I'm sick and tired. =(

I'm tired. and sick.

I have this dreaded feeling whenever i'm posting. Why can't my life be better ? Why must it be bad news whenever i post here? Why can't the world be a better place?



I'm hiding in my room, blasting loud rock music in my ears to cover out the noise outside. My parents are fighting and quarrelling again.

Whenever they start quarrelling,I have this weird feeling. the feeling of dread and helpless-ness. It's unlike any other feeling and this feeling can only be felt when two of your most beloved people starts fighting with one another. It's not even felt when two of your most and best-est friends quarrell and fight. This feeling drags my heart down. I.. it can't be described.



My mom has been shouting"i want to divorce you" for a few minutes now. I mean, if you want to divorce, just go get the damn letter from the lawyer and divorce la. I'll rather a broken family than a family that is in chaos all the time.



They've been fighting since some time last year. it's always fight, then quiet for a while(normally a week or 2) then start quarrelling again. My dad is always sulking and my mum won't give in.



I'm trapped. In the unfeeling and horrid family. I just want them to stop quarrelling. If the quarrelling can't be stopped. I'll seriously rather they just divorce each other and get the hell out of here. I'm sick.and fed-up.


EDIT:
I came home from tuition. and my mum and dad were quarrelling. then they went into their room. then more quarrelling ensued. then my dad came out and slept on the sofa. my mum could be heard throwing things and crying inside. then when she came out, there was blood all over her. the police came shortly and tried to calm her down, then the medics came and took her to hospital, my bro went off with her, my dad's now at home and I've locked myself in the room, I'm shocked and traumatise. I need help.

AND THIS IS NOT A FUCKING JOKE. I'M GOING CRAZY.
-If you do not trust your other half, why marry him in the first place?-