Saturday, March 15, 2008

The joy we once suffered

ahhhhh. leg pain. pain. pain.

Met clinton at 11.40(after pokemon!) then popped over to vivo to go album-hunting. Didn't find anything there. haaha then went to meet glen and al at dhoby ghaut. Found my album at some store! then it's like some US import stuff thingy expensive expensive. haha and here i thought it was a super old album. turned out the other way. ><

haha then we went over to paradiz centre to play pool! played pool from 3 till 8. super zai rights! AND. i tried the parapara dancing arcade machine! the one use hand one! haha super fun la! and turned out i wasn't bad at it leh! managed an S rank some-more!

then.. weeseng joined us halfway. later on his dad came. and his dad is like super good la. wah lao one try clear 5 to 6 balls at one go. haha but me and clinton team up vs him and his dad we still manage to win! haha actually cause it's a lot of default-ing done ><

And now i feel like buying the faber drive album instead. cause their songs are like not bad also one leh.

Hmmm... also, gonna mug at library tomorrow. still got quite a pile to finish up.

Head pain, leg pain. I like just reached home la. 12 full hours outside. wah. ><

-When summer fades to fall-

"If with great powers come great responsibility,
What's the bad guy's responsibility?"

Friday, March 14, 2008

The Sub-conscious Red-alert

ok.. this is screwed up.

Had a super creepy and weird dream.
I'm not gonna say it.
But the only thing i'm releasing is that it has 32/08 in it.
Well, not all of it.
maybe only 2 people... or 1.
Not gonna say anything more.
Hmm.. actually it wasn't that creepy and weird.
Maybe just cause dreaming of them/him/her just after knowing 32/08 for like 1 month? is like pretty screwed up, and the contents are like... plain out of whack?


Normally it takes way longer then that for me to dream of something.
AND... my dream ALWAYS signify what my subconscious is trying to tell me.
so yea. i know this one does too.It has way too many significant details. But what?
Is it really what I've been trying to avoid all along?
Is this what my subconscious mind is trying to tell me?
The way out of all this mess?
That Person. That Key.

Ahh wells, guess i'll go check up the dream interpretation dictionary online later or something.

Timetable's another one's that screwed up.
Monday is just plain dumb. Though I'm in love with Friday's planning.

Bored now. Nothing to do.

8 more days to my bloggie's birthday!
Love ya Blog!
haha 3 years' old le. I'm so proud.
I've spent 3 to 4 hours' preparing it's pressie!
haha can't wait to show it.

ok... guess that's all.

"If Success is hidden deep in the vault of hard work,
Determination is the only method into that vault."
-Yeo WenBin

Thursday, March 13, 2008

If I didn't exist

Hmm.. going out soon.

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If I didn't exist, would the world be a better place?

My parents will be able to live their lives easier with all that money used in nurturing me.

And thus, they will stop fighting over their financial status.

My brother would have it easier in life with more attention given to him.

My teachers would have it easier without having to chase me for homework.

Catholic High would have to suffer less with all the pain i caused.

Those people who bullied me will score much better for their O's as they will spend their time and energy in studying.

Choir will have had better results without me screwing up their music with my awful singing.

Choir wouldn't have to bother with my AWOLs and problematic attitude.

My friends would be better off without me bugging them every second of the day.

They would have more freedom of speech without me gossiping about every thing they said.

They would have felt happier together without me always feeling sad and bringing them down.

They would not have had to put up with me embarrassing them in public.

They would be way happier without me making all the wrong choices.

Without me, there would have had less tears.
Without me, there would have been more joy in the world.
Without me, the world would be a much better place.

If my parents didn't know me,
They would have been much happier.

If choir didn't have me,
their singing standard would have been way better.

If my brother didn't know me,
He would be much more joyful with the extra attention.

If my friends in catholic high didn't know my name,
they would have a much happier 4 years in school.

If og21 didn't see me for orientation and after that,
They would have more fun during and after orientation.

If og21 of o2 didn't have me as their ogf,
they wouldn't have to suffer me bringing them down.

If pdg32/08 didn't have me in their attendance list,
They would have had a much more bonded class spirit.

If pdg33/08 didn't have me,
they would have had a better class leader.

If I didn't exist.
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Love's Break-up

Gonna start off the day with a little poem i conjured.
I know my poems are like getting worse. probably cause it's being so super long since i wrote them. But yea.

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Love's Break-up
By:Yeo WenBin

It began with a stop, look and stare.
It ended with a walk, run and a train fare.

It was a Love at first sight.
It was a Hate many sights after.

It was a pink world of warmth.
It was a green eye-ed monster of form.

It was the new illusion of happiness.
It was the old tears of sadness.

The Sun never came out of the sea until I saw it with you.
The Sun never sank into the sea until I saw it alone with the tree of yew.

The shooting stars ignited the same wish deep within us.
The shooting stars fell, dimmed, glowered and died inside it's husk.

The new surge of power gave us the courage to conquer everything.
The new surge powered us to break each other's heart.

The meaning of Love was never understood by me till I saw you.
The meaning of Loss was now understood as I see you walk away.

You gave me my first-ever kiss.
I gave you my first-ever tears.

You gave me my first-ever valentine gift.
I gave you my first-ever wedding ring.

They say Love is a double-edged sword.
You said we just hit the edge facing us.

They say Cupid's arrow are meant to last.
You said he probably used his last lousy arrow on us.

You gave me a gift before walking away.
I opened it before running away in tears.

Inside was 4 words.
Outside was a world of meaning.

Love.
Break-up.

Marriage.
Divorce.

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Hmm... going out later. guess that's all. bored now.
Maybe i'm posting later. who knows?

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

That Sociable Loner

I would say that yesterday and today were productive.
finished off at least 50% of the workload.

Hmm...managed to do a little of my econs notes too, after leaving it rotting for like.. super long!

and i got meself back into the good habit of reading!
haha after stopping after the december, thought it would do me a little good to get back in books.
Wanted to pick up a James Patterson thriller, but only found his love novel.
I didn't even know he writes love novels.
but gawd, it was brilliant.

I was like this close to tears la.
and the male lead in the story is like super insensitive cans!
which idiot will send his wife's love diary to his mistress?!
But still, it was super touching.

Gonna continue with it after i'm done with this post.
I feel in the mood for a poem.
But maybe i'll do it later.
haha.

"When being a private ally,
isn't so different from being a public enemy after-all."
-Yeo WenBin

Monday, March 10, 2008

When you fight till you don't know what you're fighting for anymore

This is most probably my headache speaking. But still. I got sick of the edits and decide to just start a new post instead. I dunno, just suddenly feel very depressed again. I think i'm suffering from extreme mood swing or something. this sucks.

Yea. The competition's not only heating up, it's getting too strong. The green-eyed monster is going crazy over all the attention he's getting from me. I'm fighting till I don't know what I'm fighting for any longer. I'm just charging aimlessly while seeing my opponents making quick and good progress. I've lost the competition before, but that's because i was way too late in realizing that the competition has started. Now, It's just me and the green-eyed monster versus the rest. And this time, I'm not giving up without a fight. I'm not just gonna give up like what I did last time. I still have the upper-hand. I still have R.O.T.O.R.

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(Continuation from part 1)
And with this, the mothership lurched forward with a speed not known before as the captain hurriedly snatched this seat handle to prevent himself from falling again.

"Sir! more incoming missiles! Mothership's heading straight for the asteroid field!"
"What the... R.O.T.O.R, are you freaking out of your mind?!"
"Captain. Do not worry. We will be in and out of the asteroid field in 3 hours. And there will not be any more missiles left."

With that, the mothership swung to the left and headed straight for the largest
asteriod in the field.

"We're going to crash in 8 seconds sir!"
"Captain! We're not going to make it!"
"Barry! Change the course now!"
"I...I can't! R.O.T.O.R locked us out of the system!"
"R.O.T.O.R, what the hell are you think you're doing?!"
"Captain. Don't worry. We'll make it.I had to shut you all out to stop you all from interfering with my plan of course."
"Brace for impact!"

At the last moment, R.O.T.O.R swung to the extreme right and dodged the asteroid. The captain could practically see the dust on the asteroid as they swung past it.
"Boom!" An explosion was heard as the captain switched his screen to the back view. Two G8 slammed into the asteroid and exploded, sending the asteroid into pieces.

"4 stray asteroids in the planned course sir!"
"I want R.O.T.O.R out of the system. NOW!"
"Captain. I will handle everything. Do not worry."
The eeriely calm mechanical voice boomed over the system once again.

"I can't get her out! She locked out even the backup access!"

The mothership lurched to the left, right as they closely missed each stray asteroid and 2 more G8s smashed into these asteroids, sending them into oblivion.

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My head sucks. It's pain.
Today has got to be the worst day ever.
I'm depressed, and everything is turning out wrong.
I'm going to sleep.
Everything sucks.

When your first time becomes your last

ONE MORE EDIT:
the headache. ahhhhh! It's freakin' killing me! arghhhhhh! Pain. Pain. Cannot look striaght. cannot think straight. It's like some stupid throbbing pain running up and down my head. ahhh. pain pain pain. Ahhhhhhhhhh. I freaking hate today! TODAY SUCKS.

EDIT:
Now I feel bad for making the rest feel bad even though it's my fault. this sucks.
People, I'm not emo le. really. I just have this really bad headache that's killing me
Pain. Lots of Pain. Don't worry, I'll drink some coffee to improve my mood somehow.
Don't feel sorry anymore, or I'll really go crazy.

I'm feeling damn bad now. wasted everyone's time.
this sucks. I'm not gonna do it again le.
This is what happens when you try to go against your fate.
and it's not pretty.

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"Up the defenses! We're gonna experience more incoming missles!"
"Activate Defense L.O.Y.A.L! We need that fast attacking machine!"
"Down S.P.E.D! it's wasting our energy resource!"
"Too late! Brace for impact!"

"Rooommmmmm...." The whole mothership rocked to the right, and everyone fell down. The captain stood up, and looked at the giant screen in front of him. It had been a long time since the mothership has gone through such turbulence. In fact, he couldn't even re-call the last time this had happened.

"We're not gonna survive this if this continues! There's just too many of them! Sir, we have to switch to red-alert!"
"No! The AI is still under experimental status! The power may be too much for us to handle!"
"We have no choice! It's either the AI or the mothership, sir!"

The captain looked at the screen again, his eyebrows knotted in concentration. Almost half of the ship was in critical status. With half of his defense system knocked down. "What kind of monstrous enemy is this?" He mused to himself as he looked once again, and made his decision.

"Sir! Ten more of those enemy planes just appeared! We need that AI!"
"Ok. Switch on that AI!"
"Yes sir!"

"Sir! We need more time!"
"The ship won't be able to handle another attack!"
"The AI is just not ready!"

"Off all energy procedures! Transfer 100% to the AI power-up!"
"There's still not enough time."
"Not enough! Incoming missile heading at 6 o'clock!"

"Time! We need time!"

The captain stare in silence as the missile zoomed it's way to the mothership. It was too late... Way too late..

"Boom!" The captain looked around. "Has the ship been hit already? But why was there no turbulence?"

Suddenly, all the lights in the room went out. The captain stared at the screen in shock.

The missile was floating in space right in front of them. "But what? How?"

"Hello captain. R.O.T.O.R reporting for duty!"
The mechanical voice boomed all through the loudspeakers.
"But how? How did you power-up so fast? Even with 100% resource intake, you're suppose to power-up in a few hours' time!"

"Captain, It needs a few hours for me to power-up, but I only need a few minutes, seconds even, to wake up."
"So? Even after waking up, you don't have any defense capabilities! And that missile was a top of the tech tree: G8 Air-eagle!Even our most advanced missile search and destroy gun G.U.N.E.S.T has problem locking onto it!"
"I woke up, and snatched control to the resource intake even before you commanded it. Then I hacked into the mainframe and took all power to the ship. The G8 Air-eagle is a lock-on follower which has an extremely high speed. With a suddenly halt to the ship without any warning or slowing down, the G8 will have trouble re-locking on due to it's high speed. When it tries to re-lock on, it will slow down it's speed by 18.6834% for 1.4562 seconds. During this time, I simply took over G.U.N.E.S.T and shot it down. Piece of cake."

The captain stared in shock.
"Don't look so shocked. I was built in as a red-alert for a reason."

"Sir! More incoming G8s! and there's an unknown space asteroid field up in front!"
"Captain, now let me show you, R.O.T.O.R's agility!"

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Ok. Dunno, just some random piece of fiction i typed out.

Feeling emo now. Screwed up.

Humbug.

"Why bother trying to be a perfectionist,
When nothing in this world is perfect?"
-Yeo WenBin