I'm gonna soak up the sun

While it's still free;
Before it goes out on me


Alrightt. I'm back.
beach partayeee tomorrow! =D
will be bringing some red bull.
So if everyone else does not get high with me,
I'll give them wings.
=D

and anyway I went to orientation today!
got high with the guys at the back.
Me and fi were being idiots.LOL.
so if you see any super duper unglam videos of me on facebook and/or blogs and stuff.
ehh... I got no excuse. haha.
Just don't read too much into it.
cause the pretty out-of-tune songs were driving us nuts.
yes we danced too, even though we didn't know half the moves. HAHA.

so! during civics we had this pretty cool psychology test thingy.
haha and yes, just in case anyone's wondering, it's true.
first, the wolf thing: yes. most of the time I feel alot like lazing at home. But once I laze at home I'll feel bored and sulk and want to go out. haha but i think I still prefer going out more. muahaha. and yes i'll probably get married only at the age of 50 or maybe not at all. I think more of not at all.

This whole period of time has enlightened me, kind of.
It's nice to finally see the truth behind all the mystique of love that hollywood created.
Think about this: Love is an emotion, same as anger, happiness, sadness. It's not tangible, it's felt. So why should love be any different with how we deal with the rest of the emotions? We feel happy, we celebrate, we cheer but we don't commit to anything.

So why should be put ourselves in this huge commitment called 'relationship' just because we feel for that single moment that we love someone?
In fact, I would go as far to say as that love is not love per se, but more of attachment. You feel attached to the other person, maybe physcially or emotionally, then you get close to her/him, and then you two become good friends, maybe confidantes, and it stays there. finish. zlich. no commitments, and you go with the flow of your feelings. you want to talk to him/her, you do it. Do it because you currently want to, not because some decision you made based on some emotion forces you to.

Everything seems so much more cheerful and happier now that I've finally got this whole thing figured out.
Maybe I'll find people who get what i'm trying to say. someday. haha.
But for now.
Been taking tips from this quite good book.
So one of the lesson I picked up is: "Quit Playing Games: Say what you really feel"
Sooooooo, here is it, dedicated to groups of my awesome friends, one group at a time.
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To all my cat high friends whom I haven't seen in 3 years:
you guys have been awesome. =)
Some I might have been close to, some maybe not so. But everytime I see you all I want to go up and say"hello!" even though we haven't seen each other in 3 years. and the best thing is, I do! and you say hi back! Makes me kinda glad that I have joined cat high and mixed with all you awesome people. And when we talk, even though we haven't seen each other for 3 years, we just have SO much to talk about. I wonder why, ahha! you guys rocks!

To my awesome close cat high friends:
Hello! You guys probably know who you are so I don't have to name you all. yes you gang who asks me out every week for movie/dinner/mahjong/yadayada. WE STILL HAVE TO GO BOWLING SOMEDAY. HAHA. Thanks for being there to accompany me, to comfort me when I'm down, to make me laugh when I needed one, and make me laugh when I didn't need one too.
I hope I'll never lose you guys as friends, ever.

To my pae class, jae class, and everyone else I knew in AJ in 2008:
Thanks for making my life so wonderful in AJ. I won't lie, we did quarrel, gossip about each other, bitch-fought(since most of you are girls), and I pissed off quite some of you. But at the end of the day, you all still laughed about the whole incident and looked back on it as an awesome joke. I hope we get to meet up soon, because everytime I see you guys I feel as though I'm back in my own little group, where I belong.

To the guys in my class (32/09):
You guys rock, of course. At first I thought you all came from a totally different culture from mine and I was quite freaked out to be honest. Because people like Dezhan and Guoxian kept speaking to me in chinese. HAHA. But having spent one whole year with the class; I just want to say that you guys are always there for me whenever I needed something. I also won't lie: At first, I really felt like I didn't belong. Sometimes I still do. That the age generation just felt so different, even though it was only one year. But then you guys kept including me in stuff like outings and that really helped alot. I know there have been conflicts here and there under-brewing past, now and probably later on. but I just wanna tell you guys that now I've gotten past my problems, I'll be more than glad to help you guys out with yours. matar forever!

To the girls in my class (32/09):
ok. So I know all the girls, some quite well, some too much, and some maybe not at all.
But here's just a reminder:
If I somehow, ever, get close to anyone of you, IT'S NOT BECAUSE I'M INTERESTED IN YOU. I'M NOT INTERESTED IN ANY ONE OF YOU. AND YOU ALL PROBABLY AREN'T IN ME TOO. I JUST WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND. RELAX. I SWEAR. I'LL NEVER BE INTERESTED IN GIRLS(AND OF COURSE GUYS) FOR AS LONG AS WAYYY DOWN THE ROAD(LIKE WHEN I'M 50 OR 100).SO YEA.RELAX. HAHA.JUST A HEADS UP.
Sorry. Just that after everything's that's happen, sometimes I feel as though there's always the "oh no is he interested in me? What should I do? oh no oh no!" Whenever a guy in 32/09 talks to a girl in class. So here's my stand. ahha.

And to my secret friend!:
You seem very fierce/moody nowadays. And I haven't talked to you for such a long time now. Hope you will cheer up soon. Your job ain't all that bad! Life only suck if you don't wanna rock it! =D stay happy!

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Sooo... back to the topic, second, Libra.
yeap. I hate conflicts. more than normal people.
Since I was born right in the middle of Libra, I feel as though I really suit how Libra-ians are suppose to be.
I always want peace in all my lives. I hate conflicts. That's why sometimes I ask you out of no reason whether you are mad at me.
Because I'm an insecure Libra. That is the worst kind of side-dish for a Libra-ian: being insecure.
cause I hate conflict, and I'm so insecure i always think people are mad at me, even when they're not.

ok so third... I shall not touch on this. but I think if someone knew about it, it really will explain quite alot. and maybe that someone will finally understand.

Soooo. beach party tomorrow! Hope we all have fun. Even though i think the idea of forcing us to wear shoes to collect rubbish is really quite dumb. But I'm thinking maybe the school is smart enough to NOT send us into the sand to collect rubbish?
And there's going to be a class lunch tomorrow, maybe I'll get people to go for after-lunch plans with me because I still dread going home =(

And if I ruled the world, I'll make the recipient's phone explode if the recipient does not reply to any sms sent within an hour.

Lesson of the day: Quit Playing Games. Say how you truly feel.
Season: Spring