A simple thing.

and.
so it is.

i've been debating with myself whether to go to mh's party.
with the pros and cons both equally convincing.

i still went at last.
and now looking back, i'm glad i did.

really glad.

It's not just the party.

I got to find out one of the reasons of why one has been hating this person for so long in cat high. and the thing was. i really really agree with that person.like when he commented, i was like thinking," I couldn't have said it better myself." just that it took me one more year to realize.I seriously wonder how long more I have to put up with this pretense.

I got to find out the true nature of someone too. This i totally didn't expect. but when it came, it was like, "So what i suspected was true all along." and i kinda convinced myself the person was like this from the very beginning. but didn't believe in it, or what the others say. but now I really see what the person is like.

Oh oh. I also found out an unexpected side of someone. ok now this one is TOTALLY UNEXPECTED. and i was like kinda shocked. and i was asking myself why everyone behaves this freaking way. it's so hateful. and i can already see this person on the road to being someone else that is hated.

of course no names shall be revealed here.

but overall, the party was fun.
thanks minghan!

3 truths in a party?
hell it's a good one.

The Dreams Of Reality

ok do you know how.
that the worst nightmares.

are not the ones with scary things
like zombies or monsters or aliens.

but are those who break your heart.
those realistic scenarios that just break your heart.

I just had it.
I think Morpheous is damn pissed at me.

Or wants to take revenge for something.
I've been having a multitude of dreams for the past few days.

All of them pretty good.
I mean.

I got a free laptop.(3rd day)
I got myself a kissing scene.(It's not that enjoyable, really.)(2nd day)
I got myself playing pokemon cards in cat high and getting almost caught.(1st day)
i think got a few more, but i can't really go back.

anyway the thing is.
they've been occuring so close.

ok so since the above were like positive stuff.
so maybe morpheous decided to shoot me all the bad stuff at once.

or something.
I got myself a day at Heartache Entertainment Centre(ok i shall explain the different settings later)

First it was a movie with friends(I only remember one of them being hao nam) about something bad.
then after that we walked out and then we wanted to play at this enclosed area.
I saw it was $6.50 to go in.
and thought it was too expensive.
then the rest went in and played ice-skating.
while i was outside.
then i think daryl came out and started scolding me.
like loser and scaredy-cat and whatsnot.

then after that while they were playing ice-skating,
i saw clinton and his class.
they were going off the ecp for some bbq or something.
then they were lost.
and looking for directions.

then after that was really bad part.
i'm not going to say.
but it was really really heartbreaking.
i mean.
at the end i was running back towards the mrt station tearing.
what the hell cans.
(ok, there was a girl and another guy involved.but i'm not going to say who.)

shit la.
then i woke up.

and i'm still trauamatized.
but come to think of it.

the dream just showed off all my insecure areas of me.
and all my paranoia coming true.
which is bad.

And i guess I need to change myself soon.
i need to analyse this dream further.

it's not one of those junk dreams.
this is one of those dreams where the sub conscious
really tries to tell you the problems that lies within you.
and the stuff to look out for.

ok. anyway.
the different settings in the dreams.

shall talk about the bad ones first.

-Haunted Food Centre
--being there a few times already. always with friends. and for some reason very happy. then I'll meet someone that i thought was good friend with me. but for some reason he/she will show me his/her true colors.

-Heartache Entertainment Centre
--It's like a big indoors theme park.with movies and playing stuff and convention rooms and toys and stuff. everyone is always happy and I am too. but they will aalways say stuff to really hurt you so you feel really really really bad inside.(one of my most hated settings.)

-Empty Hospital
--ok this is like more of an action dream setting? than a bad one. i had a zombie invasion with class 4-5 all trying to kill them with guns. that was a cool dream.

now the good ones.

ok i can't think of any at the moment.

guess that's all.
feel better after writing it out.
bye.

hell.

i don't have any events on Christmas day. hell.
can't believe it.

shit.

hell. was looking through facebook.
then i realized something.

I'm either damn damn DAMN not photogenic.
or i'm really super ugly.

i dunno!
I mean i can't even bear to look at my own picture for more than 5 seconds la.

I look like Alvin Woon.
except worse.

SHIT.
and was looking through the old archives of the class blog.

and realized my looks plus my actions.
make me look gay AND ugly.

it's like a sudden delightenment.
i mean.
i knew i wasn't good-looking la.
but not to this extent.
shit.

shit.
shit.
shit.

I need advice.
rawr.

Wedding Blues

just came back from my cousin's wedding.
didn't talk to alot of people.
so did alot of thinking and stoning.

ok shall post my ramblings here.

Disclaimer: I don't talk to my cousins much? ok actually i don't talk to them at all. cause they're all like... even the youngest one(besides me and my bro) are long out of army already. all around 29 to 31 age range. so don't really have much to talk about.

ok these are my thoughts ramblings:

when I first walked into oriental mandarin hotel(or i think that's what it's called) i thought.

Wedding dinners are stupid.

it's not a specific wedding dinner, certainly not the one i'm attending. but generally wedding dinners.
just a few weeks ago, i still thought, 'why not?'
ok it all happened a few weeks' ago.
my mom was still giving me the girlfriend lecture.
then she asked me,
when you are gonna marry your girlfriend, would you prefer a damn grand wedding dinner? or marry on a honeymoon?
I thought about it. then told her, 'Wedding dinner.'
she asked me why.
i told her ' cause it's to show everyone that she's like officially my wife?'
then she told me,'when you are gonna marry your girlfriend, take her far far away to a romantic place on earth and marry her there.'
and she told me not to bother setting up a dinner.
cause it was brainless to spend tens of thousands of dollars on friends and families and others that we didn't even know.
i didn't like quite agree with her then.

but just now. i kind of thought it out.
and she was right.
she was 100% right.
let's look at it.
from the economical point of view:
you're spending ok.
let's say a grand wedding dinner like the one i attended tonight.
one table was 900 bucks.
there were 30 tables there.
we're talking about 27 thousand bucks just for the wedding dinner.
which does not include the misc. costs like wedding cake, wedding photos and other stuff.
and you are spending money on some people that you do not even interact with often.
then if you bring her to let's say. Paris, France(ok that's like romantic.)
and you can live there like a king and queen and have the most romantic time of your life. and you will spend a max of let's say 20k. and still come back with piles of shopping bags.
heck man, you can even tip each waiter and waitress who serve you 10 bucks and still come back spending less than a wedding dinner.

then there was the romance point of view.
which is more romantic. a week in paris, looking at the effiel tower, sitting by the bank of the river(i can't remember the name at the moment) and having a nice french supper,going shopping and buying lots of nice stuff with just the two of you.
or having to spend a night dressed in 2 stuffy suits, having to proclaim your love to so many people and smiling away taking pictures at every single table knowing you just wasted 900 bucks on them?

Then there was the social point of view.
we should say a thank-you to parents, friends and relatives who have supported us.
and the dinner to do it.
yes that is true, but the problem is.
when a dinner happens, so many people are actually like almost strangers.
they just invite here invite there anywhere.
why not just a nice big grand dinner for that close circle of friends and family?
i think that is more worth it.

ok then the second thing when i saw my relatives were.
every single one.(yes, every single one) said i was hella skinny.
they all see me was like 'eh, ni zai jian fei ar'(eh, you dieting ar)
haha the last time they saw me was like in september.
hahaha ok i was damn pleased.
super happy! =D

then. the most probably last thing.
one of my cousin's boyfriend looks damn much like one of my classmate's boyfriend.
ahh hell. but just older and chubbier looking. but still. the face just looks like.
ahh wells.

hmmm then we went home at around 11 plus.
my dad was complaining about my mom and stuff as usual.
cause she doesn't want to acknowledge my dad's side relatives.
so she like just doesn't even go to these kinda stuff.
I had the song 'tree hugger' on throughout.

and i looked out of the window.
and i thought.

Lucky I'm a retainee.

yeapps. that's all.
seeya.

going past jupiter

-so, tell me, did you sail across the sun-

hmmmm.
went to get tickets for the sunday match with wee seng.
singapore vs vietnam.
think it's gonna be a draw again.

come to think of it.

hahah who dares to go to the support singapore section.
then wear vietnam colours and wave the vietnam flag.
sure kenna one.HAHAHA.

ok never mind. >_<

hmm Christmas coming up.
like the festive season.

even though family doesn't celebrate.

did quite some publications design today.
and i think the stickmen are niceee. =)

ohoh.
and i need to renew my passport.
shucks.
if not cannot go JB le.

i'm still very intrigued by pick-up lines.
dunno why.

here are some more.

1)You see my friend over there? [Point to friend who sheepishly waves from afar] He wants to know if YOU think I'M cute.
((HAHAHA. THIS IS SO GOOD. if you get it though.))

2)You look like my mommy. I like my mommy.
((just can't get enough of the innocent pick-up lines.))

3)You can stand next to me as long as you don't talk about the heat.
((standard i'm hot you're not line.))

4)Do you have a name or can I call you mine?
((this is just plain cheesy.but still good.))

5)You're 'No Parking' right? Just trying to guess your sign.
((quite lame actually. But not bad if it's like the first time you're hearing it.))

6)Are we related? Do you want to be?
((not bad.))

7)So, are you going to give me your phone number, or am I going to have to stalk you?
((hahaha. this is good too.))

ok. i think that's about all that caught my attention for the pick-up lines.

here are two more naughty ones.
but still funny.

1)Come on, you can't get pregnant again.
2)I kinda lost my virginity. Can I have yours?

ok the above two just caught my attention.
hahahaa.

guess that's all.
seeya.

-i bet she's back in the atmosphere-

nah nah nah nah

-lord almighty, i feel my temperature rising-

heh. i like Elvis Presley! =)
ok random.

anyways.
got into a semi-depressed mood on the long train ride back tonight.
about retain and stuff.
and it's all cause of the dumb moody music on my phone.

ok but at least it got better. =)
going to watch singapore vs vietnam this sunday.

first time watching a soccer match.
haha.

hmmmm.
tomorrow.

please let everything fall into place.

oh yaaa.
haha.

after that random encounter
about pick-up lines at shaun's place.

haha decided to share some.
i think some of them are really nice!

1)Do you believe in love at first sight or do I have to walk by you again?
2)Hey, I lost my phone number ... Can I have yours?
3)Boy: Are you feeling tired?
Girl: No, why?
Boy: 'cause you've been running around my mind the whole day.
4)Boy: Do you have a bandage?
Girl: yes or no. why?
Boy: 'cause i hurt myself when i fell for you
5)Boy: Do you owe the library alot of overdue books?
Girl: No, why?
Boy: 'cause you have the word 'fine' written all over.
6)I lost my teddy bear, can i sleep with you?
7)If i followed you home, will you keep me?

fine. some of them are quite lame.
but! they're witty! =DD
hahaha i like number 2.

ok nvm.
bye.

-you light my morning sky; burning love-

Food.

survived today with... half a packet of fries one bowl of cereal and for some reason... i'm full. well. it's not that surprising actually. seeing how my diet has been around the same since the holiday started. i mean. at least it was better than last year. where i had like a meal every 2 days. results weren't so good. remembered early this year. couldn't eat anything. food made me want to vomit. ended up almost bulimeic. on the bright side i lost 10kg! 12kg to be exact gonna do the same this year i guess. since there's like... one month left anyway? i needa exercise though. keep putting it off. hmmmmm. ok anyways. i'm poor. hell. hate being broke. need $$ that's all. bye.

Add-on please.

oh ya!
haha wanna add on to the list of movies.
cause i saw this movie ad
but dunno the name
now i know!

i also wanna watch bedtime stories! =DD
hahah looks super nice! =D

anddd. guess that's all.
publications side.

let's just say there's going to be something big next year for AJ.
heh. and publications' gonna get a popularity boost soon.

=DD

shaun

thanks shaun!

haha a shout-out to you!
thanks so much for the book!

love it! =DD

Bleh.

I hate all of you.

the wave of impending storm

again.

ah wells.

ok whatever,
i'm going to receive less allowance next year.

ALOT ALOT less.
shit man.

they didn't say it la.
but can hear.

cause when i told 'em i wanted to watch movie.
my dad was all ' don't go out so much, we are running out of money soon.'

and i didn't even go out la!
like 2 weeks only go out one time!

it's my idiotic brother at work again.
everytime go out and take money from him.

i never even take money from my dad one la.

and my savings are running stone-dry very very soon.
so....

bottomline: i need a job.

two problems:

1)it's too late.
2)i'm too lazy.

nahh i'm not actually lazy to work.
i'm just lazy to look for it.

so if someone has recommendations i'll certainly go. =)
hmmm yea. any lobangs?

so yea, i'll really need a job.
if i'm to support all the stuff going on next year.

i hate being poor.

ok anyways.
being hearing all this stuff about how children from trouble/broken-up families always end up being the abusive dad or the abusive mum blah blah blah.
IT'S TOTALLY WRONG.

damn it.
they are the people who make the best parents.

cause they have been there and know how it feels like
they know how children feel when parents fight.

they know how painful it is to lose a loved one.
and thus they are the ones who will make sure.

it never happens to their family.
never.

and thus they make the best parents.'

not the crap about how they think it's alright to beat up their son.
just because the dad beat him/her up when she/he was young.
what nonsense la.

just because a robber steal from you.
then you will go steal other people's stuff meh.
just because you think it's alright -.-''
like totally nonsense cans.

ok nvm.
i think family's going through another rough patch.

like the number dunno how many thousand times rough patch liao la.
stupid one la.

and i'm like cut out from the rest of the world.
shucks. i need. company.

ahhh. blah.

whatever.

the big screen

hmm back. short update.

a few movies i wanna watch.
but no one watch with me =((

-- Bolt
-- City of Ember
-- The day the earth stood still
-- Twilight(maybe)

few books i wanna read.
but can't seem to get my hands on

-- nineteen eighty-four by George Orwell (shit i'm been seaching for this book for over a year already man.)
-- Twilight (wanna see what's the hype all about)

yea.
heh. any outings or anything to watch movie would be welcome.
i'm free like almost every day anyways.

yea.

back. without wondering why.

hmmm. had alot to say last night. but guess everything's just gone this morning. rainy morning. my favourite weather.

things getting from bad to still bad now.

i guess.
guess.

ok anyways.
ripped off a quiz from daryl.
think it looks fun. haha.

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The rules are simple.
1. You shall put your music player on shuffle.
2. You shall press forward for each question.
3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. You shall give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

Questions:

1. How are you feeling today?
Headlight Disco-- The Click Five

ok.... i don't think i'm feeling very high or dancy now. ahh whatever. but i guess the weather's perfect for a headlight disco. heh.

2. Will you get far in life?
love you lately-- Daniel Powter

"I hope you find
whatever you've been lookin' for.
Just remember where you're from
and who you are,
'Cause there's a thousand lights
that'll make you feel brand new,
But if you ever lose your way,
I'll leave one on for you."

hahaa. what man, the last thing i need on my mind right now. love as a measure of how far i go in life? blehh. no fair! so what, i'll go far in life without seeing that the one who love me is just beside me? ahh wells. at least someone loves me.

3. How do your friends see you?
I'm getting over you-- The Click Five

"I'm getting over you, whoa
I'm getting over you, most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true
I'm getting over you "

whattt! ahh whatever. guessed it was like that also. everyone liked me, then hated me. or maybe they didn't even like me.

4. What is your best friend's theme song?
Miss Murder--AFI

ok... haha i'm not too sure about this. don't even think shaun's listened to this one before. lol.

5. What is the story of your life?
Tongue Tied--Faber Drive

"I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?"

okk.. doesn't really make sense i guess. love again. damn i gotta cut down on the emo love songs in my songs database.

6. What was high school like?
Canon Rock--Jerry C

uh... so, what? Clasical with a rock remix? what's that suppose to mean about my high school lol. i guess normal but interesting? =x

7. How can you get ahead in life?
Crazy--Simple Plan

"Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong"

EHH. ok down this is getting irritating. i can gt ahead in life ok. ok looking at the lyrics, i dunno, be a social worker or something? but that to get ahead in life? blehh no fun. but i wouldn't mind being a social worker next time though. just not too sure about the pay( or the lack of it)

8. What is the best thing about your friends?
Mr.Q-- cai yi lin

ok nothing to comment. move on!

9. What is in the store for this weekend?
tong hua --Guang Liang

fairytale? this weekend? cool! and i have wayy got to cut down on the emo love songs. but i guess that means emo this weekend.

10. How is your life going?
In Too Deep -- Sum41

"Cause Im in too deep, and Im trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Cause Im in too deep, and Im trying to keep,
Up above in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under."

omg. i know my life hasn't been going well. finee. in too deep into computer gaming, addictions, friends, crushes and whatsnot. i need to get the hell out of there.


11. What song will they play on your funeral?
Tree Hugger -- Antsy Pants

"The flower said, "I wish I was a tree,"
The tree said, "I wish I could be
A different kind of tree,
The cat wished that it was a bee,
The turtle wished that it could fly
Really high into the sky,
Over rooftops and then dive
Deep into the sea.

And in the sea there is a fish,
A fish that has a secret wish,
A wish to be a big cactus
With a pink flower on it.
And in the sea there is a fish,
A fish that has a secret wish,
A wish to be a big cactus
With a pink flower on it."

ok.. i like this song! and i wouldn't mind it being played. i mean, it is a meaningful song. talks about how everyone wish to be everyone else, and not know about the troubles the others have. that we should be content with who we are. =)

12. What do your friends really think about you?
Truly Madly Deeply--Savage Garden

"And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me... "

so nice! but i guess it isn't true. too bad. move on!

13. Do people secretly lust about you?
Skater Boy -- Avril Lavigne

"He was a skater boy
She said see ya later boy
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a superstar
Slammin on his guitar
to show your pretty face see what he's worth?
He was a skater boy
She said see ya later boy
He wasn't good enough for her
Now he's a superstar
Slammin on his guitar
to show your pretty face see what he's worth?"

ok besides the fact that this song is quite answering the question, it's uh... hard to come true? dunno. lol. haha that means whoeever person's admiring me better ask quick or else i'm gone. muahahaa.

14. How can I make myself happy?
Dirty Little Secret--The All American Rejects

hhahaa. yes! knowing secrets about people makes everyone a happier person =)hahaha ok that's mean.

15. What should you do with your life?
The Graduation Song-- Vitamin C

uh... ok.. so? like abit no sense.

16. Will you ever have children?
can't stop -- Red Hot Chilli Peppers

WHAT THE HELL.ok this last question is absurb. what with the can't stop -.-'' shit man. this is worrying.i'm too potent. lol.i was laughing la. shitt.

ok yea. since this doesn't have a tag back function, i guess those who wanna rip it and are bored like hani can do so haha. =)

still sad. whatever.

back. abstained 2 days before using the computer this time.
still feeling crappy and whatsnot.
ahh whatever.

i guess it's a good thing.
as it drags on.
realizes there isn't as much to do on the internet after all.
slowly breaking off my addiction.
hope this one works for good.

tomorrow's the first publications meeting.
after like since promos.
hope we can get some serious work done.
cause there are quite a few stuff to complete.

ok next.
been finishing off novels like crazy.
just lay on bed and read and read.
finished off burnout by rod duncan last night.

a dark book.
a very dark book.
from the beginning to end.
it just robs you all hope and happiness.

even the good guys are bad guys.
everyone's a bad guy.
and even the 'happy ending' has everyone dying.
just made me feel worse then ever after finishing the book at 2am.

been practicing guitar too.
looking for some songs to play though.
song list running out of options.
i think i'm a poser.
ahh whatever.

thanks for the well-wishes.
shall reply.
guan hua, junfeng, haonam>> sorry. not been feeling myself lately.
daryl>> thanks for the tag. =)
madelyn>> yea, but don't tv nowadays also. sad.
jenna>>cause can't think of alot of people who blog what. and you also emo lorhs. hah.
Hani>> moon's lonely. =( no one up here.

ok request out.
might.
MIGHT.
want to look for study buddy.
during the holidays.
since some people.
doesn't want to reply my sms.
people all hates me.
blehh.

next thing.
was browsing stomp.
found this interesting.

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40 facts about guys

--Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are *******s. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
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dunno why.
but it's true!
hahh.
esp this one
"Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot."

i really never bothered to go and realize, but now that i think about it.
it's quite true.like really true.
like the further-est we'll go is pretty.
never beautiful.
ahh wells.
who'll ever understand.

guess that's all.
interested in making my own blogskin.
might wanna try soon.
see how.
still under computer rehab though.
and i'm still suffering from the rehab.
sucks.

seeya.

bah. whatever.

still feeling sad.
still at home.

trying to abstain from the computer.
but guess it's not working.

or i won't be online, would I.
anyways, managed a day offline.

not too bad for an addict.
for a start at least.

ok anyway, decided to do daryl's tag quiz
since i've been tagged.

and.
thought it might be interesting.

here goes.


The rules and Regulations:

* Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.
* People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
* At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names
* No tag back

I'll be fair too. will replace/ change anything that anyone besides me already know.

here goes:

1) I hardly take initiative. some might kinda know already. but i'm talking in specifics to girls. I know. it's stupid. but i don't ask them out, don't call them, don't confess, kind of like my own personal moral law. even if i do, like start chatting with them on msn or start sms-ing them. will always feel really really bad afterwards, as though i'm bothering them and always feel as though they want me to stop talking to them, like i'm some sort of despo parasite. blehh. don't feel this way about guys though. weird.

2) this brings me to my next point. I'm paranoid. very. don't know why. born like that perhaps. in reference to my first point, i'll feel especially bad if they don't like reply or something. don't know why either. like start getting all paranoid and think that i'm bothering them and i'm hated and nobody likes me just because someone doesn't reply my sms within 5 minutes. super stupid. but i can't help it. think it's like a big cause of my depression blehh.

3)I will only do my homework depending on the environment. Like if it's noisy and horrible and not conducive, i'll never get into the mood for homework no matter what. for some weird reason. will just stare around and stare at my homework and not get a thing in.

4)I have personal limit of 2 novels to read always. no more, no less. borrow 2 from the library, finish, return and borrow another 2.don't know why 2, but just 2.think it's kinda weird also.

5)favorite numbers are all even numbers. cause i think they round off nicely. like pair up perfectly, no more no less. it's suppose to mean some trait that i have, but i just cannot figure it out now. and no mood also.

6)Favorite season of all time: Christmas. don't think i told anyone before. haha. my perfect day: go out on Christmas morning with friends, play till night, reach home. coke by my side, go online, and msn and talk. then sleep like an innocent baby. too bad it never gets achieved. ah wells.

7)I have mood swings based on mood. ok this is stupid, but yea. like there's no way i can be too happy or too sad. because up to a certain point, my mood will swing wildly in the other direction.like if i'm too happy, then suddenly i'll just stone and feel sad. total letdown in any party.

8)Will always check out channel newsasia first when i turn on the tv. even if there is something nice on channel 5, will switch to channel newsasia, then go back to channel 5. for cable will be nickelodeon. most interesting channel, followed by disney channel, cartoon network, mtv, then history channel.

9)I was almost on tv. for ying huo chong de meng on channel 8. cause a producer came to my mum's and asked her to ask us(my brother and me) whether we wanna be calefares. i think a hundred plus bucks a day. too bad i was too busy gaming to say no. still regretting it to this day.

10)Always feel the need to talk to a girl. don't know why also! i think this is the one that's damn cranky, damn irritating and only developed in me this year. and i totally hate this. i don't know why. but it's making me all sad. and i'm like angry at myself for having this irritating trait. and i don't know why also, since i'm suppose to have like phobia of girls last year. and then coupled onto point 1 and 2, it's basically the reason why i'm always so sad.like want to talk to someone, but don't want to take the initiative. then if i do, will start getting paranoid. arghh.

People i wanna tag:
1)Cheryl Chen
2) Sin Li
3)Alice
4) Joan
5)Madelyn
6)Hani
7)Jenna wong
8)Justin Tan
9)Tommy
10)Guan Hua

that's all. think i revealed too much. but who cares. since no one does. and my wireless just broke down again. just great.bye.

I guess this is good-bye.

don't know what to say.
last post. as far as i know.

guess.
things ain't all that great.

even if everyone thinks it is.
there are troubles.

hidden beneath the illusional paradise.

but still.
everything's too late now.

one year too late.
2 months early for me to detect what was wrong.

but yet.
i need to find.

the old me.
back.

this.
is excruiating.

the hidden hopes.
the falls.

throughout the year.
i hate. argh.

want back the old days.
in catholic high.

freaking. hell.
this sucks.

not even sure.
whether the 5 years in cat high.

was suppose to be heaven before hell.
or a lack of preparation for hell.

but still.
i guess.

they gotta come sooner or later.

i'm just being childish.
but the changes.

it's obvious.
the corruption.

in the guys.
everyone changed.

and sad to say.
it's for the worse.

and i just found mine.
rooted deep in.

the fears.
the paranoias.

the world look at looks.
what can i do.

but i guess,
what i did was already done.

so there's no turning back now.
I tried my best.
in the and of unknowns.

and now. there's a last try.
one that many do not want to use.

i guess you can't obtain something new.
if you are unwillingly to let go of something old.

and i guess.
it's time.

for me to let go.
of this year.

everyone.
everything.

I've not been a good friend.
not been a good listener.

not been a good person.
not been a filal son.

not been a supporter.
not been the person i was meant to be.

stepped out of line.
and i'm going to go back.

I'm sorry.
sorry for the damage i've caused.

i'm sorry.
to the class. for not being appreciative.
for playing the fool.
for messing around.
for taking alot of people for granted.
for just being plain mean.
for not being how a guy and a gentleman should be.

i'm sorry.
to the guys. for changing into the worse.
for the lack of foresight.
for not seeing the true gems in front of me.
for thinking i changed.

i'm sorry.
to the teachers. for not studying hard.
for procrastinating.
for doing bad.

im sorry.
to myself. for not giving up on internet addiction.
for changing.
for taking people for granted.
for thinking i was ok.

I'm sorry.
but everything's too late for sorry. now.

the damage been done.
the hurt been cast.

i just hope.
that maybe. hopefully.

i can be a better friend.
a better person.
a more caring guy.
a guy.
to everyone that i will know next year.

i'm sorry.

i guess it's time.

to start preparing for next year.
just like how i was preparing for last year.

alone.

good bye.
for real.

"Life is a bed of roses,
for there are always thorns,
underneath those beautiful petals."
-Yeo WenBin

Back.or not.

I think.
it's time.

can only mean.
one thing.

someone.
trying to tell me.

no one.
cares.

emotional.
whatever.

bye.

Caution

Trust no one

fine. i'll update.

here's something funny from al.
all credits go to him =)

Disappoint.

The night of lost memories

so.. went down to ecp.
went a little too early with al , so ended up with 4 hours to spare.

anyway, the bbq with 4-5 was nice, really nice.
it was like, even with all of us being in different schools and stuff,
nothing changed. in fact, i'll go as far to say it brought us closer together as class.
people were getting dunked in the sea, tau pok were happening, laughters and the standard bitching about happening all over the place. It was pure 4-5.

i typed out a long paragraph. but decided not to post it.
still not in a good mood.i'm crossing my fingers for thursday.
only that can save me now. and I'm hoping it does.
In fact, that's a lot alot of hope that it does.

Looking for that lost hope.

Black. isn't very nice.

I'm not in a good mood.
ahh fine whatever.

Been along time since i ain't in such a good mood.
it's actually more of a sad bad mood then angry bad mood.

I dunno.
and there's still so much stuff to do.
though that isn't worrying me very much.


It's just...
feel like a ticking time bomb.
ready to explode anytime.
and that above sentence sounds so clique.

but blehh.
I feel like some sort of volcano.
hiding this ugly black secret in me.

It's like.
argh.
the last time i exploded was last year.
4 years of tolerance.
and by tolerance. it was serious tolerance.
in secondary school.
every single horrible and unfair deed.
absorbed them all without a sound.
and then after those 4 years.
just couldn't take it anymore.
boom. Let's just say it wasn't nice.
and it was lucky it happened at home.
must have cried the whole day.
according to my mum anyway.

and now.
i feel the start of those stuff happening again.
all hiding in me, accumulating.
I just hope it stays in there long enough for me to get to somewhere quiet.
and my mum's fighting with my dad outside through the phone again.
tick.

sorry for being so emo.
just being. a bad day.
in school. at home.

I need help.
now.

just as it was feared.

I'm BORED.
like totally dunno what to do.
arghh. and i think i'm going to be like this way for a long long time. shucks.

ok anyway here is my desk packing scenerio today.

Before:



heh. then while packing, i found my old collection of can caps! =D




and i also found my cat high report book.
While looking through, found my sec 3 results.
the reason why i should have retained.



yea. failed EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT, 'cept for 2, pure lit and chinese.
how ironic i scored so well for pure lit and flunked english so badly. lol.
anyway yea, heard from the form teacher it's cause the teachers on the board all voted for me to go up, that's why it's where I am now.
you know, sometimes i wonder.
if they hadn't, would my life have changed?
i wouldn't have known anyone from aj, my generation would have changed by a year.
I'll be studying for O levels now.
i don't wanna think anymore. arghh.

ok anyway this is my desk after



heh. not a bad job eh.

yea, guess that's all.
I only have someone on on next saturday, which is the class 4-5 outing at ECP.
then nothing.
LIKE TOTALLY NOTHING.
OMG I'M GOING CRAZY.
I CAN'T BE STUCK AT HOME EVERYDAY.

shucks man.
maybe i just ain't people-orientated enough.
who knows?
ah wells.

lost one

woo changed my blogskin.

and decided to start having constant changes of my msn nick to match the blogskin. hah.

Things to do, stuff to complete

ok these are my things to do:

1)get a new bag
2)get more socks(one can never have enough socks. for some reason.)
3)get new shoes(having only one good pair sucks.)
4) change blogskin. (the music is spoilt, picture down, i really needa change it.)
5)pack up my desk
6)practice guitar(must be able to do barre chords by end of hols. don't care.)
7)finish composing the song. (just lack the determination. blehh.)
8)catch up with friends, old and new alike.
9)start finding a way to either save/earn money for psp/new com
10)go out!

the 10 things.
ok i shall do 4 and 5 soon. maybe tonight.

and i'm free for outings and stayovers! =DD

Replies, answers.

haha didn't have time to check blog lately. but yea.
replying tagboard messages here. lol.

Alice>> Who's McLaren? o.O
haonam>>er.. honeybees? lol how i know sia.
Guest>>You sound like a weeseng.
jenna>> haha thanks!you too!
madelyn>>haha thanks!you too! =x
vanessa>> rawr tell me tell me tell me! pleaseeeeeeeeeee
Tee Leng and lala>>hahh. you jealous right. hahahah. =p
vanessa again >> cause i'm zai! i see you there like writing so fast one la. scare me sia.

ok and anyway heard something that someone in aj ask me whether i know hanxun and thhen told someone and that someone told hanxun or something that i don't know him.

IT'S A LIE. RAWRR. nobody ask me about hanxun before!really! and why would i say i dunno him anyway not like i don't like him or whatever right. -.-'' someone's gonna payyy.

Click back

you know, one can perceive anything he wants out of something if he's desperate enough for it.

and i found my motivation back again, thought god know show long it'll last this time. hopefully to pass me after my promos.

anyway yea i was watching click just now (the show was already like halfway through, but still..) then i got thinking. If a few years into the future, do i really want to rewind back my life and watch myself retain just because i busted the few days that i could have spent studying, playing? And 365 more days just because of these few crucial days? and perhaps change the outcome of my future forever? I think not. So here's my motivation!

ok yeaa. see ya. off to do maths.

That boy

I guess i'm really becoming someone i once vowed to hate.
woahh... sounds so star-war-ish.
but it's true. arghh.

and i didn't even realise.
cause my objective was for the greater good.
but yea it wasn't.
ok now this is harry potter-ish.

issit just me or have i started writing under the influences of the mass media blehh.

ok anyway yea.
and anyway, after thinking it through(no relation to the above problem),
I've come to a decision.
A little too early for a new years' resolution, but still...

ok here it is:
I vow not to hate anyone based on influences by external factors, including seniors,peers and family.

yeaa. guess that's all.
I guess boys and girls just work differently.

Chocolate Goodness,all for the price of profit

okokokok.

i think it's time we address the issue of the lack of good chocolate in aj.

i'm gonna put my plan up on the class blog. hahh.

see whether anyone's interested in the business scheme.

ahh wells.

but for now, jiayou for promos! =DD

ok a little something i thought out myself.
(so it's 100% original hahahaha. )

Why did the Tom cross the road?

To get to the other side.

Why did the Dick cross the road?

To get to the other side.

Why did the Harry cross the road?

To get to the other side.

Why did the police cross the road?

To book them for jaywalking.

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okok here's another one!

Why did the Mercedes drive down the road?

To get to the other end.

Why did the Honda drive down the road?

To get to the other end.

Why did the Ferrari drive down the road?

To get to the other end.

Why did the Cisco drive down the road?

To give them all parking summons for not paying ERP

HAHAHAHAHA. AND I ONLY TOOK LIKE HALF AN HOUR TO THINK THIS OUT.
OK NVM LAME.

Hey there. I'm stressed. Wanna kill me?

blehh. sorry for not blogging.

been offline these past 3 days.
trying very hard to accomplish some revision.
but it's just not working.

And i forgot to take my ezlink card from the librarian.
after booking the room.
blehhh. shucks man.

anyway i really can't studying at home.
too noisy
too much distractions.
too many people.
too unconducive.
i so need to find someone and somewhere to study with and study at.
rawrrr.

guess that's all.
seeya!

Last Checkpoint: 1st January 2008

just kill me and bring me to the last checkpoint saved.

I'm sure if i could have one more chance. give me that one more chance.

I wouldn't be in this plight now. I wouldn't have done alot of things.

but yet I would have done alot of other things. I would have studied.

I would have at least changed my lit to chem.

I would have listened to the advice others were giving me.

I would have.

Camp Rock!

hahh. that show is nice! =D
really!
just watched it.

the soundtracks are nice too!
=DD

not really a good storyline, but the music makes up for that! =DDD

2 more hours

and i'll have achieved 24 hours without food! =DD

1 more month

can't wait.

and my bag smells like horrible rubbish dump.
i think it's time i got a new one.

after 3 years of washing and re-washing, it just doesn't work anymore.
and my mum recommended me a place to look for bags.

hah. and it's only at amk central.
she said was a newly opened store.

shall be going there soonn.

Burnt-out

deadd.

totally no more mood to study or no more motivation or anything.

it like just totally died out. but there's still the schedule. ARGHH.

i'm totally burnt-out already. cannot take this anymore.

canno...*pshhh....*

wanted to say something, but i forgot.
ah wells.

*Edit*

ok now i remember.
my brother just came back from wall-e!
omg not fair! i want to watch!

ok some of my want to watch movies.

HSM3 (Just wanna see how it is like, the trailer ain't that bad you know)
Wall-e(been wanting to watch since like mid june when then adverts came out
Disaster movie (ok this one maybe i'll just watch online.)
Star Wars: The Clone wars(Interesting to see the difference between this and the real one)
and alot more.
this sucks. I need a movie partner.

ok dang this. geog is totally blagashing my brain.

what's blagashing?
hah. don't know.

ahh whatever. tired. can't finish my geog by today.
on the bright side, i worked in advance yesterday and finished half of tomorrow's topics.
so maybe i can spill the topics over to tomorrow.

and i like totally fell asleep when i reached home. had a nightmare.
nightmare like realistic nightmare. which is the worst.
cause it's just like real life situation but something you hate. alot.
and i still can't believe how much you've changed.
and how much pain you're causing.
woke up all stoning and staring into nothingness.

haha thanks sinli and maddy! yeaa guess so. one more month! >_<

and jenna, you're not gonna fail maths la lol. you're superwoman remember. HAH.

how's the new music. cool right.

going sleepover at shaun's place tomorrow! =DD
but sure end up overnight mugging one.
too much stuff! =(((

guess that's all. life ain't that good you know.

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Too easily jealous.
How I hate this.
I need to be more open.

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Full Force towards nowhere

I've everything planned out. Shall intend to fulfill it. don't care. but yet. i got thinking.(i know, thinking's always bad.) WHere am i heading with all this revision? revise, then after that, cts, then what? I SERIOUSLY HAVE TOTALLY NO PLANS AFTER CTS. LIKE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO. CAUSE I HAVE LIKE NO COMMITMENTS, NO NOTHING. maybe all this is making me dread everything. at least with the cts i know what to do. with everything planned out. blehh.

Mondays Mondays Mondays

tomorrow's monday. which is the start of my intensive-revision. shall see how it goes. seeya.

If someone tells you that life gets better as you grow older, don't believe him.

Reading tuesdays with morrie now.
another nice book. also mitch albom. lol.

anyway had teacher's day celebration today.
took some pictures, but decided not to post it up
cause it takes too long to transfer from phone to com.
and i'm lazy. hah.

and tomorrow marks the starting of my pre-intensive revision.
by finishing up all the homework.

anyway this is my intensive revision scehdule.
it consists of every single subject and topic.
since i didn't study at all before september.



yes i know it looks horrible.
But i'm going to stay on schedule!
rawrrr! it's either this or 365 more days in J1.
and i don't think i want to study the same things as my juniors.
so yea.

kambate!

The 5 people you meet in heaven

touching.

picked up the book today.
cause it was raining really hard.
so couldn't go home.

was deciding between tuesday with morrie and this one
and i decided to try this one.

omg it's super nice.
thought-provoking.

I wonder which 5 people i'll meet up there.
hmm.
and what are the 5 things that happened to me and that i didn't understand/ never bothered to think about.

And it's amazing how a small totally unrelated incident could be linked to one in unimaginable ways.

The greatest shock was at the end of the book about how ruby was the guy's great-grandmother. seriously. i sat there and re-read the line at least 6 times. It's like. end off the story perfectly with what it wanted to bring across to the readers. that everything is inter-linked.

And I guess I'm back into novels.

Sec and Cos had a son, what was his name?

cosec! =D
ok sorry lame.

gonna start on trigo now.
dunoo when i'll be able to finish it mann.
argh horrible.

ok anyway i think we're like just all going to die on thursday.
have half a mind not to come to school. blehh.
and the freaking pe is couple dance again la!
ARGHH.
I'm like just going to malu again.
this SUCKSS.

now! must work hard for the future! =DD
jiayou wenbin! =D

Stuff, stuff and more stuff.

woo. busy week.

like really busy.

and the impending promos are not fun either.
blehh. want it to be hurry over.
then i can spend my time complaining about how boring it is without exams.

muahahaa.

had quite alot of stuff i wanted to blog about.
but i guess i forgot.
i"m really suffering from sereve stm.
i need help.
and i want christmas to come.
for some weird reason i don't even know.

no presents, no santa claus, no nothing.
but i still like chirstmas.
maybe it's the season greeting,
or maybe it's just the relient k chirstmas carols' remix.

ahh whatever.

Econs, EoM stuff.

it's always stuff, stuff and more stuff.

Working from the inside

Now we're finished with the inside changes,
let's just patch this up and start on the outside.

Patch number v1.3.3.7 gonna come out soon.

Still some little bugs here and there.
but we have to move on to the outside soon,
or else there ain't gonna have time.

We just gonna add the finishing touches and get really that blowtorch.

woo hoo. let's go, external repairs!

=====================

omg today was super malu.

i was like praying for PT la.
irritating.

ok nvm.

======================

*krsshh*
*bang!*
*woooo...*
"Let's get this thing up!"

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Computers Anonymous

i think it's been good.

should hold it on a weekendly basis.

cause i'm like not doing any work AGAIN.

which is like bad.

yea.

had a lot of stuff to say.

but forgot everything.

oh ya.

one of my resolutions is to be more positive.
so i shall not post emo stuff anymore.

=DD
see! smiley faces!

there'll a lot more resolutions to come.
ahh wells!

smile! for the world's not gonna see you frown!

Tying up the Loose ends

gonna embark on my "Computer Rehabilitation Program" from tomorrow onwards.

gonna lock up my tablet in the locker on friday and leave it there for the weekends.

I have a feeling that it's gonna be beneficial.

But that means i gotta complete everything by today.

1)Paradigma Article
2) Photog photos(I have a feeling i can't get them by today.)
3)Other online responsibilities.

Yea. guess that's all.
msn me tonight.

cause i'll be long gone by friday.

Interesting Fact: Tomorrow is the main day of the Ghost Festival. It will be the day where ALL the ghosts(those good ones) will be let out to play. The problem is, often all the bad ones come out together too illegally. It is highly recommended to get home before nightfall.

P.S. I'm sick of pop. Let's go for some classicals.

Argh.

nothing here today.

i hate the world.

The stars ain't too happy, are they.

You're a little mopey about
something that happened quite a while back -- but you're not yet ready
to let go. Why not let yourself be sad for a while? Your mood is sure
to turn the corner by itself soon.

tomorrow's libra.

this sucks.

and what's worse is how it's so depressingly true.

Can't they give me a damn break once in a while.

Solo mio

Tomorrow's horoscope for libra:
You usually love working with
other people. But today, you're not going to feel like teamwork is the
way to go. There's a high possibility of personality clashes and of old
issues popping up between you and someone else. So avoid joining any
teams or groups, if you can -- even if it's just for lunch or an
after-work activity. You're better suited to working alone right now.
Not only will you be able to control where you are going, you can
completely control what you're doing.
===========================================

Just when i thought something's gonna get better.

I hate everybody.

Let the rain come down

I'm bored and worried sick of homework.
what an oxymoron eh.

Phase 2...Activate.

there's something going on.
i don't know what.
but i know there is.

It feels as though there's someone,
someone, or some people out there.
that's like. analysing my actions and stuff.

like some scientists,
looking at an experiment.

I feel like I'm in some really real virtual reality.
where scientists use to test human behavior.

I mean.. I've always been feeling this way la.
but nowadays it's especially strong.

And frankly, I think I'm going crazy.
like literally crazy.

Moments where tears mix with laughter.
moments where work mix with play.
moments where moments just mix together.

It's all killing me.
and i don't even know what's the problem.

I really need help.

I'm with boredom >>

this sucks.


on to the next level

Bad Company

I confess.

I think I'm desperate for company.
not company company like now company.
company like 24/7 company.

and.. i dunno why.
I feel.. weird.

This is getting out of hand.

There's a dark cloud, arising...out of the stormy sea

why do I feel so alone?

alone.

Cause we lost it all

ok. good stuff first.

NDP day:
woke up late. like 7.40 late.
rushed to school, sprinted the last stretch and wasn't marked as late. heh.

NDP performance was niceee.
ok la i think i missed having guys around and going crazy.
but still it was nice!

then the connect thing.
er.. nothing to say about that.

then after that went to kfc with zhiyang and alice to eat lunch.
then met up with pinglynn and herzad. then went for movie.
then met up with singyee yanying khai. then went to play arcade.
then went to watch movie.

JOURNEY TO THE CENTRE OF THE EARTH WAS AWESOME.
like damn nice!
kiddish kind of nice la!
must it's like the kind of movie that makes you go..
woahhh.
really man!
damn action packed.

ok then we went over to explanade planning to catch aca pella
but ended up not free.
so we went out to watch live band playing.
they were good!


after they finished at around 8 plus we went for dinner(actually only dessert) at swensens! only ordered fries, earthquake and veggie mix!



then after that we went for pool, parapara arcade and then headed on home.

now for the bad stuff.

i came home and found my dad sleeping on my bro's bed and vice-versa.
that means he(my dad) got into a serious fight with my mum.

shit man. just when i thought today could be a good day.
Now i'm just staying online, dreading tomorrow when they fight again.


Can anyone please rescue me out from this mess we call home?

False sense of.. false?

This sucks.

on a brighter note, i hope nothing goes wrong tomorrow.
or it's my head on the line.

>_<

on a even brighter note, i shall fully enjoy myself tomorrow.
and not care about like... ANYTHING ELSE.

one day of respite,

and then it's back to hell.

The Ceremony of Misfortune

You know... things haven't been good lately. and it just became official.

like.. i really arghh.
some one took my shoebag and left her pink nike shoe behind -.-''
and i mistook someone.
and i mistook someone. again.
like 3 bad stuff in a row.
not lucky man.

and then. academic's been dropping like faster than sky-diving.
i really don't arghh.
I NEED HELP.

who's out there to care?

and I've never felt more alone

-Just take me away-

Chaos (?)

omg i need black leather shoes.
like by tomorrow.

damn! where the hell am i suppose to find it.
rawrr!

Leaving the nest

I hate him.
inconsiderate bastard.

What's wrong with asking you to put on your damn earphones.
instead of blasting out your freaking horrible music.

I DON'T LIKE TO BE WOKEN UP 7AM IN THE MORNING BY A 'HEADSHOT' WHEN I SLEPT AT LIKE 2AM LAST NIGHT.

I DON'T LIKE TO HEAR STUPID DUMB MAPLESTORY MUSIC BLASTING THE ROOM WHEN I'M STRUGGLING WITH MY INTEGRATION.

AND I HATE TO BE THREATENED. ASSHOLE.

HYPOCRITICAL BASTARD. EVERYTIME SWITCHING OFF THE MUSIC WHEN I GO OUT TO COMPLAIN, AND ACTING ALL INNOCENT.

AND SWITCHING OFF ALL THE GAMES WHEN MY DAD COMES HOME SO HE SEEM TO BE STUDYING.

ARGHH.

this has to go, once and for all.
and if it doesn't settle, tonight,
I'm off, far, far away.

And don't bother with dinner,
I'll settle everything on my own.

Family sucks.
Fighting Parents,
Horrible brother.

Why can't I be some orphan who has rich parents who died and left me a huge lump of cash.

Don't bother.
He just switched off his music,
Cause my dad's coming home.

Don't bother,
with the dinner,
not tonight, not tomorrow,
for you won't see me eating a meal in the house.
not unless it's settled tonight.
and by the looks of it,
I better start preparing my plans
for my late night escape.

Astrological Advice

ok i'm back into my astrology craze thingy.
pretty much cause things ain't going too well.
and i don't even know why.
i think it's the people relationships.
ah wells.

anyway:

Libra for tomorrow:

If you are expecting to have a
super day, you will have a super day. And if you're expecting to fail,
today -- well, you get the idea. Remember that your attitude can sway a
situation. Not only that, but your attitude will sway the attitudes of
the people around you. Make sure you're putting out some positive
energy -- especially if you are going to be involved in a competition.
Showing that you are confident is the first step toward intimidating
your opponent (and making them doubt themselves more).

THANKS MAN.JUST WHEN I NEED SOME REAL ADVICE.
which idiot will have a super day if he feels lousy -.-''

ok anyway, i went over to my teen one, hoping for some better horoscope

Libra Teen for tomorrow:

Have you forgotten something big? Now is a good
time for you to listen to that little nagging voice in your head that
is trying to remind you -- before it's too late! Things should change
pretty soon.

yeaa. "things should change pretty soon", "have you forgotten something big" "nagging" "reminder". I think i have a pretty vague idea. and i'm pleased. hah. please please let it change for the better. Maybe if i cross-refrence and be all high and happy, things will change for the better! =DD

ahh wells, who am i kidding. it'll never happen.

Sky's all blue and black.

meh.

tv's boring, everything's boring, no mood to do work.
don't understand integration at all.

i really need someone.
ahh wells.

The secret door of information

rbpelepenf.

ok life still sucks.
>_<
been feeling happier nowadays though.
but i feel as though...
i dunno.

I think I'm starting to become a jerk.
ah wells.

Jerk Nerd Flirt,
what's the difference?

They're still all humans, after all.

Excessive Procrastination Disorder

yea. EPD. me thinks i'm suffering from a severe case of that.

how to cure sia! rawrrr! >_&lt;

no mood to do work, no mood to pack up fiel.
no mood to do ANYTHING.

i need serious help.

"Now there is,
something in the air."
-WenBin

Lima Mima!

omg still got lots of stuff to complete.
procrastination rangers! unite!
rawrr!

Rolling with the wave

If I ever wanted to be all alone in a place in Singapore,
I think I know which place I would go.

Past the line

you know you've gone too far when i stop fighting back.

Life's a Lie

tired.
uploaded a new song that i heard from somewhere.

brought a smile to my face immediately sia the song.
like super funny la!

=DD

Thoughts and Actions

Point Proven.

Thoughts and Words

You know, something, things do go too fast out of my mouth sometimes.

that's pretty much a serious side-effect that comes along with being quick-witted.
and i think i've offended way too many people, past and present.
knowingly or unknowingly.

i really have to find a way to process the words through my brain first.

but still, the first step is to apologise.
Some are unknown and unknown due to well, you know.

1)To *** , for making all those mean remarks about you.
2)To jenna, i think i said something weird on msn ytd. sorry 'bout that.
3)To 33/08, for whatever mean things i said during/outside class.
4)To zhiyang, for saying that stuff during maths remedial.(I didn't mean it, I'm serious. It just came out of my mouth all wrong.)
5)To many others, all the bad stuff i've done.

I guess. I'm not as good as I thought after all.
Life's a pain.

But still, I'm sorry.
Forgive me.
please?

The post from the early early morning

andd it's 4.25am now.
from my list, only pinglynn from 33/08, shaun and zhiwei from cat high,some choir guy, xiangyi from og21 and alot of other random strangers online.
yeaa.
looks like i have quite a bunch of late nighters on my hand.

hahaa.
finished up my online synapse article. and wondering what homework we have for tmr.
guess i'll just have to ask. till now, i'm gonna try the zhe yu xiao yan book for the book review.

tata!

Bored.

bored a lot of work and still bored.

blehh.

Drawings from a bored mind in a boring machine

haha pictures! =DD



My very first ever drawing on a gc!
realised how time consuming and fun it can be. hah.



The one i did on the night after i did the previous image.
haha wanted to draw something completely different but it just came out like that. =x



My first try at Indiana Jones escapee picture! =DD
the swinging guy i did here was the best.
like i really couldn't do it again no matter how i tried.



Second try at Indiana Jones escapee picture!
see? the guy didn't came out as good.
though the monster looked a bit better though.



A fighting game picture!
i did this today!
during the pw lecture which was super boring.
haha i didn't even fall asleep!
like the first time ok!
i actually did one original version under the request of bertina. But i don't have the thing cause it's in her phone. ahh wells.



ANDDD.
this is the latest one!
also done during the pw lecture!
hha cause alice was asking for a soccer one.
so i decided to try my hand at a 3D picture!
AND IT CAME OUT SO NICE!
i'm sooo happy!
haha.

hmmm. it's funny how the simplest of things can cheer you up.
ahh wells. =)

I'm telling you just how I feel

rawrrr.

life sucks.

song's not too bad though.

ahh wells.

it's getting too hectic.
wanted to post some nice gc drawn pictures.

but coulnd't find the time to do it.
blehh. i think i need to find a study buddy soon.

ahh wells.

life sucks.

Going far far away into the land of unknowns

and sometimes, it just feels good.

Me, myself and the troubles of the world.

helpless to do anything, incapable of completing anything.

Stuck in this little corner of the room.

Watching on, as the world disintegrates.

and my life goes, just as well.

Attack of the schools

And was walking to library.
Saw a whole mass and bits of different sec sch and jc people.
got aj, rj, amk sec, alot la.

yea. then when i was going to return book i saw zhiyang there =x
heard about the inter-house results.

Don't worry jiayou! at least you all got 2nd!
and the 5-0 at first already proved how formidable you girls are.
hah.

anywayy, yea. while coming back saw joanna and rachel. didn't see justin there. wonder why. must be away at cheryl's house or something. ah wells.=p

yeaa. then went with my brother to buy present for his friend. i suspect he's buying for his girlfriend though. ahh well, don't know don't care.

yea. guess that's all, i gotta get started on my homework soon. if not it'll never be completed.

see ya!

Bad weather's here again

Bad weather's coming up,
One licorice, two, or maybe three.
Accident's coming round the bend,
for bad weather's here again.

And it's raining.
rain rain rain.
Calm my soul,
sooth my body.
Wash away the pain,
wash down the sins.

For I'll never be clean again.

Bang my head, kill me dead, throw me down, let me howl.

Rawrr.

life is getting worse and worse now.

and it's like getting bleak.

I think i'm in the pre first stage of suicidal tendenices.
bleh. not like anyone will care anyway.

and i can never get to improve.



i just want to die.

And when all trust is lost,
where do you go for lies?

Back to school, stop that fool, make me bread, heal my head.

Blehh. i'm tiired! ><

and guess that's that. youth day's over. being a fun day though, i must say.
33/08 in the morning till early afternoon.
and 32/08 from early afternoon till night.

fun fun fun.
and now it's back to school.

and please. for the people who have either
1)made a very bad guess
2)been tricked and bluffed by me
3)keep getting paranoid

i conclude again.
I DON'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.
or anything even remotely near.

but these 3 days been fun bluffing people though.
hahaa. right lee hao nam.
><

anyway use common sense la.
i so undesirable who will want me please -.-

yeaa. guess that's all.
so i'm still single, available, and lonely.

When you see the flipside

good things always come coupled with bad ones.

heh. enjoyed today. alot. just staying at home is well.. pretty fun ><

and it looks like everyone's drifting away from me.

or.. is it just in perspective?

When things just don't seem right,
but are not yet wrong.

And it was just awesome.

thanks so much.

you didn't let me down after all.

and i really didn't expect what came. =)

but still, thanks. so much, for everything.

don't worry, you did your part.

and now it's my turn to fulfill mine.

And everything really isn't so bad after all

Something bad this way comes

I can sense it in your voice.

don't bother denying it.

something's gonna go wrong tomorrow.

i know it is.

don't worry, i already have a backup plan

that.. just includes me.

so i won't have to rely on you

to let me down once again.

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Moving it up a day

and now it's on saturday =)

I'm so so excited.

It's the one, and the only chance i have.
to prove the world wrong about me.
and i'm not gonna screw it up.

No way.

And everything doesn't seem so bad after all.

And Let The Sun Come

don't let me down.

this sunday.

let it come true.

i've been looking forward to this all my life.

so. please. don't let me down.

Quiz Time! Again!

tagged by feng

Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your blog, lj, xanga, wordpress.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.

(opps. took wrong one. re-doing the thing. hah.)

OCTOBER:
Loves
to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the
center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt
but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what
others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to
travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned.
Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily
loses confidence. Loves children.(rawrr. i got k2 girl living with me sia. i don't like children she die already. hahaha.)

i tag:maddy, cheryl, yanying, justin, tommy, haha everyone in 32 and 33 la.(:

AND OMG THE THING BELOW IS DAMN TRUE. I' M NOT KIDDING. IT'S LIKE REALLY TRUE LA.



JANUARY:
Stubborn
and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize.
Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and
has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited
or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses
but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love.
Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.
Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract
thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing
personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble.
Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious
when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary
things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and
leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and
ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive
personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally
honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive
to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy.
Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves
attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors.
Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active
and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and
affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless.
Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others.
Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their
lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed
and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others
and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally.
Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness
usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak
breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High
spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily
influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas.
Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always
wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good
debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make
friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds.
Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes
time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun
to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet
unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.
Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful.
Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but
never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides
others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions
carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations.
Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always
broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely
person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to
be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves
to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has
leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and
egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily
jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent
thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the
arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving
and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and
compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out
people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk
well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.
Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.
Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information.
Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and
traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very
choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves
to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the
center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt
but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what
others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to
travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned.
Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily
loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and
generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient
and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with.
Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved.
Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing
personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates
restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

The Real World.

pushed into a corner.

guess we've just gotta run to somewhere else.

a place with no limits,

a ground with space and air.

where everything is possible.

Welcome, to the land where all desperates go.

Welcome, to the land of fantasty.

Blue.Dark Blue.

You know, things can't get any worse than it already is.
2 out of the 4 areas in my life have already been destroyed.
and i sense the third blow coming, if the collaboration goes well, i'm going down.
and if even a plane can't survive with 3 blown engines, how can I?
How can I?

And changes are afoot,
whether you like it or not.

It's time to stop running,
and start the salvaging.

Trouble trouble, toil and double

I hate the two idiotic human beings who gave birth to me.

==========================================

Family Day.

By: Yeo WenBin






A vase flies across the room and smashes on the wall.
A Trophy soars up and scratches the ceiling.

Words Fly,
Hands Poised.

"Give me your bank account numbers!"
"Don't touch me, you monster!"

In a corner,
in a room.

Sits two children.
Huddled together.

Tears are flowing down their cheeks.
They are hapless, terrified.

A knife goes up.
A bamboo pole is held.

The children stares in silent horror.
Blood splurts, a cry goes up.

The children cries out in silence.
Tears flow, huddling together.

A TV screen is cracked and broken.
A rice cooker goes out of the window.


On a table, sits a piece of homework.
On another, stands a pencil holder.

Both was crashed down in fury.

Fury and Hate rushes through the parent's mind.
Horror and Pain takes control of the children.

This is the meaning of a family.
This is but afterall, just a family activity.

================================================

Quiz Time!

Got tagged by daryl. and since i'm bored here, might as well do. lol!



List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:

uh...
can don't say.
finee, shall name all the impossible to get items. yay!
1)PSP Slim
2)Vaio Black/sliver/blue
3)Xbox 360 (or 720, if it comes out soon enough)
4)iPhone
5)Perfect Grades



Answer the following questions:



1. The person who last tagged you is...

Drew! hahaaa. thanks for the nice comment! =)



2. Your relationship with him/her is...

Bestie!



3. Your 5 impressions of him/her..

1)Can be trusted
2)Gossipy (psst.. red scandal... hahahaa.)
3)A good friend
4)A super-good friend
5)rawrr. everything a good friend can be? =x



4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you

got alot. let's see...
Staying back with me to study! =DD



5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you

Why Wenbin... (HAHHAAHAA.)



6. If he/shebecomes your lover, you will..

uh... he's a GUY. -.-



7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she should improve on will be

Hello? guy? Is this quiz bugged or something.



8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..

Nuuuu. then my world will crash down and i'll get depression and whatsnot.
abit melodrama right. but still.
cannot! ><



9. If he/she becomes you enemy, the reason will be...

Cause I pissed him off, won't have it any other way. =x



10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is...

Give him a hugggg. HAHAAA.



11. Your overall impression of him/her is...

Good friend, best friend, you know.. BFF!



12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

uh...
How i know!
i'm guessing ugly, yucky, fat, lousy, useless, horrible person.
Don't LIE. I can readd your mindd.



13. The characteristics you love about yourself are...

I don't think there's any. to be honest. Maybe, a long temper?



14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are...

Everything. really. Hmm, but ranked first few would go looks, behaviour and looks.



15. The msot ideal person you want to be is...

Me. Won't and can't have it any other way.
I'm unique in my own horrible way.



16. For people that care are like you, say something to them...

Hello! =D



17. (pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)(random)
See la daryl, you tag feng and drew, now i can't tag any 3 of you all. hmph! =(
rawrr. since i don't know up to 10 people that blog regulary anyway. shall just name any 10 that has owned/still own a blog. HAHAHAA.


1. shaun

2. madelyn

3. yanying

4. justin tan

5. tommeh

6. jenna

7. weeseng

8. cheryl

9. sin li

10.joan

(Don't blame me! I just went to my blog and random some links! ><)



18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?

hahahaa. she got so many EMA, also dunno who now le. =x



19. Is no.9 a male of female?

female



20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

WEESENG AND JOAN?!! OMG AWEEESOMEEE. it's gonna be like the most scandalous event ever to happen in aj history. AWWW MANN.



21. How about no.8 and 5?

Cheryl and tommeh? uh... can't. tommeh's already attached. i'm tempted to switch justin with tommeh though, it's only one space apart! hahahaha.



22. What is no.2 studying?

hahaa. GEMH?



23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

hahaaa. last night?



24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?

SIR MIXALOT JUNKY STUFF. hahahaa.



25. Does no.1 has any siblings?

neope. i bet he would love to though.=x



26. Will you woo no.3?

eh. this is getting stupid. are these quizzes like bugged or something.



27. How about no.7?
OMG NO WAYYY. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. YOU'RE HEAD WILL EXPLODE. I'M TOO AWESOME.



28. Is no.4 single?

justin; hahha public: yes. though we never know what he's doing in the love hexagon thingy. lol!



30. What is the hobby of no.4?

let's see! Sports, cars, photography, and juggling his love hexagon. ahhaa.



31. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

i don't think they know each other. well, unless sin li starts deciding to use her guitar as a tennis racket, that is. ahhh sorry! ><



32. Where is no.2 studying at?

AJ; from ZH



33. Say something casually about no.1

haha HI SHAUN! =D



34. Have you try developing feelings for no.8?

ok.. this quiz is SOOO wrong, i should just edit the quiz and delete these questions. corrupt my brain space.



35. Where does no.9 live at?

haha i dunno. go ask her yourself. lol!



36. What colour does no.4 like?

any colour that cheryl or joanna likes! hahaha.



37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?

dunno each otherr.



38. Does no.7 likes no.2?

OMG WEESENG AND MADDY. SECOND MOST AWESOME SCANDAL TO HAPPEN. HAHAHAAA. HEY MADDY, WANNA CONSIDER? LOL.



39. How do you get to know no.2?

er.. same pae class, same jae class?



40. Does no.1 have any pets?

a chao big dog that's like up to my shoulder when it stands up!



41. Is no.7 the sexiest girl in the world?

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA YA. WEESENG IS DAMN SEXY. HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.



42. Do you think its possible if no.4 and no.5 date each other?

hahha sure. justin and tommeh. jia you! lol!



43. Say something more about no.6

jenna wong? uh... haha she's my first dance partner? maths partner too! =x


44. what is your relationship with no.9
sin li? classmates, friends?


45. List all the schools that no.1 to no.10 are in and originally from.
1. shaun(Catholic High; Anderson JC)
2. madelyn(Zhonghua; Anderson JC)
3. yanying(Cedar; Anderson JC)
4. justin tan(Maris Stella; Anderson JC)
5. tommeh(shit i forgot. ; Anderson JC)
6. jenna(St nick; ; Anderson JC)
7. weeseng(Catholic High ; Anderson JC)
8. cheryl(Crescent girls; Anderson JC)
9. sin li(i dunno!; Anderson JC)
10.joan(i also dunno!; Anderson JC)

haha opps. ><

46. What would you do if no.10 hates you?
I'll call jay chou to hate her back. hahaa.

47. Which of the following are in a relationship?
hahahaa you know some things are not meant to be revealed. *wink*

48. How did you first met no.3?
same pae class, same jae class?

49. How would you react if no.3 and no.10 are together?
third most awesome scandal! ok la, maybe not so awesome. i dunno? les? I think there's like a few in aj already anyway.

50. Last question! What would you do if no.4 tells you she is pregnant.
JUSTIN TAN IS PREGNANT! HAHAHAHAA OMG THIS IS THE BEST QUESTION TO END OFF WITH. HAHAHAA. CHERYL CHEN! WHAT YOU DO TO HIM! OVARY TRANSPLANT AR! HAHAHAHAAAAHAHA.

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rawrrr. hahaha those tagged better do. lol!
don't worry i go tag your board and send reminder! hahahahaha.


ok guess i gotta go collect my phone now.

MY NOKIA PHONE MAN! SO MANY WEEKS ALREADY! ahhhhh.