The Isolation Shutdown

I think I'm going to die in this camp.

as in. literally.

i don't know! i think it's the paranoia, but i can't deny the signs!

right now i'm typing, my cool inbox is showing me EXACTLY 444 messages.
then there're the dreams. those dreams. i can't remember what they were now.
but. they prophesized something. i JUST CANNOT GET IT.

and my dad. he normally don't care when i like go out for a few days in a row.
but now he's super duper scared. REALLY. he was calling me over and over.
and telling me all the super scary stuff. like how i should take care of myself,
and that i should look out for my surroundings, that i should be careful,
THIS IS CREEPING ME OUT MAN.

then my mum. i don't know what she heard from the fortune teller a few days ago,
but she's super kind and caring to me. arghh.

I think I'm going to die.
and i think it has something to do with not having enough money.
i don't know!
i just know it has something to do with not having my wallet and thus not having my money.
i saw it in my dream.

I DON'T WANT TO DIE. OMG.
I still have so many things i haven't done.
I still haven't gotten a job.
I still haven't found love.
I still haven't got that iPhone I want so so much.
I still haven't supported my parents and my aunt.
I still haven't bought them the big houses i promised them.
I still haven't hired them the 5 servants to serve them.
I still haven't done my homework.
I still haven't read George Orwell's 1984
I still haven't confessed.
I still haven't found love.
I still haven't told my parents that I love them alot, no matter what they did, everything they did.

I still haven't found love.

I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

ok i'm seriously getting paranoid. but just in case i really die, at least i fade off this world with enough innocence to go to heaven. I hope.

WenBin. signing off. Perhaps for the last time.

The Green-eyed monster of form

tiired as usual.
not mood to pick up gp.

luckily there isn't much to study.
else i'm dead.

today's chinese was... a..okay.
not too hard, but ain't too easy either.

just finished packing up for camp.
tiired. don't feel like going la. feel like sleeping at home instead.

and i'm super scared of high elements! cause i'm super duper acrophobic!
die die die.

And let the jealousy seep in,
seep into my head, into my heart.

yes, let it seep, poison my heart,
and power it up, power up my head.

And let it take over my emotions,
the new-found power, to control it.

Control my emotions, but let the hate fly,
for hate is the source of jealousy.

or is jealousy the source of hate?

Who cares. Just let them both control my skin and bones.
and let them do as they pleases, cause i can't feel nothing no more.

The Coming Up

I need to studyy for chinese.
this sucks.

tiired. wants to sleep.
sleep sleep sleep.

that's all. nights.

The Choral Diction

Wheee. tonight's concert was nicee.

thought meridian's sin sin song sounds a bit. weird compared to ours.
haha i heard it's cause they were off-pitch. =x

yeaa. i'm not in the mood to blog tonight. maybe i'll post more later.

anywayy, is it just me, or is every single cat high guy in some sort of relationship/crush/secretly admiring someone problem. ahh wells.

guess that's how life is. down, down down.

was inspired to start on a poem "Long Distance Call" this morning. but never got about to doing it. too tired. ahh wells.