Wednesday, December 20, 2006

gah.gah. and gah.

So, it's 10.15pm and I'm alone in my room again, enjoying the cool air-com while doing some late-night mugging and some a-maths homework before the probational tests come on the 28th. I'm tired, bored and sian(though they actually mean the same thing) =X. My dad banned me from gaming, i don't have a handphone, I have piles of homework and mugging to do before the holidays are over, and the worst thing is , my holiday is gonna be over very soon. sigh. Too bad I don't have a time-machine.hmm. Anyway, hmm what did i want to say? I'm getting senile le, maybe because of the fact that my brain can't take the fact that I'm mugging during the holidays. ah well. Oh ya, I remembered. I just splurged 104 bucks on popular! hehe. had this govtment help poor people thingy and gave us 100 bucks vouchers. Went on a shopping spree and i managed to get a whole set of dan brown books, finished deception point today, must say it was worth buying, very nice book.=) bought my textbooks,bought pens, some a maths guide book and a few correction tapes. Good thing is, I still have 1 more of the 100 bucks vouchers! =p can go splurging again sometimes.=)
So I'm studying in my room, qianwen is daoing me (=.=), and I'm bored. oh and mel adopted me as her er zi during a msn chat yesterday. =.= having a erm virtual mum who is 1 year younger den u is not exactly hmm, i dunno. i didn't even realise what i was saying . ah well. I'm tired, and bored, and I'm MUGGING. sigh. Will someone come and save me out of this dull and dready life? =X


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Thursday, December 07, 2006

I'm back from the malacca trip!

lalala! just came back from the malacca jubliate 2 trip, alone in my room now, slacking and typing out this post. Summary of the trip is, I paid 289SGD to go to malacca to suffer, but i suffered happily so it was okay =p.
1st day: reached school at 7.00 plus carried my luggage to the music room, had a short breifing, de got up the bus, found out i lost my watch, ahh well.
bus went on to immigration, after having the procedures, countinued on its way, we stopped at yong peng,wanted to eat something there as they had excellent food, but could not, leong's order, so ate at jusco instead, five of us decided to eat claypot, including tzeheng, i felt it was nice, though tze heng didn't and decided to bluff cedric that it was, so left 2 claypot rice unfinished =X bought snakcs and continued on our way. reached there at around 2pm. went down took our keys and went to our apartment, my apartment mates were bryan, chester and celeb. slacked there and went downstairs for the start of our vigorous training, so it was training until 6 plus, then we had our dinner i sat beside andrew and got suanned badly (as usual) =.= until they gross me out so much i had no more appetite to eat and threw away the rest of my food, the food was so yucky anyway. went for the the first performance, did REALLY badly and got screwed and scolded later in one of the rooms, den went back to our own roomsi took out my amaths holiday assignment and TYS and wanted to study, with the tv on at espn. studied until 2 plus, and decided to sleep, managed to finish sets and functions =). fell asleep on the sofa, thus giving chester my KING-SIZED bed. I'm so nice =)
2nd day: woke up early to have breakfast den sang and praticsed on our own and sometimes with the clinicians until dinner-time, had dinner, sat near andrew and got suanned AGAIN =.= anyway we decided we had to buckle up for this performance if not we were going down, so we tried hard and leong said we improved though it was not the best, had the brain to buy cup noodles so i wouldn't have to starve . watched chelsea in action on espn and fell asleep on the sofa again. sigh.
3rd day: woke up , had breakfast, got suanned, and pratcised really hard as mr kwei was pretty pissed off as leong put it, 3 nuclear bombs have been dumped and 1 grenade thrown. we practised really hard and by dinner, we were all tired out. after dinner and being bullied by juniors(what else is new?) we sat down and they started the performance, when it was our turn, we knew it was do or die as kwei even stomped out on us earlier during the rehearsal, we gave it our best shot and it paid off as kwei sighed a breath of relief after the performance. =D had debreifing and it turned out 2 choir members lost their handphone and 1 lost the handphone battery, i wanted to tell leong that i lost my watch but decided not to. they checked every single room and after that we slacked and had a party watched a barcelona match and wanted to sleep on the bed that night as it was the last night but ended up falling asleep on the sofa. sigh.
4th day(last day) : woke up. breakfast. practise. got bullied. got suanned. went for shopping had 2 hours to shop. went to eat burger king and as i ordered my meal the counter girl said. I'm sorry, the machine spoilt, out of these 12 meals u can only pick 3. wth? as i took my chilli, lee yang decided to try to hit my hand and chilli sauce ended up spilt all over my hand. =.=. agter that went to play arcade, had 4 left over tokens which i did not use, wanted to buy a nice book and maybe a bag and a wallet, but ended up not having enough time and didn't buy anything. stilll regretting it now. sigh. went to the bus, played bridge and taiti and slacked away until the bus reached school at 7pm, said good byes, took bus home and here i am. alone in my room, and typing this post. overall it was pure suffering, try singing everyday from 6.45am to 12.30 pm everyday. but it was still worth it. sigh.
I didn't like choir at first but after this trip i have changed my mind. CHOIR IS FUN! =D


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Sunday, December 03, 2006

Last Post beofre I'm off to Malacca

alright.. this will be my last post before i go off for choir trip to malacca tomorrow.

The class chalet was really fun and fun. =X the first day was tiring and by the 2nd day it had turned into a full-fledged LAN party(like it always does), but it was still fun nonetheless, sigh, I'm tired, will post about the malacca trip after i come back on the 8th of dec. tatas!

Friday, November 24, 2006

So I'm in my room alone now...

I'm alone in my room now and it's half an hour to midnight. My mum and bro went to Penang early this morning and will be staying there for 3 days and my dad will be out working and will only be back home late at night. So I guess I'm gonna be Home Alone for these few days. it's good, in a sense, gives me time to calm down and think about recent happenings and the upcoming O levels next year. Sigh, I want to finish downloading my Need For Speed:Carbon in time for the Class Chalet on Monday but the only way i can do that is to leave my tablet on throughout the night, which i am forbidden to do.sigh. Feel like having a black screensaver and so that he does not notice and when the ask about me not offing the modem I'll just say I forgot. But I'm scared that my tablet will overheat, though it's gonna be in an air-conditioned room. Sigh. I dun noe what to do. I'm Bored, Sian, Confused,Tired and wanna EAT you up muhaha =p

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Saturday, November 18, 2006

Another Post. =X

haha. haven't been posting for quite a long while. promise to blog more often..haha =) anyway went to perform today, had to stand (actually sit) in the sun, 2 choir members even kenna heatstroke,haha. =X anyway, the performance was quite okay, and guangyang's choir was quite hmm, hilarious , anyway to put it in a better way, unique, It's the first time in my 3 years of choir hearing a SATB choir singing pop songs, mainly, Avril Lavigne, yes and i think they even swtiched Avril's pop songs to SATB, damn cool lah, they changed Avril's Skater Boy, Complicated to SATB parts =p, we were pretty much laughing back there as well, the SATB screwed up the pop song and they went out of tune instead. =p
After that supposed to go to shaun's house but instead went with Damain to stalk Jun Hao, waste of time, spent close to 1 to 2 hour running around J8 like some PI and looking at Jun Hao and hmm, supposedly his gf Damain only wanted to see them hold hands or something close to that and i had to go along and waste my time =.= ahh well. I'm tired Monday and Tuesday still got choir. sigh.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

So, holidays are here!

Holidays are here. Remeidals, choirs and performances are bugging up my time so many commintements during the holidays(for for these 2 weeks anyway)

Anyway read the Death Note Managa, It was really nice, one of the nicest manga I have read (Not That I read many) and the manga's intention has set me thinking. As quoted from the shinigami(Death God) in the manga, "There is no such thing as heaven or Hell","Death is equal" and "What awaits humans, is nothingness" It set me thinking and brought back the long-forgotten question of wad happens to us after death. Are there such things as heaven or hell, life after death, or is it just a inky void space where we do not exist or nothingness. Sigh, I wanted to forget this question around 1 year ago due to the fact that this question upsetted me so much I could not concentrate on anything I was doing, to everyone out there who seems to be suffering from the same thing (not being able to concentrate about anything due to the fact that the idea of death is upsetting) try telling yourself that you have only spent 16 years of your life or around there that is like only 10 to 20% of your whole life, there are still things to do (Marriage, Pubs, Clubs,Drink) and there are still so much time on your hand, now is not the time to think about death.It might work(well it worked for me).

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

I'm safe!

yay! I'm advanced, not promoted, but at least advanced. That means I have to go back to school everyday for these 2 weeks for remedials that last from as early as 8 to as late at 4 sigh, the price of promoting, but I'm gonna endure, I have to make it to sec 4!

On another note, as I'm typing my post, choir members are at camp now, maybe singing or playing cards, I have a weird feeling now, something like I'm not suppose to be here but to be there joining them instead, it's a weird feeling. That is most probably my last camp, and it's gone just like that. Sigh. So I've got to prepare for tomorrow now, Happy Holidays!

P.S. typing this on performancing firefox for the first time, seems like a nice add-on, so decided to try it, really good though! =)

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Gah, Am I gona retain?

I'm really really depressed today.Gah. Dunno wad to feel. We had to go for this special briefing tomorrow by the principal for potential retainees, Have I retained? I think I have. Gah, can't help feeling sad the whole day, Maybe the principal want us to work hard in sec 3 next year as we have retained or maybe, just MAYBE, the principal might call us up because he has somehow managed to scrap us thru and pushed us up to sec 4 and wants us to work hard. IF I get pushed up to sec 4 I PROMISE I will strive for As and do my best next year, I just wanna get promoted. Argh.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Birthday Celebration!

I had a full-day birthday celebration yesterday! It was so fun!
First off was waing up at 6am to go to school
Then it was the Social Studies Paper
Followed by an hour or less of break in which I had to study Add Maths and thus didn't eat
Then it was the Add Maths paper (which i kinda screwed up)cause my stomach was growling all the way.
After that, it was CHemistry remedial
Then, Geo remedial till 6
Then went to bishan library with kevin and terence.
I said one word to the opposite gender after 4 years.=X
Anyway, it was (to a certain extent) forced.
Then, I went home at 8 pm after a cup of mocha latte.
Then found there was no cake and no birthday parties(no surprise, I don't have one ever since I was born)
Then had stale pizza for dinner. My mom scolded(not exactly scolded, more of talked) me, saying that I always go home so late and neva tell her.Then I said I got no handphone how to call her, then she wanted to get me one, but I rejected it, so guai.=X
Anyway, I just found out I'm born under the full moon, sounds so cool rite? Maybe I'm the Chosen one or something.And while everyone in China, Singapore,Malaysia and a few parts of the world is celebrating my birthday while I'm mugging and can't celebrate it myself.=(
And it HAD to fall on the end of year exam every single year, it was on PSLE english, then on Maths, During sec 2 it was on science and now it was on SS and Add maths.gahs. When's my special 'born under the full moon' ability gonna appear and bring me away from this horrendous place full of conceit, envy and compeition!

Monday, October 02, 2006

The Final Fight... Will We Make It?

sooo.. English in 2 days' time, before a blast of the dynamite and the start of having headaches. Study, Study, Study. It's a student's life, what can we do? sigh.
People have been getting all worked-up and nervous but I seem to be taking it easy, is it a good or bad thing? sigh, maybe it's my happy-go-lucky attidute but some say i continue been so slack and not studying sure fail de. I dunno lah. I only want to get promoted to sec 4, I dun care abt the rest le. I want to get promoted. I really want to get promoted. I even willing to ... never mind. (I did not say anything!) But I want, I want, I want! If I get promoted I'll, argh (nothing!)

I keep on being optimestic and happy in front of others but is it a good thing? I don't seem to be suffering from exam stress.What is happening to me? Is it because I already sub-consiously given up hope? Or is it that my sub-consionous is underestimating the end of years. sigh. I hate making big decision.

Anyway, some people decided to go round with some dumb rumor that's not even true in the first place lor. So sianx, feel very deja vu, when someone did the same thing in primary school until even the teachers' got round to know about it.sigh.

P.S. Here's wishing you a Merry Mood and a Happy Exam Period!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Gah. I'm pissed at my dad.

I don't normally get pissed with my dad, or anyone for that matter, but he made a dumb ban that got me damn pissed off.

He came home at 8.30, walked to my room. I was happily(okieee, maybe not that happy, in fact I was dead tired) doing my homework with music at my ears(I was wearing headphones). He took off my headphones and forbid me to listen to music at all, saying that it was a bad habit (o.O, listening to music is a bad habit? woah.). I was like 'WTH!' No music? I didn't even do anything wrong? I was in fact quietly doing my homework! After that, he said,'You always on music so loud until the phone ring you neva pick up' Then, I told him, 'I didn't pick the phone was because my stupid brother was talking on the dumb phone, how to answer when he's using the phone?'(Our phone has 2 lines) Then he went,' I don't care, No more music for you.' WTH LAH. no more music?! I dun even have any more motivation to study le, and it had to happen right after i got inspired to start mugging for my end of years, now no more mood le. My dad's an ass. I hate him. Anyway, I plan to stay in school to mug more often now. Staying in school is the only place where i can listen to music, so ke lian TT, anyway stay in school ore conducive and if got study group can learn much more than solo learning. No distractions in school too. I plan to stay in school till 9.30pm every day, dun care liao. Who wants to pei me?

P.S. It just 2 more weeks to end of years! Start mugging people!

Saturday, September 02, 2006

I'm got a serioud social problem here.

The september holidays are here! I did pretty well for 3rd term pretty pleased with myself, even topped the level for literiture.=D yeah!

yeah, big problem. sigh. Relieased it after my trip to my old primary school during teachers' day. I seemed to lose all my communication power when talking to a girl. Went there and kept on staring at the floor and kept stuttering. After 4 years of not speaking to a teenage girl i seem to stutter and look at the ground until it seemed almost like a reflex action. Can't seem to look them in the eye and kept on looking at my shoe.gah. what's happening to me? My phobia seemed to tak on a serious turn and is now a social problem. I'm okay with chatting with them online, but can't seem to be able to talk to them face to face.gah. What's happening to me?

Friday, August 25, 2006

I HATE GAH

wad the hell lah. I hate choir lah. I fail because on the 3rd note. I only sang 3 DAMN NOTES before I was failed.I yue xiang yue bu gan yuan. WTH LAH 3 DAMNNN NOTES. Dun even have 2 nd chance somemore. and everyone else passed. onli got 3 failures, and the other 2 had chances and chances before they were failed. I feel and most likely was sabo-ed lah. dun like me then say lah! Use under-hand means to get me out of choir.Bitch asshole bloody hell.Nobody said anything and then you had to just fail me on the 3rd note, just because my falsetto decide to fail on me at the last moment and you fail me. WAD THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO LAH WHEN YOUR FALSETTO FAIL ON YOU LAH. NT LIKE YOUR FALSETTO NEVA FAIL BEFORE.The least you could do was give me another chance and hopefully my falsetto can come bak by then. I was doing so well today and didn't even fail the first part until you decided to grade me and fail my on my 3rd note. THE 3RD DAMN NOTE! I WAD the hell is wrong wif choir lah. and the part is tt so little ppl failed and most of them were junior sand u gave them chances. WAD THE HELL, JUST BECAUSE MY FALSETTO SCREW UP AND YOU COME FAIL ME ON THE 3RD NOTE. BITCH ASSHOLE. i HATE YOU FOREVER!

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Catholic High School Petition

News spread fast. Especially news to get some new head of school. A lot of students have been unhappy about the way the "Imperial palace Head" spends his money. First are the ponds at the outer sector of his palace, then followed by the bamboo forest beside his pond. As you walk into the palace, you can see a "cascading" waterfall. During your way there,a lot of statues can be found. Some are memorials of Catholic High Boys, some are abstract statues(which, if you look closly, there's a label called: Made In Beijing).A lot of students were very keen to sign this very offical petition that was supposed to be sent all the way up to the MOE. All the students were greatly anticipating the petition(which hit up to 12 pages in 1 to 2 weeks time)to be sent up. Unfortunately, due to the inapporiate handly of cofidental info, the press and media got wind of it, and burst the news out to the "Imperial Palace Head". As the idiom goes, "10 lies are needed to cover 1 (truth)" So as there were at least 8 to 10 truths, "Imperial Palace Head" had to call up his so-called donors(which he most probably bribed), and teachers(which he most probably bribed with promotion)and launch a big-scale Lie telling Campaign. As History teachers say, we must look at the source and must be able to come out wif conclusions. Source A:
Spoken from "Imperial Palace Head" " I challeneged the Editor-In-Charge to come to CHS to come and interview anyone they want, be it, teachers or students." followed quickly by," When the reporters ask you to give them a interview, do not speak to them, they nid a permission from us." So wad is the conclusion? They are hiding somthing that they do not want the students to tell the reporters about.If they hald a offical onterview with a student, you noe how it was held? With the principal and vice-principal staring sternly at the interviwee while the reporters are interviewing him. They dun noe this thing called pressuring ars!All the students of CHS were anticipating the salvation of our school only to be hit by failure.sighss.

In fact, there are points which the petition has forgotten to point out.
1)The increasing "school fees"
We have been paying around $32 to $42 a week.
ACCORDING to the "Imperial Palace Head" those money are for the companies that come in to consuel and educate us. Why do they get such expensive organizations in the first place? Do the outside world noe that the teachers have to buy their own paper and thus force us to pay for the worksheet! Fine. Let's say wad the "Imperial Palace Head" said is true, all the statues and waterfall and bamboo forest and the pond were DONATED by donors.Then where did the school funds go to? Why does it reach the step where the students have to pay for their own worksheets! Do anyone know that my father is a taxi-driver and because of the increasing taxi fare, no one wants to take taxi anywmore, My allowance is $20 a week, plau the school's "organization" money which is let's say $20, it's around $40 a week just for school! My dad is already facing econmoic problems though he does not tell me about it, and we, the students are forced to kip paying and paying! Let's say this week. We have to pay $23 to the DISC thingy and $7 for some unknown reason. Followed by a $10 for our sch funfair. That amounts up to $40! plus my allowance, that's $60! I dare not ask my dad for the money because I can sense he is suffering from economic problems and I am being forced to pay through my own allowance and thus have no money to eat! I noe the school is trying it's best. But not everyone is rich. My family is pratically broke because of the school. Even renting a small place does not cause $60 a week. This is nonsense. And we say we not put up with it any longer!

P.S. Media and Press, if you see this, please do not get me into trouble by bursting this out and displaying my name in any manner. It's okie though if my name and url of this blog is being kept stricly annonymous. I am alreadly deeply depressed from sch life and economic problems and teenage life and i do not want any more trouble. Please do not get a small commoner into trouble for speaking out his views.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Long time no Blog

It's been a longggg time since I blogged. Turned my blog into a cemetry in a few weeks time.hehe.

Updates so far...
Holidays are over, school are starting, but surprizingly, i dun feel the saddness of going bak to school. Instead, I felt happy, i guess that's because of the fact that my home is too chaotic and crowded with my mum's customers.

It seems like a lot of people brand me under the 'happy-go-lucky' group,including my tuition teacher. hmm, am I really that sort of person? I guess I tend to feel happy easily cause I fear death and thus 'celebrate' my life every day.Either that or my moody feeling has decided to take a turn for the better.Well, there's always a rainbow after the storm!

Choir camp was fun, and i realised a lot of things during the camp.
1)I can't play table-tennis for nuts, though I used a 'cheat' method to beat the most pro guy in choir.
2)A lot of sec 1s think I'm only sec 2. o.O I guess my childish mood is getting to me.I think that's also the reason they scold me. First time a sec 1 scold a senior, lol.
3)Sec 2 thinks I'm childish.Tend getting scolded by them seems normal now.(I'm the only senior who gets scolding from juniors.)
4)Best thing is, I'm okay with it!
5)It was fun!
6)My life during choir is going to end soon, much sooner than I thought. This is gonna be the last choir camp I'm going to attend.sobs.
7)I'm a senior without realising it.Maybe cause of my scolding from juniors.

I think that's all. Besides the fact that though I wanted to stop been so happy-go-lucky all the time and be focus on my work. But after thinking during the whole june holidays, I've decided to best go according to my own private personality and be happy and live life at it's happiest!

Sunday, April 23, 2006

In a Mess.

My mind feels like exploding, the stress is just too much on my mind. My mind feels like it has been blended in a blender and is all messed up. Filled with thoughts and stress..argh.

My mid-years are coming.Yet, I dun understand everything that the teachers are teaching, the teachers are like on chapter 7 and I'm still struggling with like chapter 3 or 4? The teacher's are just going too fast and I can't catch up. At home, my mind will be torn apart by my "holy" and "evil" side. The Holy side are telling me not to use my com and instead mug for my upcoming exams and there is still time for me to catch up to the lessons. However, when I open up my books,all the alien equations and formula will show itself to me and I cannot find any questions that I know how to do. Then the "evil" side of me will go, You don't know how to do one lah, instead of sighing here, y dun u go online and surf net and such, it will make you feel better. And I have to struggle with both sides of me, while not being able to tell my troubles to anyone and trying to slove it by myself, being my passive self. My life is being torn apart and my "holy" and "evil" side of me are having a war, taking my mind as their battlefield.

My social aspect is in a big mess too. Friends are ignoring me, hurtfully insulting me. I want to tell my troubles, spill them all out, but my life is in a mess now, there don't seem to be anyone relieable for me to tell my troubles to.My social aspect is screwed, friends are leaving one-by-one, and my mind is in a mess, It seems like the light of my life has disappeared. My mind seems to be engulfed by darkness and sadness, with no one being there to support me.

Now, with my mind being a big mess, the hidden urge for me to play an instrument came out and had to bug me like crazy. Whenever I am listening to music, I will just imagine myself being able to play an instrument, I seem to be going crazy, seeing this "image" whenever listening to music.

All these aspects of life is ripping my life apart, and I walk around like a zombie, feeling like ten dementors are around me, sucking up all the happiness that is left in me. I want to cry, but no tears come out.I want to tell a friend my troubles, but no one is there to listen. I want to scream it out, but there is no right venues.My mind wants to explode, but it can't. I am really depressed now, cutting my wrists sound really anticipating, feel like trying it out. I'm not a human anymore, I am not myself anymore.Where is my guardian angel when I need one? Is there anyone out there that can save me?

Friday, April 14, 2006

Argh. Stupid Alcoholic chocolate.

argh. My head feels a lot clearer and better today. Was almost drunk during english double period yesterday. argh. Ate some sort of alcoholic or rum chcolate during recess. Face became excessivly red and mind was blur. argh. Was not feeling clear during english, hate to go toilet a lot of times. That's all I remember, can;t exactly remember the rest.argh.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

My New Blogskin!

As promised, here is my new blogskin!:)
Looked Up, Down, Left, Right for a nice and simple blogskin but couldn't find any, till. I saw this one! Good looking, simple, cute and the best of all, the theme!
Guardian Angel, it set me thinking, The guardian angel, up in heavens, will follow you wherever you go may it be from myles to miles, The angel will protect you at all costs, even if it means the angel's angelhood. Had a near-death experience? The guardian angel will help you out and will try it's best to keep you right out from harm's way.
There's also a guardian angel in earth, in fact, it might be right beside you! Your true friends are your earthly guardian angel. They are the ones who will give you the answer when the teachers asks a question which you don't noe how to answer. They are the ones who will share with you their woes, weals and wealth. They are the ones who will stand beside you and protect you when someone bullies you. They are the ones who will lend you some money to use when you lost your wallet.
And if you have read my last post, I had a weirdest feeling that the guardian angel is the one who kept me together in one piece and told my consciounces to do what is right. So, I'm quite happy now, coming back home, spreading out all my homework on my table, doing them all before playing games on my computer, Controlling myself has became an easy task for me, for the guardian angel has taught me how.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Computer Or Studies

I know I hvae been daydreaming a lot at school, for people who didn't notice. That was cause I am torn at a dilemma, Computer(internet) or studies. The holy part of me tells me i should give up computer for my studies, however the other part of me is telling mi it is not possible to give up computer, in fact, it has become a reflex action for me to on the internet when I come home after school, after showering and eating, I will on my computer and start using it. It has become more of a addiction than a pure interest, taking part in forums, playing games, It has become a part of my life which I cannot survive without.
When I try to do my homework, I look at all the squilly words and maths which I dun even understand and then tells myself, "sian, so hard to do, I dun even understand, give a damn lah! Go surf net, then I'll back to my com." I want to give up com, my studies are dropping, I dun even understand the topics he teachers are teaching and now that the teachers have been so far in front but I just do not understand the topics... That's also the reason why I have been so moody in school lately and daydreamy, cause I feel torn apart, I know it is wrong to give up studies for com, very wrong.
But I just cannot stop myself, it's just like drugs, and I have been addicted so much that I just cannot give it up. I feel a good side and bad side of me(something I have never felt until now), tearing apart my body, using my body for tug-of-war, conflicting myself, arguring within me.
I just cannot take it anymore, using com is wrong, but I just cannot stop myself. This has been happening for quite a long time now, but I'm gonna explode soon if I do this post. I really need advice to slove the conflict within me before the good and bad side within me tear apart my body....
Or right, on a brighter note, I'm sorry blog! How could I forget ur birthday on March the 5th! Anyway, Here's to you, Happy Belated Birthday! Yeah! My visitors have increased to a total views of 2000 and rising! Wow! In just a year, this is a big feat, a really big one. And blog, for ur birthday present, I'm going to find a really nice blogskin and decorate you up! How about that, Would you like it?

P.S.I've been so moody over the dilemma that my brain is highly unstable, so dun blame me if I dun answer u when u call me... My brain is so unstable I'm even talking to my blog! It would take quite some time and advice for me to revert myself back to my happy-go-lucky state, Friends, thanks for your support, I can never repay u all..

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Lousy School

All right, I'm going to rant again, and especially after what happened today at assembly, I'm going to have a lot of things to rant about.

Talking about assembly today, at first I was pretty excited, since there was going to be a rock concert right here in this school and I'm guessing its the first time any school in singapore is gonna have a rock concert and have famous local rock bands like ronin and The SunS playing in school. Hey, I was really excited then. After the school song thingy(as usual). Well, the teachers TOLD us that the formal part was over and we could DO ANYTHING THE PERFORMERS WANTED US TO DO. Well, I knew we couldn't be that fortunate and well, we aren't.
Having the 98.7 DJs coming up was cool, way cool. Hey, Its not like you meet DJs who come up and start talking about the coolest rock music station around every day, especially in a school.Yeah, we had Daniel Ong and Justin talking and giving out CD hampers. After that, we had the ronins up first, yeah, the top half of the school stood up to you know the normal thing that people do in a rock concert. Yeah, and when the ronins started playing, the sec 4s went wild and having the old boys there only made things worst but hey, its a rock concert people are suppose to do that.Yeah, I know things were a bit rough at the sec 4s' section but its not gonna be again forever,so we might as well take this oppoturnity to groove in the beat and you know, things as such.When the ronins started playing black maria, we already have people throwing shoes, shirts and WTH, and orange!?!?!dunno where that came from, dun care anyway.
The teachers were starting to get pissed, damn pissed, maybe they were bullied by rock music or something, dunno why they hate it so much.Bitches.
Anyway, some teachers like steven ( dun noe wads his surnam) and (dun noe the teachers name) were trying to get people to sit down. Well, quite a lot of people whp didn't really like rock music sat down, but they got firece and people started sitting down, though the SunS were going,"WTH, people dun go sitting down in a rock concert, stand up!" But hey, edwin hang came up and started asking people to sit down. What to do, better follow the teachers or its BIG punshiment later. The perfomers were rock people, and this type of people hate being opposed especially by teachers, pointing at steven(dun noe wads his surname) was going,"Why can't you guys stand up, is it because of that guy, and quite a lot of people were going YES!Well, we were screwed, BIG TIME...
Thinking back at "Well, the teachers TOLD us that the formal part was over and we could DO ANYTHING THE PERFORMERS WANTED US TO DO" I knew we couldn't be that fortunate, I was right. The rock performers were obviously very pissed as well, going "Its your fault" at a teacher.
All right end about the rock concert thing, talking about it is making me pissed off again, I'm going to talk about choir.Yes. Choir.

I was doing some deep thinking while reading "Animal Farm" as I was waiting for the bus. Suddenly, this thought struck me. The choir is exactly like animal farm.(I noe people who have position in choir are not gonna like this, but if you dun understand what I'm talking about go get the book, or you can borrow it from me.)
Yeah, at first, the animals, with the major pig(who was very old)lead the animals to freedom by raging a war with the humans, they won but he died.(Very much like choir, when the choir was at its top-most form in choir with DEDICATED senoirs(who was like the major pig)like Ding jie and people as such.however, they went on after sec 4 and left the choir.)
Then the succesor, Napolean, came up and slowly , made himself king and "slaved" all the other animals, only those who sucked up to him, the other pigs, were enjoying life. Having the propoganda that he was the best and he would lead the animal to victory when heand the other pigs were actually enjoying life.Just what's happening in choir.
And the most famous phrase in the whole story, which appiles to choir fully."All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others." I fully agree.

P.S. I know people with authories will not like what I say about choir, a lot. but this is my heart-felt comment about choir and most propabaly, the rest of the choir members who have no postition.Even if those people with authorities will go to the extent of kicking me out of choir because of this post, it was worth it as this was what happened in the story too. A horse managed to oppose him and was sent to the horse salughter. If they want to be exactly like Napolean, go on, Complete the Story.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Happy New Year!

ahh, yes, 2006. The year of sec 3s. I've not blogged for so long, so I'm gonna put everything in here. Well, our teachers are not eacaxtly very good, but they're okay. We have a ultra homework-robotron 2006 (Newest Edition)(Gives extra and ulimate homework)(Must Buy!) lol. and we've got some teacher, (for fear of stupid informers trying to sue mi, I'm not gonna insult the teacher here,) who teachs the same lesson over and over again till I droop to sleep.She has got a serious case of "lao ren chi dai zhen". wadever, and we've also got some weird teacher who act cute and gives sweet, mi thinks she got the wrong class, we're not primary school, for goodness sake. Then we've got Mr.Tan, one of the best teacher's among the lot, if you ask mi.

Talking about choir, well, I not exactly, enuthastic about choir this year, from all the homework given by homework-robotron, and with all the fun-loving,Jia Sheng-disturbing junoirs as most of them went to sops(traitor!) and we're onli left with a few ppl like Jimmy and such. Mr Kwei's songs are as hard as usual, still standing at the back, and such. Everyday, begging fate not to get me kicked out of choir.

Exams are worse than ever still, with class tests and such going on so early.Bitchy teachers.(opps!)

But I LOVE this year! Hey! I dun get bullied this year, I dun get tricked this year, I dun get insulted this year, and I dun get whacked! What more can I ask?(except less homework of course!)

All right, my visitor count are still rising steadily, that means my blog's not dead yet! At least ppl bothers to read my blog. All right, gotta do homework robot-tron's homework and gotta revise for the "lao ren chi dai zhen" teacher's maths test. Hey! I gotta pass probation man!

Happy New Year people! May your wishes come true and your resolution succeed, haven't thought of mine yet, but It might be one of them:
1) Pass my probation(Very important)
2)Dun get kicked out of choir
3)Disable homework-robotron
4)Cure the maths teacher of "lao ren chi dai zhen"
5) Get good results
6) Get on the good side of my friends(Most important)


All right, gotta go now, Happy New Year people!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

King's radio stream

haha..all right, I've managed to get my own radio stream online now, just go to kingstream.blogspot.com, get the plugin, the link is below,install it, and viola!
Its online when I say so in msn, cool rite? King's radio stream offically opened!Yeah!