tell me how to get back.

Went to IT show 2012 today!
with the army people!

Less people than I thought there would be,
although it happened on a friday
so there is little cause for surprise.

managed to get myself a external keyboard
to replace my laptop's internal half-spoilt one.

Still trying to get used to the keys.

I've been spending way too much.

way more than I intend to.

this is bad.

very bad.

I think I have the gene
that leads to alcoholism.

I'm scared.

I'm addicted to sad.

There is this little beauty behind getting your heart broken.

It need not be love,
although it mostly is.

It can be,
a simple word,
a simple truth.

which grows into a phrase,

into a sentence,

into a paragraph,

and into a whole composition

all in your mind,

from that simple word.

and your heart,
can no longer support that truth,
that big composition,
and it cracks,

breaks.

it hurts.

of course it does,
the first time, anyway.

and then you heal.


and when your heart breaks again,

you take it all in.
the pain, the sorrow.
you let it seep through your body

then,
you realize,
that it is that much simpler
to let pain and sorrow rule.

and you let it be.

accept the pain,
accept the hurt.

accept that there is no longer anyone who cares.

and suddenly,
it doesn't hurt anymore.

because you have finally found bliss.

bliss,
the beauty behind the pain.

i may no long matter,

but i still wish you'll come back.

I really need to know.

 Self-Help

How to deal with stress

How to deal with difficult people

Self-Improvement

How to play guitar

How to read effectively

Fiction

The Worlds that exist beyond the green.

One Year On

Mystery

The case of the missing joy

Horror

The encounter of the Lazy


The Rise of the Crazies.