The Studying Slacker

oh wells. A very dull afternoon. Air is stale. Not moving. Boredom in the air.

gave up my library trip. No one accompanying me and i figured it's gonna be tiring. Actually I'm just lazy.But ah wells.

Watched a bit of disney channel. The leroy lilo movie thingy, forgot the name. but it was pretty nice, even though it's my second time watching it.

haven't started on homework yet. can't do any at home anyway. Not conducive. try studying with the cars and lorries zooming outside your window. and with so many aunties talking outside the room. (My mum's hairdressing customers) Had to rely on the library many times when it came to the O's. =x

ok. having said that, I'm gonna try and struggle to do my econs notes. Though it's not gonna be possible. If I really can't do any then maybe I'll force meself to the library or something. still feeling lazy though.

hmm. guess that's all. Not very effective day. Maybe I'll post again later.

The end of something new

so... tomorrow is saturday.

compared to last week; i think I'm gonna be mugging this weekend.I don't know whether it's the aj mugging aura. or the fact that I've not mugged for 2 months.
But I actually look forward to mugging.

Hmm, and since my library books are gonna be overdue in 5 days anyway. I'll be alone spending my day studying in the library tomorrow. Kill two birds with one stone. whee.

Can't find any companions though. =x
Guess they all still haven't caught on the mugging spirit yet.
ahh wells.

Soo, gonna finish up my econs notes; do the worksheet; and do the maths worksheet tomorrow. Hopefully can complete.

hmm. There's still the matter of cca. If they don't go by offical application of ccas, I'll be left with no ccas for these 3 weeks due to me not signing up for anything. =p

Also, today marks the last day OG21 will be studying together as a group. really sad. I have a feeling my new class wouldn't be as fun-loving and enthu as this one. No more john. or printer. They shouldn't split us up into classes. hmph.

So, I'm alone in the room. air con. radio on at 987. bored. typing. leaving all the mugging stuff till tomorrow at library. gah, i hate going library alone. always have the weird feeling like i'm some sort of anti-social loner there. =x

hmmm. is there anything else?
Nope.
So, i guess i'm gonna do more random typing.
=D

I guess I'm gonna stay up till quite late today.
Cause don't feel like sleeping early.
But is feeling darn borred.
Gah. fickle-minded.

ok. I'm out of stuff to say. darn it.
oh ya.
I've got a new cca in my kiv list.
ava club.
doesn't seem too bad.
and seems fun.

oh ya. I needa re-stock my pencil case tomorrow.
whee. so I'm killing 3 birds with 1 stone.
=D

Now I'm just plain singing crazily to the songs on radio.
dun care that i can't reach the notes.
hah.

ok, this is getting dumb.
seeya!

"Be consumed by greed,
Or turn into a geek."
-Yeo WenBin's 12th law of nonsensicalism

The Daily Post

hmmm.. I do seem to have been posting daily nowadays. Must be due to the new-found boredom engulfing me.

The sky just cleared after the rain. I do hope the sky wouldn't clear so fast though.

I've got a few optional maths questions left and gp assignment. Don't think I'll be doing the latter due to it's level of difficulty and the lack of facilities in my house to produce it.

I'm really really bored. wonder when will it end. gah. Been going so crazy just reading and working on maths. need something to occupy me. ahhhh.

It's just around 19 more days to the O's result. weirdly, i don't seem to be feeling stressed or going crazy over it. Well, I figured why worry over something that is not gonna change no matter how much you worry about it? Might as well use that time to stay happy. I guess I might as well hope for the best all the way and only prepare for the worst on the day before the O's release.

I guess that's how I am. Always using logic and reasoning to hold back and suppress all the crazy weird psychological demons within me.Though I gotta admit some of them are running loose around me since this year started; but i couldn't care less. Not until I've got the important stuff sorted out; at least.

Hmm.On a happier note, there are no more notes left.
(nvm. really lame pun.)

Hmmm, this morning the aj principal spoke to us about the consequence of slandering the school and stuff like that and revealing personal information about yourself online. I guess I released so much of my information online looking for me would be really easy.

You know, I did try. I tried googling my name, and the first four entries came out regarding my blog, with 2 in reference to my poem one.then, i tried my msn, and my friendster account, blog and forum information came pouring out. Guess I'm too involved with the net.

ok... so maybe it's not a really good idea to have so much of myself being released. But who cares? Fame pwns all! =D

I'm really borrrrrrrrrrrred out of my mind. rawr!

The virtual journalist

hmmm. so i went for the cca carnival.
screwed up the choir audition so i didn't have to join it.

and didn't get to see the both ccas i had in mind.
ahh wells.

So. I'm stuck between IT club and Publications.

IT club has all I've wanted to join since i made my mistake in sec sch by joining choir. However, aj's IT club is pretty useless with the current facilities they have. So, Publications. Being a iNews member in cat high; i figured out journalism might just be the thing for me; since i like to write so much. But I'm scared it require huge amount of readings and stuff.

To say the truth; I had a hell lot of emo stuff i wanted to blog about today. But I figured out it's just gonna make me look pathetic. So I'm just gonna translate and edit it into something more presentable.

hmm... So I'm still stuck.
On a happier note; i got my first choice of subject combinations.
Even though i'm having second thoughts about this combination.
cause i maybe i should take H1 geog and H2 lit instead.
But ahh..wells, we'll just see how things go.

Do i guess I gotta split into classes soon. darn saddening. But at least there's someone from my og going to the same class. SO maybe it's not too bad after-all.
and the class only has me and a malay boy; the rest are girls. ahhh.

ok. Feeling REALLY bored now. need to continue typing.
hmm, besides the poems i wrote a few days ago, also been typing out a story entitled
"The Memory Of No One". Not very pleased with how it's coming about though. But I'll just use it to conquer the boredom monster. Like how i'm typing nonsense now to fulfill my own bored-ness.

hmmm, what next. oh ya; I still have got the irritating maths to do. I forgot how to complete square and the first few are out of bounds to me. Looks like I need to start flipping my maths guidebook before they're given away.

I wonder when we will be splitting into classes, not exactly looking forward to it.

ok.. now for some personal stuff.

Disclaimer: This paragraph below is typed due to utter boredom that the author is facing now and any content whatsoever is not allowed to be said, repeated, spread, rumored or brought out from your eyesight. If caught, the intruder will be sentenced to 5 years of conscience torture. No part of the content below is to be brought out or remembered.

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hmm. so let's start the paragraph. I guess I'm gonna regret this. But my hands can't stop typing.

For a self-reflection,(I'll try to make this sound as pure and innocent as possible) being in a mixed school after 5 years and talking to the opposite gender after 5 years does seem pretty over-whelming to me. I guess I lost my appetite also because of this.

Because of this too, my thoughts have been really chaotic and crazy and weird. Every little thing seem to matter a lot suddenly.Looks, actions and stuff like that. But I guess this is what people have already faced in secondary school and I'm just late in doing this.

Still, I have a vague feeling I kinda offended some of them when they talk to me and i don't know how to answer back, creating an impression that I'm like some sort of egoistic bastard. It's like my brain just keep going blank whenever they talk to me and thus i can't answer back. gah. this sucks.

ok... all who is still reading this, I know it's kinda emo, and I'm gonna regret it a lot after pressing the publish post button. But I'm still gonna do it anyway.

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ok, that's all the emo stuff I'm gonna post.

Looks like I'm going to be bored for the rest of the night. No one's msn-ing me. and no one's sms-ing me either. Looks like I'll just be stuck with my dear little novel and my maths homework. Coupled with the cca decision in my brain.

You know, the world just suddenly feels so chilly.


"Speak only when spoken to."
Yeo WenBin's 6th stanza in " The Loner"

When all your wishes come true

so.. today's lectures are darn boriiinnggg.
Especially during H2geog and H1 lit; cause got damn little people from my OG in the same lecture as me. ><

anyway, i better stay being more un-emoish. If not I die sia.
So, now my posts are gonna be full-filled with joy and happiness! yay! =D

ok, that was lame.

hmm, being out of touch with poems for 2 months, so here's a new one.
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Wishing wishes
By: Yeo WenBin


When a shooting star streaks past,
will you say you want infinite wishes in a hush?

What if all your wishes came true one day,
will you scream today.

What if you continued wishing,
and yet the wishes kept materializing.

Would you want more?
Money,Women, Eternal Life, so much power till it starts to bore?

The world will change
as your wishes are arranged.

Will you still be content?
or left wanting for more?

Alas, human desire is a sin,
inserted deep into your heart like a pin.

Freedom will belong to you,
as your wishes will never run few.

You will control the very aspect of reality,
of time, space, wormholes and immortality.

The sun will rise from the west,
and the moon from the east.

When the time comes for the world to be liberated,
will you fight your desire, or be always hated?

You will try to ask your conscience,
and yet you would find it was only a fiction of the mind.

Try convinicing yourself your wishes are made for happiness,
only to find it corrupted by greed and power-hungriness.

When a shooting star streaks past again,
through the life-less plants and barren land.

What will you wish for now?
Something even more dull?

So try to be careful,
for you never know.

When there's magic in the air,
while you are wishing wishes.

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hmm.. i'll have to admit this one isn't too bad.
><

I'll just be looking forward to tomorrow instead of brooding on the past.
seeya all for today! =D

The right state of mind

ok.. darn this for the second time today.

Was feeling so nauseous that i decided to take a slight sip from my mum's red wine; even after taking into consideration my school fiasco when i got drunk during english lesson just because of a rum chocolate. (yea, I have really weak wine in-take)

So, all in all. Feeling a little drunk now. Hope that will make me sleep better instead of tossing and turning around in bed the whole day. Tomorrow's school. woots. these 2 days have been so nauseating and boring that i'm probably happy with tomorrow.

yea. drunk. well, the floor seems a bit shaky and the computer screen suddenly seem to be glaring white light at me. my eyes feel heavy, too. I guess i'm drunk, doesn't it.

so... been receiving lots of msn requests from my OG; also got the OG contact list in my mail box. =D

so.. I guess i better don't talk so much. If not later i still drunk then release personal stuff then die sia. no more face le.

eyes. feel.heavy.sleep.

"ok.. no inspiring quote from me now."
"Cause i already gave one in my previous quote which was made earlier today.hah."

Too bad for my own good

ok... putting aside my previous emo posts; my appetite seems to be improving a little. At least i can finish off a quarter plate of noodles and not feel nauseous now.

still, the weight loss is a bit scary. let's see, i was 72 before the holidays started. Now i'm 60. At this rate, I'll be zooming to the 50s. gah. It's just like the stephen king book: Thinner(The male lead insulted a gypsy and got thinner and thinner until he almost died). When i read it a few months ago, i thought it was just typical horror fiction by him. Then, i just remembered about the book last night while tossing and turning in bed. creepy. well, at least the male lead in the book survived( If that's suppose to make me feel better).

ok... so, the sky looks boring. the trees are all half-dead. and there's no action anyway outside my window.

I'm bored.With absolutely no mood to game wad-so-ever for the past week.and there's nothing nice on cartoon network or nickelodeon or Disney channel.

what else did i want to say?

...

I forgot. damn it.


"Boredom fogs up the filthy air,
Breezing stains on our silky hair."
-Yeo WenBin's 14th stanza for "The Bored Monster"