Gah, Am I gona retain?

I'm really really depressed today.Gah. Dunno wad to feel. We had to go for this special briefing tomorrow by the principal for potential retainees, Have I retained? I think I have. Gah, can't help feeling sad the whole day, Maybe the principal want us to work hard in sec 3 next year as we have retained or maybe, just MAYBE, the principal might call us up because he has somehow managed to scrap us thru and pushed us up to sec 4 and wants us to work hard. IF I get pushed up to sec 4 I PROMISE I will strive for As and do my best next year, I just wanna get promoted. Argh.