The Ignorance Of Knowledge

-If I had eyes at the back of my head-

gahhhhhhhh.
went library to study in the morning.
woke up at 9am, then decided to sleep some more.
by the time i opened my eyes next, it was already 11!

then rushed to prepare everything and left at house at 11.10,
reached there at 11.20 and almost all the seats are like snapped up already!
Had to settle for an open seat.
which is like the worst seat of all of library.
besides the floor.

studied till early afternoon, then maddy came.
went to have lunch, and went back.
mug mug mug.
until 5 plus, then dad called.
went to meet him and my family at the hawker centre.

Ate. gah. I ATE LUNCH AND DINNER. arghh.
Anyway, after that my bro had to buy school shoes, so we wanted to go sports link.
then on the way we stopped at this fashion cause i was whining to my mom that i don't have enough clothes.

haha i chose two super-nice shirts. but they only allowed me to buy one.
ahhhhhhhh.
Then went to sports link. I was like looking through all the branded stuff. haha.
then while my bro was choosing his shoes, I brought my mum to look at a jacket.
Then she said she wanted to buy a jacket for me cause I always have running nose and was depleting her factory of tissue paper.
haha then i picked two again!
had a hard time choosing between the grey one or the white one.
But at last decided to get the white one.
cause it makes me look super-duper professional.
like a lab scientist.
hmm.. actually more like some sports coach.
which is like super cool!

Anyway i wanted to get new shoes too. but all too expensive.
ahh wells.
haha so i managed to get a new shirt and a new jacket!






nice rights.
I don't care. it's nice.

and my mum keeps complaining I have too many black shirts.
gah. BLACK IS THE NEW WHITE.
which makes it super cool.

Ahh wells. tired again. gonna surf around a bit more.
then maybe will surf around another bit more
and another bit more...

-I would have told you that you looked good as I walked away-

"What's the use of studying,
When you're gonna die earlier
Then those who doesn't?"
-Yeo WenBin

The Expected Confession

I feel... weird.
Like sian, but brought on to the next level.
So it's like.. super-duper sian?

dunno la! like got no mood to do anything, no mood to do work, and tomorrow no mood go library, no mood to even walk to bed and sleep. gah.

Then i think i'm suffering from stm. cause i seriously cannot remember anything that happened from this morning. as in really cannot remember ANYTHING.I've been trying for the past 4 hours, but all that comes are is like... a blank. arghhh.

Sickening.

The monster from the big black bag

-In darkness, she is all I need-

ah. still tired.
and i don't dare to open my school bag.
cause got homework!
ahhhhh.

and i'm stuck.
to go ac or to go library and mug.
ahh wells. see how first.
If the peer pressure's great enough then i'll go.
if not it'll be library for me.

And it's raining outside.
Perfect weather to sleep.
so.. so.. tired.

-Driving slow on sunday morning-

"People once said that the world had an edge,
And know what? they're right."
-Yeo WenBin

The Private Publicity

-I wanna see you out that door-

Tired. Bored.
and there's no homework due tomorrow!
woots!

bleh.
I'm gonna finish up ALL my loose ends this weekend.
At the library.
hah.
and nothing's gonna stop me.

And i really really really want the Plain White Tee's or the Faber Drive album!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

hah. maybe i'll post later or something.


edit: hah. back. bored still. gonna surf around. and be bored.
bored, tired, sians.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
[In my own fantasy of music and fame]

-Ain't no night, baby bye bye bye-

"There can never be paper without trees,
Nor results without hard work."
-Yeo WenBin

The Sophiscated Simplicity

-You should know better you never listen to what I said-

gah. bah. argh. sucks.
tired. bored and sians!

and still got the whole big pile of workload to do.
guess i really need to pop off to the library to do some work after-all.

hah. most likely going on saturday.
who wanna come along.
I have the irritating heats though, so we'll just have to see how.

TIRED.bleh.
I think I'm addicted to online activities again.
ahhhhhhh! just when i thought i've successfully broken the addiction in sec 4.

anyway, i'm just gonna pack up my file and start filing up all my stuff.
haha maybe i'll just post again later or something.

-Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe-

"The whole thing about achieving success,
Is that no one trying it will ever succeed."
-Yeo WenBin

The Transition In The Present

ahhh. after a few rock music punk hate the world stuff thingy, guess i'm feeling much better.

thanks for all the concerns though.

gonna break my coffee curfew tomorrow.

i'll need to boost to stablise myself tmr.

ahhh wells.

we'll just have to see how to all goes.

nights!

The chaos from the past

-Know, what you need to know-

Hiding in the over-crowded room.
Trying to escape into the virtual world.

i can't believe it.
All that nonsense was have supposed to have stopped a few weeks ago.

IT SHOULD.
and now, my freaking parents are fighting again.
AND THEY FREAKING PROMISED ME THEY WEREN'T GONNA DO IT AGAIN.

And i wake up just to hear them screaming at each other.
Like the drama they created a few months ago that attracted the police and the ambulance weren't great enough.
MY MOM WAS TRYING TO KILL HERSELF LA.
Luckily her friend called the police.
Then when the police broke down the room,
the walls were splattered with her blood.
LIKE THAT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO BE TRAUMATIC ENOUGH FOR ME.

I want to cry.
I freaking want to punch their faces out.
Can't they just divorce.
Just freaking divorce.
and end it all.
please.


-Go, where you wanna go-

What's left and what's not

-Hate is a strong word-

it might be a giant step, but i think i've finally gotten over it.
heh. not that it's still gonna be easy, but still, life's gonna be much easier.

tired, bored and still in no mood to do homework.
at this rate, i'm heading straight for retention.
First things first, I NEED TO CATCH UP ON MATHS.
then, finish up my econs notes!
then i'm pretty much settled academic wise so far.

And i'm still craving for a miracle.
some sort of miracle.
something... material.
maybe a psp?
hah. a nice little laptop won't hurt either.

But wenbin don't think he's gonna get it soon.
A miracle.

yea... a miracle's what he needs right now.
But who's gonna send it to him?

-But i really really really don't like you-

"The little thing about crushes,
is that you always get crushed in the end."
-Yeo WenBin (Abridged from anonymous)

System Restore (Human Edition)

-Gonna get away, she just can't take it-

ahhhhhhhhh.
screwed it up. again.

life's getting all bleak again.
must be the stress.
and the homework.
and social life.
and stuff.

Looking back, I think i changed.
I miss my low-profile self.
I rreally do.

It's not like this one is too bad.
But still.

Ahh wells, by any case, there's no reverting back now.
I just gotta move on.

move on.If it can just be that easy.

-Time Bomb, tick, tick-

If only you knew

tiired. 2am now. no one's talking to me. sickening. bored. shall go and sleep.

tomorrow got super-duper uber lots of stuff to complete. print geog stuff, finish up rest of the work(which is like super super lots.) and to rest my tired body for monday.

guess that's all. morpheous is waiting for me. time to go to dreamland! =D

When it really ain't that easy after-all

Ouch.

pain.

crack.

break.

hurts.

not easy.

picture.

sink.

down.

logic.

break-down.

heart.

breaks.

million.

pieces.

again.

ouch.