ALOCHOLL.

HELLO.

ok went out with 32/09 for full-day outing today!

study in the morning

birthday surprise in the afternoon! at kovan hostel for jennifer!

then ended up playing cards there.

then ran through the rain to kovan mrt.

then went to PS to eat!

bought food and sat outside the mrt station to eat.

then hoyee and yin min were suppose to buy newspaper from 7-11

then came out without the newspapers but 3 bottles of alochol instead.

then end up pass around pass around.

arghh. ok la i'm sober.

like ya. sober. my face wasn't red.

means sober. 

don't care.

means i can take alcohol! HAHAHAHA.

i was like sipping the alochol drinks as they were passing it around ok!

so my alochol tolerance has gone up since like... last year!

which is like.. a good thing.

ok ya. going off.

sleep.

or maybenot.

dunno la. depends.

argh.

Horoscope Revenge

I didn't follow the advice of the horoscope today.
and I kinda got my revenge.
boo.

Short one.

hmmmm. back for a short update.
feeling better today.
which means yesterday was just a mood swing.
>_<

Hmmm. went over to my neighbour's to help repair for their com.
end up staring at the diagnostic screen for like an hour plus.
lol. then just stone there.

and end up it worked after the diagnostic test!
didn't know how that happened. but it's good news just the same.
which proves I've got the magic touch! MUAHAHA.

okok I have stuff to do like:

Lit test
Inequalities Tutorial
Econs Tutorial.
Booo.

I like the company tonight though =)
Radio, friends just checking in.
And my brother's not home.

it's almost perfect.

Something About You

- I don't know how to begin, I don't know how to get out there... to see you-

I'm feeling... melancholic.
You know, I've never known the meaning of this word.
But yet, I just feel like that tonight.
cause melancholic gives me a very peaceful feel.
so yea.

ok I think i'm reverting back to my 'emo' era soon.
May be mood swing. May be feeling paranoid again. May just be sad.
Let's hope it's the third one.

But... i dunno.
It's one thing to say, " Yea I'll retain. I should be able to fit in"
and actually doing it.
Ok this may just be my 'post-high emo' state talking, but sighh.
Just feel sad today.
Not like crying sad.
just sad sad.
Like you sit here, thinking to yourself,'I'm sad.'
and over the most silly of reasons and signs.

It's like the same old fears playing over and over again.
the insecurity. the stuff people say.
and for goodness sake wenbin, just because someone never do something, say something not intended for you, doesn't mean it's ABOUT you.
but i just can't seem to understand and internalize that point.
see? insecurity. hell lot of insecurity. this sucks.

ok sorry I'm like sad.
I shall go and talk to people to make myself feel better.

-It's been too long and I'm in time, yea I'm in time, yea yea...-

Meal. Hungrayyee!

HAHAHA.

had my first proper meal in two days.
ytd had pringles plus a few sushi plus da bao and a bread for the whole day. didn't eat anything for today. so hungry!

and my dad brought back the 1.50 chicken rice. ya there's this chicken rice stall in AMK central that's selling chicken rice for $1.50.
the rice portion and chicken portion is of course quite little.
but then after eating i was like super full even though i didn't eat for two days.
must be aneroxia still acting up.
can't believe it still hasn't worn off.
booo.

ok luhh it's good and bad.
I gained weight! OMG.
like omgomgomg.
or my mom's weighting machine is spoilt.
haha it must have been spoilt.
i didn't gain wweight! don't careeee.
anyway it's not like alot. only 1 kg? so yea.
compared to the 20 plus kg lost over the past 2 years.
still quite an achievement.

okkkk. guess that's all.
Study Hard! and Play Hard!
=D

sucks.

ok so i have like. lessons straight. on tomorrow.
the stress is starting to get to me. so soon too.

and it's not just the studies.
Cause i may wanna talk to Mr Ng to ask whether I can still sign up for the ABCDE camp.
since I got my position after the application period was over.
But i not sure whether I really wanna go for that.
So i'm like... stuck in-between! rawrr. this sucks.
cause i want the 20km walk and the sandcastle. hahaha.
those are like super fun.

but then i'm lazy too.
not saying that I need to redesign the noticeboard BY tomorrow.
and i don't have any common slots.

and that have got a 4.5hour lesson straight with only a 0.5 hour in between.
don't like! booooooooooooooo.

stress is getting to my head.
and it's not just the stuff.

Got this stupid gc worksheet.
that i didn't do.
cause it's self-practice.

and i'm sure I got more than enough practice using the thing for a year.
so i didn't do.
and now they sa need to do by tmr.

and i'm really really tired.
I need to finish up everything by tmr.
and there's PE tmr. don't remind me. argh.

ok im just ranting. I just need to get everything in order.

Night-time.

hellllooo! back.

ok. school tomorrow.
Need to lock up this computer soon.
Cannot get addicted. cannot get addicted.

Hmmmm.
Feel like taking out one of my old poems for wednesday creative-writing.
cause i really can't think of anything at the moment.

Wanted to say something, but forgot.
my short-term memory is really getting worse. boo.

hmmmm. what else.
ok my mind is a utter blank now.

Time to reply tag posts!

yinmin: yea we must really train to _________ further next time. hahahaha.
hoyee: haha really shall not mention here. just in case my blog appears on the ICT screen next year.
xin: hahaha.
nigel: hello! heard you're joining us for bowling outing on thursday! =D
sy: thankss! my voice is gone already. hahaha. and that girl really looks like you lorhh!