Running away in a circle

-Running away you can't pretend-

damn it man.

Anywayy, had fun yesterday with 33/08. the pool, the bbq, even the ride home. hahaha.
Andd. i took my second try at alochol. haha seemed to be holding it alot better than I thought.
ahhh wells.

AND MY STUPID BROTHER IS GETTING A FREAKING NEW COM TODAY. WHAT.THE.HELL.
and we all know he's just going to use it to play games. You know how freaking jealous I
am? wahh laooo la!

And he's going to be in my face every day that he's com is better than mine. omgggg.
and my stupid this com is like falling apart, and if it did i can't get a new one anymore
cause we'll have to share. gah. life really sucks.

and then there's him. I'm confused. I reallly am. Is this whole thing really as childish as
maddy
said? I don't know. I really don't. I only know that whatever he says
is as hurtful as a knife through the heart, and he doesn't know it.

Damn man. I'm going crazy. and I need someone to come and pull me up.
someone to rescue me from all this mess.
someone to run away with me.
to run away from it all.
run away.


-Running away you drive me wild-

That eroded sandcastle

ABCDE camp.

A joy, a burden.
A fun, a sadness.
A lie, a truth.

How can such contradicting feelings coincide?
How can such horrible things happen?
How can I feel this way?

People once said that the most kind, caring and patient person is one that can 'turn the other cheek' under any situation.

And I have tried. really really tried. But yet. As things progressed on. Maybe I'm not so patient after-all. Maybe there is a limit to turning the other cheek. Maybe it's time i started doing the hitting.

ABCDE camp was fun yet tiring. I stayed up after the trek to watch sunrise just to fall asleep admiring the night scenery.
I guess.. that's how life is.
Sometimes you work so hard just to reach that goal, and yet, just when you're about to reach that goal, in a moment of negligence, you overshoot and miss it.

yet. sometimes things aren't that easy.
I guess fate planned this whole thing,
this whole grouping. this whole. thing.

You know. I think this is what people would call 'blessing in disguise'.
I see it now. only through this camp, i forsaw the problem. I saw the root.

My reflections throughout the camp

Day 1: For fear of jealousy leads to hate
Day 2: When hate powers up the truth
Day 3: The different sources of truth
Day 4: The crazy ups & downs of hate
Day 5: The last straw to the point of no return
Day 6: The scenerial determination

yea. guess that's it.
you know. sometimes when things just don't go right.
maybe. we should just take the left lane.
maybe.