this is the world, coming down on your head

i never thought i would wake up in bed,
watching the world coming down on my head

argh.
I'm so freaking.
argh. i don't even know what to say.
fuck.

It seriously sucks to wake up one day.
to find out all your illusions are false.
that NO ONE LIKES YOU.
AT ALL.

what they shared were just a fleeting memory,
a short moment of entertainment.

I meant nothing to them.
nothing at all.
I was just entertainment.
damn it.

And all the close friends are leaving one by one
just leave if you hate me so much, dammit
(or was I over-reacting)
just go, go and never come back
(this sucks, my mind hurts)
get out if I don't mean anything to you
(sucks)

Everyone hates me.
i can see it in their actions,
they move away from me
I hear it in their voice,
containing hints of spite and hate
I feel it in my heart,
EVERYONE HATES ME.

I guess that's the last of 'em.
I have no one left.
no, nothing, left.
(or was it a misunderstanding?)

how do I even think, when my mind tells me i'm a failure,
shows me the spite people have,
the hate people contain,
how everyone is sneering underneath.

save your voices,
i know what you mean.
save your actions,
i know what you mean to do.
and save your feelings,
i know all of you mean to say and do.

just all SAVE it alright.
(i really hope it's a misunderstanding.)
You know what,
I can survive on my own,
just leave me here.
and get lost.

Thanks for hurting me when I'm down.
thanks.

Fuck. Just let me cry dammit.I.can't.cry.