The Anti-Climatic Conclusion

-And wouldn't it be nice to live together-

Feeling loads better.
hmm. scared of coffee now. esp macdonald's one.

Went over to shaun's with clinton to study.
finished my maths worksheet! hahahaha.

tomorrow gonna go my lit ones.

tired, tired and not really tired.
who knows?

Bleh. and whether i'm in love,
i'm not saying. nil, zilch, milch.
blah.

And as they opened the big book,
the dust slide down the cover.
Covering the floor with a layer of dust,
that would remain for ever.
The pages flithered with life,
as the words rose from the death.
And as the boy and the girl read in wonder,
their hands moved across the pages.
ending up at last,
in where they should have.
together.

Mood: Energetically tired
Weather: Drizzling Night
Song:12 days of christmas- Relient K


-And maybe if we think and wish and hope it might come true-

"And true friends mean sitting beside each other in silence,
later leaving and feeling as though it was the best conversation you ever had."
-Anonymous

And Nothing Changes As He Crumbles

I feel worse than ever.

I thought a nice sleep would solve the problem,
but it just worsened it.

I thought doing homework might take my mind off things,
but now i feel like tearing up the worksheet.

I thought surfing the net might let me forget,
but it just craved in new scars.

My heart feels heavier than before,
and I don't know what's happening.

Save me from this turmoil,
For you're the only one that can pick me up.

But I fear you don't even know.
That you're the one.

The one that broke my heart,
and mend it back,
just to break it again.

and as the little boy crumbled, the world around him just rushed past

That Destructed Boy

-I knew it all along, you're so predictable-

today sucked. big time.
It must have been the coffee.
Maybe macdonald put some depressent drug in it.
I swore i was feeling fine till I had that coffee.
I've not felt so horrible ever since that time.

And now I feel utterly lousy.
and the worst thing is I don't even know why.
It might be the fact that everything bad just tore through my illusion.
And displayed itself to me, in full scale.
Even though i've been trying to block it out.

Or that I've been suspecting something like this might happen.
Even though I've tried my best not to let it.
It happened once, and now it's happened again.
It's just gonna deteriorate, the thing is just gonna get worse.
Just like how it did on the first one.
I left it, and committed myself to the second.
But yet it's happening all over again.

If life's trying to teach me anything out of this,
It better, and fast.
Or else I'm running away from it.

I want to cry.
But no tears come.
My heart feels like it's been torn into a million pieces.
But no blood leaks.

And I'm seriously in need of a hug of reassurance now.
To tell me everything's alright
If everything can really be alright.

Mood: Horrible-Lousy
Weather: Hot-Dejected Afternoon
Music: Predictable-Good Charlotte

-I knew something would go wrong, so you don't have to call, or say anything at all-

and none of the songs could cheer up that destructed boy

When everything's just gonna be the same

-I've been locked inside the house, and all the while you hold the key-

EDIT: and my mom was questioning me about my 'girlfriend' all the time through dinnner la.

What cannot have girlfriend, whether i have, why cannot have, blah blah blah, class full of girls, sure will get girlfriend, must concentrate on studies, she sucks la.



Bah. Tired. as usual. gonna be bored. msn. homework. newspaper.
can't anything change around here?

I wanna quit school now.
just take time off.
and travel backpack around the world,
with the one meant for me.
Down the historical niles of Egypt,
Off the romantic banks of Paris,
Up the Majestic Taj Mahal,
On the Statue of Liberty.
sigh. dreams, fantasies, illusions.
who can ever tell them apart?

Homework. sucks. gonna start on them soon.
gah.

I've been needing reassurance ever since this morning.
I've been craving for a hug since I woke up.
My mom fell sick so I can't hug her.
And I miss Andrew cause I know he's the only one I can hug without giving the wrong idea.
gah. I wanna go back to cat high times!

Down with the past, off with the present, let's look at the future.

Tomorrow is TGIF!
But the weekend is gonna be boring.
New song gonna be uploaded. HAH.

Mood: Peaceful-Lack of security
Weather: Clear Evening

-And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape-

The Darkness Deeps

-I don't want another pretty face, i don't want just anyone to hold-

BORING. at this rate i'm going crazy. I need a change!
I need something. something to put a little icing on my life.
gah. sucks.

at least publications was interesting.
hah.

then came home, slept, and just woke up.
gonna do my maths later.
dunno la. see how first, no mood to do maths also.

tomorrow is gonna be equally boring.
BORING.gah.

Anyway, gonna pass on a little something that i thought up myself.
felt it was pretty cool, see whether it works for you all.

Lock yourself in an empty room.
No music, no sound, no nothing.
close your eyes.
imagine you are in your brain.
now think of nothing but nothingness.
everything around you is black.
black all the way to the horizon.
Now dive deep down.
go all the way down down down.
down the black and nothing-ness.
until you see an object.
it might have stains on it.
but that object's colour and shape is what represents you.
your true inner self, the one you're born with.
the stains are the colours you have acquired as you grew and
learnt from experience.


Mine's a swirling sky blue slight ellipse,
with stains of green and black on it.

yea. guess that's all.



-I want you and your beautiful soul-

The Factual Narrative

-What's the problem I don't know well maybe I think I'm in love-

And. So. today was dumb. and boring. and dumb.
Well, on the bright side, at least there was no immediate homework that needs to be done.

Besides the Publications free writing about AJC that I have to hand in to the teacher tomorrow.
But seriously, I had hell lot of fun doing that writing.
Besides the fact that it has been a really long time since I wrote something.
And also the extent I over-rated AJC was also super amusing after I read it.
Just started on the story and when I'm finished with my intro, it was already 3 pages long. Gah. I want to write more!
Anyway if you all want to read can get from me. Cause it's like 3 pages long and more so it's kinda hard to put up here.

hmm. and i'm using the tenants' room now! hahaha. It's like super empty and bright and super shuang! been a long time since I have such a nice empty room to myself. Took me 5 minutes to set up my chargers and computers and here I am. hah, went to set up my stuff at the corner. and hide there, super comfortable. =D

And my mum's still looking for tenants. Suppose to have this china woman but i think she backed out. lucky. ><
Ahhhhh. please give me good tenants, please give me good tenants.

gah. guess that's all. maybe blog again later. haha. =D

Mood: Literacal- Excited
Weather: Hot- Late morning

-How much longer will it take to cure this-

That Questionable Fact

-Not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears-

And. today ended off sucky.
Lots of work at school.
Lots of work at home.
gah. I can't even believe to start ranting.
so i shan't.

ahhhh. and i can't completely rub away the drawings on my hand! ><
esp the one that vanessa drew. at least the sinli one she use washable markers.
so there's this faint markings of the flower still there. gah.

and guess what! the tenants just left!
hahahahaha.they just took all their stuff and left a few hours ago.
too bad my sickening mom still wants to rent it out.
if not i can have my own room. gah.

haha not that i mind if some super cute teenage girl takes up my mom's offer though.
you know, those super rich girls who li jia chu zhou kind.
ok. now this is just getting stupid. pretend you didn't see this paragraph.

anywayyy. i just finished lit. and it's just a page and a half long. can prepare to get scolding le. and i just purposely lost to my bro in scrabble so he can leave me alone.
and my dad expects me to wake up super early tomorrow to help him file his tax. gah.

and tomorrow still got pe first period. and super long day ahead. and what's not.
i don't want!hmph.

and ego yy wants me to say she rocks. haha yy rocks! =p

and as the blue sky darkens into lightening and thunder,
the crow flies in and caws out to the desolate land.
The land full of leaf-less trees and barren rocks,
the water full of murk and oil-spills.
And in the middle lies a core of sky blue,
a swirling ball of blue light, piercing everywhere.
Protecting itself against the darkness,
that tries to engulf it.
For it is the only thing remaining,
that can ever sustain,
the person outside.

Mood: Tired-Stressed
Weather: Dull Evening

Random View:
Cupid sucks. get the hell out.

-Everyone ask me, who the hell is she, that girl with 5 colours in her hair-

Feeling like a boy all over again

-No matter how we tossed the dice, it had to be-

And... today was pretty productive.
But still, not productive enough.
So, i'm left with the geog video.
which i'm totally not in the mood to do.
cause i can't load the damn video.

Simple plan <3!
Went tuh mug today with yy and maddy
then went to buy all the deco stuff for tmr.
tomorrow's going to be a busy day with bad mood lingering in the air.
ahh wells. we'll just have to see how.

And here's a congratulations tuh justin's new blog!
haha! linked him alrdy. go check it out =D

So.. tonight is... pretty quiet.
but yet.. somewhat noisy.
i guess the noise's just come from my heart.

and as the man walked with a briefcase in hand,
his bus coming late, but yet he's early.
he saw around him evidence of Cupid's arrival,
And as those teenage couples swirled around him.
he found himself,
feeling like a little boy,
all over again.

Mood: Messed up-Tired
Weather: Quiet-Noisy Night

Random View:
Nokia's better then samsung


-To think about the girl you love, and hold her tight-