The mental virus

ok... darn it.

This is seriously getting out of control.

Just 2 months ago, i was a nice fat normal boy. Eating perhaps too much every day.
Feeling happy, anti-social, and NOT high.

During the holidays, i started to game.
and because of that, slept at 5am and woke up only at 5pm.
So i only ate dinner every day.

I lost around 8 kg. and thought by the time JC started and as soon as i started getting a normal sleep-time; my appetite would come back.

I didn't expect this.

I didn't expect to feel like vomitting every time i saw food.
I didn't expect to eat so little.
I didn't expect to feel so...gah.

at first, i thought it was because of the vigorous activities during orientation.
then, i realised something was really wrong when i felt like vomitting when the pizza came last night.
Pizza. One of my last time favorite food.
and i felt like vomitting.
and i only had one slice when i could easily finish up half a pizza last time.

gah gah.
It's not just food-wise.

Today, I've been feeling really restless and sian.
when just a few weeks ago, i could have been happily gaming.
It was like gaming is boring.
imagine. gaming is boring!?!?
and there's this sickening stomach that keeps threatening to throw up.

ok, there's something really screwed up with me.
I suspect it's got something to do with talking to girls after 5 years not talking to any.
ahh...wells.
One thing's for sure. It's not a physical illness.

It's mental.

"Look Death in the eye.
And demand back your life."
-Yeo WenBin's 3th quote of confidence.

Hmmm. Someone got it.

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hmm; ahh -wells. Last day of orientation. Really crazy. High mans!
Monday back to studying.
And my whole OG all science i think only me and another person arts sia.
means all the lectures i can sit at corner and emo ><

at least we still get to be together for maths and gp.

oh wells;

OG21 rawkz! =D
lol, we are like the most hyped up group around. =x
all the boys were screaming and shouting and getting high for 2 days, then the girls on the last day. =x

anywayyy, we went to pizza hut for dinner after the campfire.
talked and chatted and stuff.
hmm, only ate one slice.
wasn't hungry, even though i gave my lunch away. =x

hmmmm, i dun wanna studyyyyyy.
though i think it might be prettty fun also.
since so long neva touch books le.

hmmm, let's get away from books for a while.
these 3 days were kinda nervous for meee.
hmm. cause it's like first time talking to a girl after like.. 5 years?
yea. serious.

so was pretty nervous.
in fact. damn nervous.

like totally different from talking to boys sia.
so....i think i did pretty well. hmm. hopefully.

So this is pretty much the first step for me now.

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so i'm singing crazily to myself to 987fm, lol. still feeling high from the orientation. must be. ><

ok, so i guess that's all.
see-ya till the next post!

"The first step to success,
Might just be the last step to failure."
-Yeo WenBin's 8th quote of success

When you get high.

hmm.... so....I'm gonna sleep soon.

Today's orientation was pretty ok. All damn hiong. ><
Play with them until very tired, leg want to break le sia

When real classes start, i gonna go into "anti-social" mode le. =x
so, to all who really bothered to google alliance and clan name and found my blog.
hiya all Calidore s! =D

ok tmr gonna have campfire then go out eat with clan and ogl people.
woots; sounds fun.

I don't sound enthu about it, do i?

I'm starting to become random.

ok, this is getting lame, I really should go and pack clothes and stuff and go sleep le.

If not tmr no more energy to play liao.

see-ya!

The Start Of Something New

lol.. dumb topic.. used so many times before le.=x

So, I'm in Paladin; Calidore.in ajc. three keywords to google. =D
you guys probably dun get wad i'm saying.. ah well.

So.. orientation was pretty ok... Heard and kinda confirmed a scary rumor that tmr's gonna be couple dance. Which is damn stupid. I'm just gonna hide in the toilet and cry or something.(woots emo!)

Al cracked me up at the foyer in the morning. lol, people in aj go look at the chess set displayed outside GO. ><

ok, that's all. Made friends with all the guys in my OG21. but dunno how long my girl phobia is going to prevent me from taking one step further. ><

We'll just have to see as the time goes.

"When a phobia stands in your way,
Will you fight; or run away."
-Yeo WenBin's 4th quote of inspiration

The old fades; the new glorifies

So it's 1st of January. My creativity must be really sucky; since i can't even think of a decent title to put up for this post.

anyway, the end of secondary school; the start of Jc1s.

My new year resolution would be for this year to go on as smoothly as possible for me.

Not very difficult issit? ><

anyway, I'm kinda tired; having just returend from daryl's bday party and all.

So this post shall not be long.

But I'm bored.
;]
So I'm gonna go off.

"-The New glorifies The Old;
-The Old glorifies the New."

-Yeo WenBin's 10th law of philosophy-

The post that came from deep within the night

uh-huh. So it's 3.41 now; gonna sleep soon.

hmm... tmr's the last day of the year.
I miss cat high. Probably the saddest stuff this year.
Though the happiest has got to be the fun times we had in 4-5/3-5.

Some fun moments:

Victor accidentally making a racist comment in front of Mr Krishnan.

The Victor/Gabriel word war

The 3 musketeers adding action to the class

hmm.. a lot more; but it's getting late.

So I shall talk about JC.

Scared of the next year.
Blardy phobia thingy.

It was damn difficult trying to last through the conversation when the aj girl called me cans.

ahhh...enough about that.

Yea, after a tip-off from tze heng, kinda realized my phobia isn't really parthenophobia. Though they did seem related.

Had been going out almost everyday these past few days.

Went to minghan's bday party stay-over.
Had fun there.Dota was really fun.

Then steven's BBQ tonight.
not bad either, talked and laughed a lot.haha.

tmr got daryl's bday party.
Wonder how it's gonna be like.

hmm, Tried out Jeffery archer's book(The Fourth Estate); not too bad. THough it is very businessy and political.
Still can't find the god-damn Geroge Orwell's 1984. damn sickening.
Wants to try The hunt for red october and some nice books by that author but can't find them in amk library. gahs.

Looks like I'm gonna be going there a lot more when school re-opens.

Listening to relient K's Must have done something right now. Nice song.

I'm starting to get random.

ok, that's all.

-One Year Has Passed. Are you regretting this year; or looking forward to the next?-
-Yeo WenBin's 7th Law of Optimism-