I'm gonna soak up the sun

While it's still free;
Before it goes out on me


Alrightt. I'm back.
beach partayeee tomorrow! =D
will be bringing some red bull.
So if everyone else does not get high with me,
I'll give them wings.
=D

and anyway I went to orientation today!
got high with the guys at the back.
Me and fi were being idiots.LOL.
so if you see any super duper unglam videos of me on facebook and/or blogs and stuff.
ehh... I got no excuse. haha.
Just don't read too much into it.
cause the pretty out-of-tune songs were driving us nuts.
yes we danced too, even though we didn't know half the moves. HAHA.

so! during civics we had this pretty cool psychology test thingy.
haha and yes, just in case anyone's wondering, it's true.
first, the wolf thing: yes. most of the time I feel alot like lazing at home. But once I laze at home I'll feel bored and sulk and want to go out. haha but i think I still prefer going out more. muahaha. and yes i'll probably get married only at the age of 50 or maybe not at all. I think more of not at all.

This whole period of time has enlightened me, kind of.
It's nice to finally see the truth behind all the mystique of love that hollywood created.
Think about this: Love is an emotion, same as anger, happiness, sadness. It's not tangible, it's felt. So why should love be any different with how we deal with the rest of the emotions? We feel happy, we celebrate, we cheer but we don't commit to anything.

So why should be put ourselves in this huge commitment called 'relationship' just because we feel for that single moment that we love someone?
In fact, I would go as far to say as that love is not love per se, but more of attachment. You feel attached to the other person, maybe physcially or emotionally, then you get close to her/him, and then you two become good friends, maybe confidantes, and it stays there. finish. zlich. no commitments, and you go with the flow of your feelings. you want to talk to him/her, you do it. Do it because you currently want to, not because some decision you made based on some emotion forces you to.

Everything seems so much more cheerful and happier now that I've finally got this whole thing figured out.
Maybe I'll find people who get what i'm trying to say. someday. haha.
But for now.
Been taking tips from this quite good book.
So one of the lesson I picked up is: "Quit Playing Games: Say what you really feel"
Sooooooo, here is it, dedicated to groups of my awesome friends, one group at a time.
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To all my cat high friends whom I haven't seen in 3 years:
you guys have been awesome. =)
Some I might have been close to, some maybe not so. But everytime I see you all I want to go up and say"hello!" even though we haven't seen each other in 3 years. and the best thing is, I do! and you say hi back! Makes me kinda glad that I have joined cat high and mixed with all you awesome people. And when we talk, even though we haven't seen each other for 3 years, we just have SO much to talk about. I wonder why, ahha! you guys rocks!

To my awesome close cat high friends:
Hello! You guys probably know who you are so I don't have to name you all. yes you gang who asks me out every week for movie/dinner/mahjong/yadayada. WE STILL HAVE TO GO BOWLING SOMEDAY. HAHA. Thanks for being there to accompany me, to comfort me when I'm down, to make me laugh when I needed one, and make me laugh when I didn't need one too.
I hope I'll never lose you guys as friends, ever.

To my pae class, jae class, and everyone else I knew in AJ in 2008:
Thanks for making my life so wonderful in AJ. I won't lie, we did quarrel, gossip about each other, bitch-fought(since most of you are girls), and I pissed off quite some of you. But at the end of the day, you all still laughed about the whole incident and looked back on it as an awesome joke. I hope we get to meet up soon, because everytime I see you guys I feel as though I'm back in my own little group, where I belong.

To the guys in my class (32/09):
You guys rock, of course. At first I thought you all came from a totally different culture from mine and I was quite freaked out to be honest. Because people like Dezhan and Guoxian kept speaking to me in chinese. HAHA. But having spent one whole year with the class; I just want to say that you guys are always there for me whenever I needed something. I also won't lie: At first, I really felt like I didn't belong. Sometimes I still do. That the age generation just felt so different, even though it was only one year. But then you guys kept including me in stuff like outings and that really helped alot. I know there have been conflicts here and there under-brewing past, now and probably later on. but I just wanna tell you guys that now I've gotten past my problems, I'll be more than glad to help you guys out with yours. matar forever!

To the girls in my class (32/09):
ok. So I know all the girls, some quite well, some too much, and some maybe not at all.
But here's just a reminder:
If I somehow, ever, get close to anyone of you, IT'S NOT BECAUSE I'M INTERESTED IN YOU. I'M NOT INTERESTED IN ANY ONE OF YOU. AND YOU ALL PROBABLY AREN'T IN ME TOO. I JUST WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. RELAX. I SWEAR. I'LL NEVER BE INTERESTED IN GIRLS(AND OF COURSE GUYS) FOR AS LONG AS WAYYY DOWN THE ROAD(LIKE WHEN I'M 50 OR 100).SO YEA.RELAX. HAHA.JUST A HEADS UP.
Sorry. Just that after everything's that's happen, sometimes I feel as though there's always the "oh no is he interested in me? What should I do? oh no oh no!" Whenever a guy in 32/09 talks to a girl in class. So here's my stand. ahha.

And to my secret friend!:
You seem very fierce/moody nowadays. And I haven't talked to you for such a long time now. Hope you will cheer up soon. Your job ain't all that bad! Life only suck if you don't wanna rock it! =D stay happy!

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Sooo... back to the topic, second, Libra.
yeap. I hate conflicts. more than normal people.
Since I was born right in the middle of Libra, I feel as though I really suit how Libra-ians are suppose to be.
I always want peace in all my lives. I hate conflicts. That's why sometimes I ask you out of no reason whether you are mad at me.
Because I'm an insecure Libra. That is the worst kind of side-dish for a Libra-ian: being insecure.
cause I hate conflict, and I'm so insecure i always think people are mad at me, even when they're not.

ok so third... I shall not touch on this. but I think if someone knew about it, it really will explain quite alot. and maybe that someone will finally understand.

Soooo. beach party tomorrow! Hope we all have fun. Even though i think the idea of forcing us to wear shoes to collect rubbish is really quite dumb. But I'm thinking maybe the school is smart enough to NOT send us into the sand to collect rubbish?
And there's going to be a class lunch tomorrow, maybe I'll get people to go for after-lunch plans with me because I still dread going home =(

And if I ruled the world, I'll make the recipient's phone explode if the recipient does not reply to any sms sent within an hour.

Lesson of the day: Quit Playing Games. Say how you truly feel.
Season: Spring

cause when i close my eyes and drift away

I'm thinking everything's ok;
I'm thinking two is better than one

ok back. Not exactly the best of days today.
But, ah wells.
Watched "edge of darkness" with weeseng today.
We were talking and when the movie started there's these 2 guys 4 seats away from us who stared at us and "Could you stop talking?"
I just like, "Sorry"
Then I wanted to go and complain to weeseng when i saw the 2 guys, one had a punk-rock hairstyle and the other was bald. People like that are BADD news.
and during the show we went toilet and accidentally kicked their chair. more bad news.
So i sat like two rows back(since the theatre was quite empty) and thought if they were going to start hitting people at least i can cover weeseng aha!
And it wasn't helping that "edge of darkness" is a action flick.
got my adrenaline pumping and kept thinking they were following me or something.

sooo they didn't bother us or anything. so yay. lucky us.
then dezhan told me that fi sent an sms.
suppose to bring something that represent us.
Then I found something.
But I dunno... when i think about it.
My life seems so...
sigh.
Insignificant.
But hey, I'm gonna do something about it I guess.
Shit but I feel the depression spike coming up again.(I thought these spikes were gone for good. ARGH.)

ahhhhhhh omgomg. go away.
ahhhhhhhh. depressed again.
crappp.

okok cheer up. cheer up. cheer up.
Lesson of the day: Happy people take full responsibility.(from a book I borrowed today.)
cheer up dammit! *smiles*
ahh screw this.

follow me there; a beautiful somewhere

a place that we can share; with youuuu
I can tell that you don't know me anymore,
it's easy to forget; sometimes we just forget.

ok back for another update.
I can tell this is going to take very long. because i'm running to toilet every 10 minutes.
ok so I just came back from 2.4km right.
I'm tired, and thirsty.
So i took a bottle of coke from the fridge.
And talking to my brother about orientation, while gulping down coke,
very soon the whole bottle was empty.
But I was still thirsty.
So I looked through the fridge and found this unopened big packet of marigold apple 100% juice.
it's like 1 litre.
So I opened it and start drinking it.
Then brought it along with me to the room.
Then keep on drinking and drinking.
within like 10 minutes the whole content of the packet was gone.
I myself was shocked ok.
So I was like... "hey cool, just drank so freaking lot."

until it came.
was like 2 minutes later.
There was this super painful stomach-ache.
It felt as though my stomach was contracting.
Like the muscles inside were squeezing itself together.
It was omg damn damn pain.
Then it's not the "i need to go to the toilet" pain.
It's just the omg my stomach really hurts and I want it to stop.

then later on the diarrhea came.
It was like... diarrhea and not diarrhea.
Because instead of diarrhea-y stuff coming out;
It was just liquid.
seriously.
omg it felt damn weird.
like "hey... where's the disgusting stuff?"
then you just see all the juice and coke you drank coming out from the wrong hole.
probably too much for the stomach to take.

have been going to toilet at like 10 mins' interval.
and my stomach still hurts.
4 times already.
ouch.

ok guess that's like... all for today?
don't really know what to talk about.
except... i passed 2.4km! woohoo! by 2 seconds! yea I rock!=D

Lesson of the day: Never drink coke and apple juice more than 2 litres at once.

I think about the things I gotta do

You're looking for something you can't find
if you give it up you'll lose your mind
there's always something in your way

alrighttttttie.
Soo My plan today was.
Rot at home; do a major filing exercise where I'll file all the worksheets in my file and return library books and get everything on my desk tip-top clean.
Andd what happened?
I went out on a Singapore-wide shopping trip.

Ok so it all started when i was sleeping.
My mum came and violently shook my up and told me to get dressed for sunday breakfast.
I was like... "blehhh I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep"
Ahhh wells, then my brother also got the treatment but he woke up earlier so he started pillow-hitting me so I'll go out with him for breakfast.
So I was "ahh fineeee."
So I woke up. And went to amk for breakfast.
Halfway my mum was talking about what's going to happen.
She had customers, my dad wanted to drive some customers and I wanted to do filing.
Then my brother came and "tampines today got warehouse sale and I want to go and buy shoes."
Then I was "oooooo if dad's driving can bring us to bras basah too cause I wanna but my 75 bucks worth of popular voucher and return library books"
Then my mum was interested too and we soo we set off!
and after having kway chup for breakfast I was really thristy so we went sheng siong to get something to drink first.
I... kinda messed up cause I bought Q blackcurrent instead of a normal drink.
So i ended up like sleeping half of the journey in the taxi LOL.
so the moral of the story? Never have any alcoholic drinks for breakfast.
feels damn weird.
cause you're suppose to be energetic but for some reason you're feeling damn sleepy.

okok so back to the story. I slept half the way and when I woke up, I was at tampines! =D
it was just a small mini shop. That's when I found out, instead of being a adidas warehouse sale as my brother had claimed. It was a JOINT warehouse between G2000 and adidas! =D
and omg the clothes were so freaking nice and cheap ok.
I bought a baby blue and baby pink formal shirt. aha!
ok my brother bought the baby pink one. I just liked it so I may "take" it sometimes when i go out haha!
it was suppose to be like 60 something I think but I got it for 15 bucks! like seriously! G2000 for 15 bucks!
soooo yea. first stop! then we went out and my brother realized the shoes he wanted to buy wasn't there. So we were wondering where to go next.

Then my dad complained that he was hungry so we went to beach road next!
went there for lunch and we have the thing we always have at beach road. This awesome food called "Chilli Noodles"
It's seriously called that. It's just plain dry noodles mixed in super duper lot of awesome chilli.
their chilli is seriously awesome.
And to top it off, they give bak ku teh soup to so when you want to drink something and go and drink the hot soup, instead of making the hot-ness go away it just makes it worse LOL.
AND YES I TAKE SPICY FOOD. -.-

After that we went upstairs to look for the shoes and my brother didn't like any. He had only one Adidas model in this mind that he wanted and he only wanted that model even though the others looked half-decent/pretty nice. Petty much?

Then after that we went to Bugis's Bras Basah to look buy popular stuff!
I went to return my books and CDs, then went to popular where my family just splurged LOL. end up still got like 35 dollars worth of vouchers unspent though. cause today was like the last day of the voucher's validity so we wanted to spend them all.
I also bought picks from Swee Lee since mine was like all lost again! the salesman was exceptionally cheerful. I wonder why... haha!

Next stop! My dad was like giving up on buying my brother's shoe and wanted to go home already (much to his dismay) then on the way he drove past queensway shopping centre and I was like" That's the best place in singapore to buy branded sports shoes at a cheap price. why not go there?"
My dad was like "really? I didn't know that!"
So we went there! then walk around yada yada he found his shoe
and we walked out of the mall a few hours later with me having a 101 bucks NB shoe even though I didn't expect to buy anything today LOL. ok and he got his shoe. haha!

Then we went to somewhere to buy roast duck. (It was opposite a Shaw Plaza) But i really wasn't sure where.
Then We went home. Then my mum was whining about the 35 dollars unspent so me and my dad instead of going home, went to amk central's popular to see what we could sweep up.

AND GUESS WHAT. POPULAR'S HAVING A SALE. THE AMK ONE. CAUSE IT'S THE RENOVATION SALE. THERE'RE PACKING UP ALL THE BOOKS AND EVERYTHING FOR RENOVATION. ALL STORYBOOKS HAVE "BUY 2 GET 25% OFF" AND EVERYTHING IS GOING FOR SUPER CHEAP OMG.

So i came out with this awesome H2 maths guide book that only teaches you how to use the casio GC to do all the maths questions. wooooo! =D
And I didn't manage to fulfill the 35 bucks yet so i shopped around and saw the whole Mitch Albom series. FOR SALE AND DISCOUNTS AND EVERYTHING.

So I was like looking through. Since I read "the five people you meet in heaven" and "tuesdays with morrie" already, I wouldn't be buying that.

Then one book caught my eye "For one more day" The blurb sounded really awesome so I got it! Haven't read it yet but I predict it's going to be another awesome read =D

And after that we went to buy curry puff and came home and eat dinner and here i am!
and i'm not looking at my unfiled stuff and not looking at my messy table.
don't look and it's not there.
don't look.
aha!

ok sorry no impromptu story of the day cause I'm tiiiiired.
I mean I went out at like 9am and came back at 8.38pm leh. shopping much?

maybe another time haha.

And if I ruled the world, everyone would have to give a reason or at least let the recipient know when they suddenly stop replying to any SMS or MSN-es so the other party won't have to worry that they accidentally said something wrong or somethings.

seeya!