bah. whatever.

still feeling sad.
still at home.

trying to abstain from the computer.
but guess it's not working.

or i won't be online, would I.
anyways, managed a day offline.

not too bad for an addict.
for a start at least.

ok anyway, decided to do daryl's tag quiz
since i've been tagged.

and.
thought it might be interesting.

here goes.


The rules and Regulations:

* Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.
* People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
* At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names
* No tag back

I'll be fair too. will replace/ change anything that anyone besides me already know.

here goes:

1) I hardly take initiative. some might kinda know already. but i'm talking in specifics to girls. I know. it's stupid. but i don't ask them out, don't call them, don't confess, kind of like my own personal moral law. even if i do, like start chatting with them on msn or start sms-ing them. will always feel really really bad afterwards, as though i'm bothering them and always feel as though they want me to stop talking to them, like i'm some sort of despo parasite. blehh. don't feel this way about guys though. weird.

2) this brings me to my next point. I'm paranoid. very. don't know why. born like that perhaps. in reference to my first point, i'll feel especially bad if they don't like reply or something. don't know why either. like start getting all paranoid and think that i'm bothering them and i'm hated and nobody likes me just because someone doesn't reply my sms within 5 minutes. super stupid. but i can't help it. think it's like a big cause of my depression blehh.

3)I will only do my homework depending on the environment. Like if it's noisy and horrible and not conducive, i'll never get into the mood for homework no matter what. for some weird reason. will just stare around and stare at my homework and not get a thing in.

4)I have personal limit of 2 novels to read always. no more, no less. borrow 2 from the library, finish, return and borrow another 2.don't know why 2, but just 2.think it's kinda weird also.

5)favorite numbers are all even numbers. cause i think they round off nicely. like pair up perfectly, no more no less. it's suppose to mean some trait that i have, but i just cannot figure it out now. and no mood also.

6)Favorite season of all time: Christmas. don't think i told anyone before. haha. my perfect day: go out on Christmas morning with friends, play till night, reach home. coke by my side, go online, and msn and talk. then sleep like an innocent baby. too bad it never gets achieved. ah wells.

7)I have mood swings based on mood. ok this is stupid, but yea. like there's no way i can be too happy or too sad. because up to a certain point, my mood will swing wildly in the other direction.like if i'm too happy, then suddenly i'll just stone and feel sad. total letdown in any party.

8)Will always check out channel newsasia first when i turn on the tv. even if there is something nice on channel 5, will switch to channel newsasia, then go back to channel 5. for cable will be nickelodeon. most interesting channel, followed by disney channel, cartoon network, mtv, then history channel.

9)I was almost on tv. for ying huo chong de meng on channel 8. cause a producer came to my mum's and asked her to ask us(my brother and me) whether we wanna be calefares. i think a hundred plus bucks a day. too bad i was too busy gaming to say no. still regretting it to this day.

10)Always feel the need to talk to a girl. don't know why also! i think this is the one that's damn cranky, damn irritating and only developed in me this year. and i totally hate this. i don't know why. but it's making me all sad. and i'm like angry at myself for having this irritating trait. and i don't know why also, since i'm suppose to have like phobia of girls last year. and then coupled onto point 1 and 2, it's basically the reason why i'm always so sad.like want to talk to someone, but don't want to take the initiative. then if i do, will start getting paranoid. arghh.

People i wanna tag:
1)Cheryl Chen
2) Sin Li
3)Alice
4) Joan
5)Madelyn
6)Hani
7)Jenna wong
8)Justin Tan
9)Tommy
10)Guan Hua

that's all. think i revealed too much. but who cares. since no one does. and my wireless just broke down again. just great.bye.