The weak point's at it's back

-Why you wanna classify the types of things we do-

Fell sick yesterday.
used tissue paper like crazzyy.
haha and my mum kept feeding me overdue medication.

so I'm feeling worse then ever now.
well, but still, life's gonna continue, whether i'm sick or not.

so i gotta finish up my rationale, and newspaper, and a lot of stuff.

and surprisingly, i think i've managed it.
it was difficult, but i think it's my sick-ness.
hah. amazingly eh.

We'll just have to put it to practice one of these days.
and if it works, I'm down for a lot more happy days.
c'mon wenbin, i know we can do it.

just you, me and nobody else.
for you know that's how life is.
you,me,nobody else.

Mood: Tiirred
Weather: Pale Morning

-Music's all you got-

The Deep Dark Terror Exposed to Light

-And we, could be happy can't you see-

So. I'm tired.
haha thanks for all the support.
guess it's better now.

though i'm still gonna stay in school longer.
but yea.

Guess it's all for the better.
Everything's over now.
the dilemma, the chaos, the confusion.
And i ain't just talking about my home life.

Everything's now over,
all over.

Guess cupid's not so powerful after-all.
Either that or i'm good. heh.
But still, at least i know i can concentrate on my studies.
and leave everything behind me.

Cause the feeling's long gone.

-Cause it hurts me so just to see you go-

The movement confusion frustration

-Do you ever wanna run away, or lock yourself in your room-

omg. i hate my mom. like seriously.
i came back to see the whole house in a mess.
AS IN WHOLE DAMN HOUSE.

then i walked in my room to find out that my mum was re-furnishing my room.
RE-FURNISHING IS JUST SOMETHING TO DISGUISE IT.
IT WAS PROBABLY MORE LIKE DESTROYING.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT'S THE BEST?
she didn't even plan it out before re-arranging!
she just did it cause she was free.


so ended up now the room's in a mess,
and according to her plan,
I don't even have a study area.

It's just a small corner, with all my cluttered stuff and my tablet.
NOTHING ELSE. no available stuff to put.
and she freaking packed my brother's table.
AND LEFT MINE AS IT WAS.
and she still dare to move my table here and there.
AND EVERYTHING TOPPLED NOW.
AND SHE DIDN'T FREKAING CARE.

so now my table's a big mess,
and i don't have any space.
and i feel like screaming at her.
and i HAVE ABOLUTELY NO MOOD TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT NOW.
even though econ's coming up on friday.

but where the hell am i suppose to study?!
on the floor?!
THERE ISN'T EVEN ENOUGH SPACE ON THE FLOOR TO SIT DOWN.
AS IN LITERALLY. I TRIED.

omg i hate her so much now, i'm even willing to stay over at someone's house as a protest sign. ARGH.if i could...

SO YEA. DUE TO THE LACK OF STUDYING SPACE,
I'll probably be in school like more often.
and longer.
yea, mugging and stuff.
looks like my house has just successfully become my second home.
probably like a hostel.

AND IT'S ALL FOR HER TO RENT OUT THE ROOM TO 2 MORE TENANTS.
LIKE THE ROOM IS VERY BIG.
AND SHE FREAKING WANTS TO KEEP THE COSMETIC BED THING.

i just want to like ARGHH.

omg i hate this house, i hate my life, i hate my family, i hate the world.

why can't i be born into a rich family.
i'm even willing to sacrifice love.
i don't care if my parents don't love me,
i don't care if they never return.
just show me the money,
and i'll be happy.

THIS SUCKS SO MUCH.
and my life is like tearing apart.
my parents are tearing apart, my whole world is tearing apart.

i probably should just call SOS or something.



-You don't what it's like to be like me-

The Workings of A Spoilt Machine

don't... don't...

go away! don't come! don't... go.. go!
I... My heart hurts, go away!

Don't look at me like that!
just get lost!
Walk away!

STOP IT! Don't smirk! You don't control my feelings!
don't walk nearer!... don't! I... I'm... I'm sane!

You don't... control.. no... you...

DON'T DO IT!
Please.. please... just ....
STOP STARING AT ME!

I've done you no wrong!
just... GO AWAY!

GO FAR FAR AWAY!
don't come... don't... STOP IT!

I... i never did anything to you!
why.. why are you... my heart... it hurts..
it hurts... hurts so... so much...

GO!
just go!
what....
WHAT DID YOU DO!
why does.... I feel...
YOU DID SOMETHING!
whatever... whatever it is...
undo it. undo it now.

UNDO IT NOW!

DON'T COME NEARER! DON'T! STOP.. STOP PLAYING WITH ME!
i'M NOT PLAYING ANY MORE! you... you don't control me!

GO AWAY!
don't touch me.
don't.
DON'T TOUCH ME!
I MEAN IT!

stop it... stop.. stop...
please stop...
STOP IT!

The magic of not having magic

-I remember the times we spend together-

tonight is gonna be boring.
what's new?

I'm just gonna rot, and rot.
and then go to sleep.

nothing interesting here today.
well maybe i went to re-format my com.

but guess that's all.

Nights.

Mood: Sickened

-I wish you were here with me...tonight-

The war beneath the peace

-Something isn't right, I can feel it again, feel it again-

TODAY SUCKED.
rotted at home, gamed,gamed and gamed some-more.
super stupid.

procrastinated until i'm stuck with a huge pile of homework here.
I feel like arghhh.
Sucks.

And as the boy played the arcade game,
he went pass the levels smoothly.
Too smoothly, even though it was his last life,
he went through, knowing the secrets.
Learning from his previous mistakes,
making good progress.
They say complacency make you do stupid things,
and they're right.
The boy thought he knew it all,
that when he met the boss.
the boss to the item he could see as valuable,
and something about that boss was familiar to him.
It was as though... he had seen it before.
yea, he did! it was in the older version of this arcade game!
and so, he knew how to beat it!
jumping, leaping he came right in front of the monster and stood still.
knowing about the boss's pattern.
Sadly, he didn't know about the boss upgrade.
He didn't.
And now he's down to that short health bar,
but the damage was not only to his health bar.
But more to his complacency.
more to his complacency.

I dread some days.

ever believe your life could be violently altered in a moment's actions?

Mood: BLEH.SUCKED.

-Sad excuses, and false hopes high, I saw this coming, still I don't know why-

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