hit the tar floor.
another one hit.
and they turned crimson red.
"I'm so sorry! I didn't know. One minute he was on the roadside, the next..."
"please calm down sir, we need to take your statement."
"1,2,3 go!"
"please.. please don't die!"
more raindrops now.
A phone in the car rang.
bleeped.
no one heard.
crimson red.
innocent white.
it sped away.
red.
white.
the phone rang again.
voicemail,
"Did it hit him?"
and it faded.
crimson red.
innocent white.