Here's some twinkle for your eyes

My time out feels so, so, fast.

I think i know why,
i think i know how.

but i still have to find out who.

somewhere,
somehow.


i think i need to party more.
get drunk,
spew vulgarities at the world,
and be an overall obnoxious person.

i think i need that.

we're too young to be sitting around.

a long week.

 though every week pretty much seems like a long week.

which could be due to my tiredness


which could be due to the ups and downs,


which could be due to the audits


which could be due to the army,


which could be due to the government,

which could be due to politics,

which could be due to people's need for a central command,

which could be due for an inherent need for organization,

which could be due to an ancestor's gene due to a mishap with chaos,

which could be due to everything else.

so everything else is to blame.

so there.  

maybe I should just accept it.

I'm tired.

of fighting,
of struggling.

to be heard,
to be recognized,
to be known.

maybe it's time
to just fall.
and stop trying to fly.

one more time,
then i'm gone.