-Sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do-
went mugging tuhday.
library + boring + sickening + no mood + sian + raining + really no mood = unproductive.
sucks.
Now left like super lot of undone homework STILL.
dunno how to face teachers on monday.
sickening!
And now i don't dare look at my bag.
and all the homework inside.
JC is starting to feel really stressful
and it's just the starting!
can't believe it. ARGH.
down. down. down.
though it really looks like i might just be floating soon.
after-all, things can't be that bad forever.
after-all.
-Trying to think of something anything just to keep me from thinking of you-
" The 10 Steps To Rejection"
"1)Realize there's a problem.
2)Accept it.
3)Try to save it before your heart cracks.
4)If it cracks, try to mend it, if it doesn't, go to step 10
5)If it's not mendable, try to accept it again.
6)The crack is bound to get bigger.
7)Try to survive as it does.
8)Survive till your heart breaks into a million pieces
9)Slowly mend it back using logic.
(warning: May take a long time.)
10)Stabilize the logic to prevent heart from breaking again."
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Blog. Birthday. Balloon. Borriquito!
-Rise me up to the sky-
haha! blog birthday!
happy birthday blog!
=D
it's been 3 years!
and i've managed to hit 11k hits!
within 3 years! that's like...
10.11 hits per day!
that's seriously not bad leh.
hmm.. going library tuh mug tomorrow.
and i've editted a lot of these stuff from the original blogskin.
added taggie, music, blog counter and made it fire-fox compatiable.
yea. maybe i'll post more later.
for now, it's cyber-present and cyber champagne!
oh yea.. 3 years old can't drink champagne.
ahh wells.
-Cause Every Second counts-
haha! blog birthday!
happy birthday blog!
=D
it's been 3 years!
and i've managed to hit 11k hits!
within 3 years! that's like...
10.11 hits per day!
that's seriously not bad leh.
hmm.. going library tuh mug tomorrow.
and i've editted a lot of these stuff from the original blogskin.
added taggie, music, blog counter and made it fire-fox compatiable.
yea. maybe i'll post more later.
for now, it's cyber-present and cyber champagne!
oh yea.. 3 years old can't drink champagne.
ahh wells.
-Cause Every Second counts-
Thursday, March 20, 2008
The Love Paranoia
-Why does she play with me-
Just played renegade for like.. super super long? ><
feeling guilty now. should have studied. ahh wells.
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The Love Paranoia
By: Yeo WenBin
A shape.
A hope.
Made out of the finest material,
The one Cupid uses for his arrows.
Made out of the most inner-deep desires,
The one no one can ever find out.
And this shape and hope combines.
The shape, so hopeful.
Who knows.
No one.
It was too good to be true.
It was.
No one expected it to fail the test of time.
Neither did time itself.
And down went the shape.
Into the deadly pit.
Filled brim-full to the most hideous chemicals.
Emptied completely off it's positive essences.
With a green monster living deep in it.
The monster with bright green eyes.
It was riddled with the worst feeling.
The chemical was paranoia.
And so it went down.
As everyone looked.
It sank.
So did the hope.
Slowly, it rose back up.
Up came a dagger.
And it shot towards me.
And it shot.
It hit.
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Tired.
sometimes, it just sucks to be sensitive.
Ahh wells. guess it's probably my paranoia again.
Tired. sickening. bored. tired. and feeling like an ass.
I smell the imminent air of pessimism.
gah. I hate the world.
-She's killin' me-
"The world revolves,
while I dissolve."
-Yeo WenBin
Just played renegade for like.. super super long? ><
feeling guilty now. should have studied. ahh wells.
===================================================================
The Love Paranoia
By: Yeo WenBin
A shape.
A hope.
Made out of the finest material,
The one Cupid uses for his arrows.
Made out of the most inner-deep desires,
The one no one can ever find out.
And this shape and hope combines.
The shape, so hopeful.
Who knows.
No one.
It was too good to be true.
It was.
No one expected it to fail the test of time.
Neither did time itself.
And down went the shape.
Into the deadly pit.
Filled brim-full to the most hideous chemicals.
Emptied completely off it's positive essences.
With a green monster living deep in it.
The monster with bright green eyes.
It was riddled with the worst feeling.
The chemical was paranoia.
And so it went down.
As everyone looked.
It sank.
So did the hope.
Slowly, it rose back up.
Up came a dagger.
And it shot towards me.
And it shot.
It hit.
=====================================================================================
Tired.
sometimes, it just sucks to be sensitive.
Ahh wells. guess it's probably my paranoia again.
Tired. sickening. bored. tired. and feeling like an ass.
I smell the imminent air of pessimism.
gah. I hate the world.
-She's killin' me-
"The world revolves,
while I dissolve."
-Yeo WenBin
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Heartbreak of a thousand years
-When I'm With You-
Everything sinks.
and sinks.
and much as I try,
nothing's rising.
Guess that's how the world is,
rushing by past, the ups and downs.
and leaving you behind if you don't follow up.
I'm confused.
If sets A and B suddenly introduces a new set C,
all the variables will have to be re-arranged.
What if there was a new variable?
Where do I put it?
And I'm too confused to know where to put it in.
And every-time I try, my eyes will turn green.
bright green.
And then I feel so bad.
so bad.
And looking at other people's works ain't helping.
cause they already have years of lead time to arrange their variables.
and they already have their set C a long time ago.
I guess this is when the morals of right and wrong come in conflict.
against each other.
and it's up to me to re-arrange everything.
all up to me.
me alone.
Yeap. Life sucks.
ok, leaving behind that emo part.
Let's see, today was synapse's first meeting.
and there was only me and shaun as the J1s!
hahaha super funny.
Super lot of work.
No mood to do.
and the tempting books keeps beckoning me.
out of the corner of my eyes.
Lee Child's Tripwire.
ahhh.
Resist. Resist.
I'm going crazy.
And my heart's gonna hit rock-bottom and break into a million pieces soon.
-I'll make every second count cause I miss you-
"What use is a world of difference,
When the world is so small?"
-Yeo WenBin
Everything sinks.
and sinks.
and much as I try,
nothing's rising.
Guess that's how the world is,
rushing by past, the ups and downs.
and leaving you behind if you don't follow up.
I'm confused.
If sets A and B suddenly introduces a new set C,
all the variables will have to be re-arranged.
What if there was a new variable?
Where do I put it?
And I'm too confused to know where to put it in.
And every-time I try, my eyes will turn green.
bright green.
And then I feel so bad.
so bad.
And looking at other people's works ain't helping.
cause they already have years of lead time to arrange their variables.
and they already have their set C a long time ago.
I guess this is when the morals of right and wrong come in conflict.
against each other.
and it's up to me to re-arrange everything.
all up to me.
me alone.
Yeap. Life sucks.
ok, leaving behind that emo part.
Let's see, today was synapse's first meeting.
and there was only me and shaun as the J1s!
hahaha super funny.
Super lot of work.
No mood to do.
and the tempting books keeps beckoning me.
out of the corner of my eyes.
Lee Child's Tripwire.
ahhh.
Resist. Resist.
I'm going crazy.
And my heart's gonna hit rock-bottom and break into a million pieces soon.
-I'll make every second count cause I miss you-
"What use is a world of difference,
When the world is so small?"
-Yeo WenBin
Monday, March 17, 2008
Your world, My paradise.
-A 24 story love affair-
ahhhhhhhh. stress, stress, stress. I'm in a world of pain now. and depression. and whatever stuff that makes your head pain.
Including maths.
And Literature.
And the impending Chinese compo.
Today was kinda the first taste of having lessons till 6 plus. NOT FUN.
like after that got absolutely no time to study at all la.
then the stupid literature homework so tedious some-more.
and the maths is like so super confusing!
gah.
When can it all come a halt?
ahh wells. guess it's just gonna get worse.
and i seriously cannot mug at home!
the com, the tv, my brother chatting to his friends. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
it's just breaking my nerves la.
can't even freaking concentrate.
And in the morning and afternoon it's my mom's customers.
know what? this sucks.
Looks like it's more library visits.
And not forgetting how there's totally NO SPACE to even put down my pencil case, let alone my homework.
Cause it's like this small room.
then inside got me and my bro's bunk bed.
a super big cupboard storing our clothes.
a clothes rack.
my storage desk for files and whats not.
table for tablet, wires, phone, stuff.
TISSUE PAPER. it's like a freaking tissue paper factory in here la!
I have 10 rows just ON MY DESK already. (1 row has 10 packets of tissue paper in it.)
then my bro's storage desk.
another clothes rack.
another clothes drawer.
know what's the worst!
MY MUM'S BEAUTICIAN RECLINING CHAIR THINGY!
COMPLETE WITH HER BEAUTICIAN MACHINERY!
it's like so super big!
then block up a quarter of the freaking room la!
so. When i do work i have to like take out a foldable table.
and there's just not enough space to let alone MOVE.
ahhh. this sucks.
Library heaven.
Hmmm. guess the world just ain't fair.
Well, what is?
ahhh, i'll just show you for myself.
Note: Behind me is already the door. Proves how freaking small the room is.
Note: I'll be going in the clockwise order.
Starting from here, you see the the view after you look right immediately after entering the stupid door.Yeap, that's my 'study area'. How the hell am i supppose to study when you can't put anything on it!
Then, we turn right, this is the main part of the room. Do you like see a place to freaking move? The one at the corner is my bro's study table. Now i know why the hell he's scoring so low for his exams. At the bottom right, you see the stupid beautician reclining chair thingy i put my aj pe shirt on?
Now, let's turn more right.yeap, close up on the stupid thing blocking up the whole room.
Then you turn right, and you'll find yourself back outside my room!
How nice right.
Irritating room.
I want my own.
hmph.
-With me up here and you up there-
"The stars are up in the heavens tonight,
right up there with the moon beside that kite."
-Yeo WenBin
ahhhhhhhh. stress, stress, stress. I'm in a world of pain now. and depression. and whatever stuff that makes your head pain.
Including maths.
And Literature.
And the impending Chinese compo.
Today was kinda the first taste of having lessons till 6 plus. NOT FUN.
like after that got absolutely no time to study at all la.
then the stupid literature homework so tedious some-more.
and the maths is like so super confusing!
gah.
When can it all come a halt?
ahh wells. guess it's just gonna get worse.
and i seriously cannot mug at home!
the com, the tv, my brother chatting to his friends. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
it's just breaking my nerves la.
can't even freaking concentrate.
And in the morning and afternoon it's my mom's customers.
know what? this sucks.
Looks like it's more library visits.
And not forgetting how there's totally NO SPACE to even put down my pencil case, let alone my homework.
Cause it's like this small room.
then inside got me and my bro's bunk bed.
a super big cupboard storing our clothes.
a clothes rack.
my storage desk for files and whats not.
table for tablet, wires, phone, stuff.
TISSUE PAPER. it's like a freaking tissue paper factory in here la!
I have 10 rows just ON MY DESK already. (1 row has 10 packets of tissue paper in it.)
then my bro's storage desk.
another clothes rack.
another clothes drawer.
know what's the worst!
MY MUM'S BEAUTICIAN RECLINING CHAIR THINGY!
COMPLETE WITH HER BEAUTICIAN MACHINERY!
it's like so super big!
then block up a quarter of the freaking room la!
so. When i do work i have to like take out a foldable table.
and there's just not enough space to let alone MOVE.
ahhh. this sucks.
Library heaven.
Hmmm. guess the world just ain't fair.
Well, what is?
ahhh, i'll just show you for myself.
Note: Behind me is already the door. Proves how freaking small the room is.
Note: I'll be going in the clockwise order.
Starting from here, you see the the view after you look right immediately after entering the stupid door.Yeap, that's my 'study area'. How the hell am i supppose to study when you can't put anything on it!
Then, we turn right, this is the main part of the room. Do you like see a place to freaking move? The one at the corner is my bro's study table. Now i know why the hell he's scoring so low for his exams. At the bottom right, you see the stupid beautician reclining chair thingy i put my aj pe shirt on?
Now, let's turn more right.yeap, close up on the stupid thing blocking up the whole room.
Then you turn right, and you'll find yourself back outside my room!
How nice right.
Irritating room.
I want my own.
hmph.
-With me up here and you up there-
"The stars are up in the heavens tonight,
right up there with the moon beside that kite."
-Yeo WenBin
Sunday, March 16, 2008
That boy at the corner
-I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did-
ahhh. wanted to go library at 10, but dilly-dally here and there by the time i reached there it was already 10.30am. and guess what! all the good seats are already taken! ahhhhh. so i kinda took one not-so-good one and sat down. took out my geog, worked on it, got bored halfway and tried maths' ap/gp.
ass la! the ap/gp so arghhhhh. sickening! Do until my head pain. then i went downstairs to pick up one of stephen king's horror novels and i decided to try Lee Child's tripwire.haha stephen's dreamcatcher is really not too bad. not as good as the others he wrote though.
Then i finished up the tedious geog worksheet. read a little bit, tried maths till head pain again, then read book again. like that until 4 plus, then headed on home. Went to pick up my printer's ink on the way home.Then go popular and bought correction tape. THEN I FORGOT TO BUY THE A4 SIZE BOOK! so super sickening cans!
anywayy, came home, showered, picked up a can of coke, and here I am.
oh ya! i didn't eat anything yet. not even in the morning! so zai right!
haha my guilt brought me so far.
cause yesterday i went to share carl's Jr.
CARL's JR. it's like the stupid burger is so freaking big!
then i spilt half half is still so big!
then all the cheese was like leaking out la!
omg. omg. omg. I feel so fat.
ahhhhhhhh.i'm so not gonna eat tomorrow still. too bad.
-And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did-
"Does absence makes the heart grow fonder,
Or is it out of sight, out of mind?"
-Yeo WenBin
ahhh. wanted to go library at 10, but dilly-dally here and there by the time i reached there it was already 10.30am. and guess what! all the good seats are already taken! ahhhhh. so i kinda took one not-so-good one and sat down. took out my geog, worked on it, got bored halfway and tried maths' ap/gp.
ass la! the ap/gp so arghhhhh. sickening! Do until my head pain. then i went downstairs to pick up one of stephen king's horror novels and i decided to try Lee Child's tripwire.haha stephen's dreamcatcher is really not too bad. not as good as the others he wrote though.
Then i finished up the tedious geog worksheet. read a little bit, tried maths till head pain again, then read book again. like that until 4 plus, then headed on home. Went to pick up my printer's ink on the way home.Then go popular and bought correction tape. THEN I FORGOT TO BUY THE A4 SIZE BOOK! so super sickening cans!
anywayy, came home, showered, picked up a can of coke, and here I am.
oh ya! i didn't eat anything yet. not even in the morning! so zai right!
haha my guilt brought me so far.
cause yesterday i went to share carl's Jr.
CARL's JR. it's like the stupid burger is so freaking big!
then i spilt half half is still so big!
then all the cheese was like leaking out la!
omg. omg. omg. I feel so fat.
ahhhhhhhh.i'm so not gonna eat tomorrow still. too bad.
-And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did-
"Does absence makes the heart grow fonder,
Or is it out of sight, out of mind?"
-Yeo WenBin
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